lunar new year!au

hu hu hu, ur in 4 a treat C;

what am i saying... i wrote this in theology class instead of listening to my professor X~X

And FUUUUUUUUUUUCK,

I just realized THIS IS GONNA BE CONTROVERSIAL AF... I MIGHT TAKE IT DOWN IF I DECIDE THAT IT'S TOO MUCH OR SOMETHING *sweats*

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DING! DING!

"COMING!" DOWOON LEAPED OFF THE COUCH, RUNNING OVER TO THE DOOR. HIS HYUNGS HAD LEFT THE APARTMENT A FEW MINUTES AGO AND HE FIGURED THAT IT WAS JUST JAEHYUNG-HYUNG OR YOUNGHYUN-HYUNG RETURNING BECAUSE THEY FORGOT THEIR KEYS. AS HE ENERGETICALLY SWUNG OPEN THE DOOR, LOOKING UP WITH THE EXPECTATION TO BE MET WITH THE SHEEPISH GRIN OF ONE OF HIS OBNOXIOUSLY TALL ROOMMATES, HE WAS INSTEAD MET WITH THE SIGHT OF NOTHINGNESS. SLIGHTLY CONFUSED, THE YOUNG MAN GRADUALLY MOVED HIS EYES DOWN UNTIL THEY SETTLED ON A FIGURE SLIGHTLY SMALLER AND MORE SLENDER THAN HIM. THE MAN WAS STANDING WITH HIS BACK TO HIM, SHOULDERS SHIFTING UP AND DOWN IN NERVOUSNESS. "WONPIL-HYUNG?" HE ASKED, UNSURE OF HIMSELF. SOMEHOW, DOWOON FELT THAT HIS JUDGEMENT WAS COMPLETELY OFF, BUT HE DIDN'T HAVE ANY OTHER GUESSES AT THE MOMENT.

HIS SUSPICIONS THAT HIS GUESS WAS NO WHERE NEAR CORRECT TURNED OUT TO BE TRUE, AS THE PERSON WHO NERVOUSLY TURNED AROUND TO FACE HIM, HOLDING A RED BOX TO HIS CHEST, WAS DEFINITELY NOT WONPIL-HYUNG. DOWOON'S JAW DROPPED AS HE STARED AT THE MAN IN FRONT OF HIM. "H--HEY, DOWOON-SSI."

AT A LOSS FOR WORDS, DOWOON JUST KEPT STARING AT THE BRUNETTE SHIFTING FROM FOOT TO FOOT ONLY HALF A METER IN FRONT OF HIM. WHEN THE OTHER MAN LOOKED DOWN AND CLEARED HIS THROAT IN AN EFFORT TO EASE THE AWKWARD TENSION, DOWOON FINALLY SNAPPED OUT OF HIS DAZE AND STEPPED FORWARD. HE CAREFULLY WRAPPED THE MAN IN A HUG, MUTTERING RANDOM SOUNDS INTO HIS SHOULDER. AS AN ARM WAS SLOWLY SLUNK AROUND HIS WAIST, DOWOON FOUND HIMSELF SAYING ACTUAL WORDS BETWEEN THE RANDOM GIBBERISH HE HAD BEEN MURMURING BEFORE. "OH MY - DFSDJWER - YOU'RE HERE? JAKLSJD - HOW ARE YOU? - JSKADKW - KWAWE - HOW IS YOUR SISTER? - FEASJEDLKWJ - KWJEQJ - I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH..."

THE BRUNETTE STROKED HIS THUMB OVER THE CURVE OF DOWOON'S HIP, NUDGING THE BLACK-HAIRED MAN'S CHEST WITH HIS CHEEK. "I'VE MISSED YOU, TOO, DOWOON-SSI..." HE GENTLY PUSHED DOWOON AWAY FROM HIMSELF SO HE COULD LOOK HIM IN THE EYE. THE MAN FINALLY SPOKE AFTER HE FOUND HIS VOICE ONCE MORE. IT WAS SLIGHTLY RASPY WITH WORRY AND A TINGE OF FEAR. "I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH... SO, SO MUCH. BUT THERE WERE SOME THINGS I HAD TO DO."

DOWOON STARED AT THE MAN FOR A FEW SECONDS MORE BEFORE PULLING HIM IN FOR ANOTHER HUG AND SECURELY WRAPPING HIS ARMS AROUND THE BRUNETTE'S SHOULDERS. "I KNOW. YOU TOLD ME. I'M JUST HAPPY TO SEE YOU AGAIN, JUNHYUK-HYUNG."

"I'M HAPPY TO FINALLY SEE YOU AGAIN, TOO."

"WHY DON'T YOU COME IN, HYUNG?" DOWOON ASKED ONCE HE PULLED BACK FROM THE HUG, HOLDING ONTO THE NODDING BRUNETTE'S HAND AND LEADING HIM INTO THE APARTMENT. "YOU SHOULD HAVE TEXTED ME THAT YOU WERE COMING! I WOULD HAVE PUT ON TEA..."

"IT'S OKAY, DOWOON-SSI. I JUST WANTED TO SURPRISE YOU." A WARM SMILE PLAYED AT THE OLDER MAN'S MOUTH AS DOWOON OFFERED HIM A SEAT ON THE COUCH AND RUSHED OFF TO SET THE KETTLE.

"I DON'T WANT YOU TO THINK THAT I'M NOT A WELCOMING HOST, THOUGH!" DOWOON SHOUTED FROM THE KITCHEN, EMERGING A MINUTE LATER AND PLOPPING DOWN BESIDE JUNHYUK. NUDGING HIS HYUNG'S SHOULDER. POKING THE BRUNETTE'S CHEEK.

"I'M SORRY... I ALWAYS TEASED YOU A LOT..." JUNHYUK APOLOGETICALLY RUBBED DOWOON'S KNEE.

"I KNOW YOU DIDN'T MEAN IT. YOU TEASED ALL OF US. AND WE TEASED YOU, TOO. I REMEMBER I HUNG UP THE PHONE ON YOU ONCE WHEN YOU WERE SPEAKING TO YOUNGHYUN-HYUNG. IT WAS FUNNY TO HEAR YOU GET ALL MAD AT ME WHEN HE CALLED YOU BACK, BUT I STILL FELT REALLY BAD ABOUT IT."

JUNHYUK LOOKED DOWN AT HIS LAP, CHEWING ON HIS LIP. "THAT'S NO WHERE NEAR AS BAD AS WHAT I'VE PUT ALL OF YOU THROUGH..."

DOWOON SIGHED, RESTING HIS HEAD ON HIS HYUNG'S SHOULDER. "BUT I KNOW THAT YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT ANY OF US. AND IT WASN'T EVEN YOUR FAULT!" HIS HAND SLOWLY SLUNK OVER TO JUNHYUK'S, HIS FINGERTIPS GENTLY SLIDING OVER THE OTHER MAN'S UNTIL HIS HAND WAS RESTING ON THE BRUNETTE'S AND SQUEEZING IT IN REASSURANCE. "YOU HAD TO BE THERE FOR YOUR SISTER. I UNDERSTAND THAT."

"MM." JUNHYUK WENT QUIET AGAIN, RESTING HIS FREE HAND ATOP DOWOON'S AND SHIFTING HIS POSITION A BIT SO HE COULD PLACE HIS CHEEK ON THE YOUNGER MAN'S HEAD. "I SHOULD HAVE TALKED TO YOU IN PERSON INSTEAD OF DOING EVERYTHING OVER THE PHONE... BUT I WAS WAY TOO MUCH OF A COWARD."

"YOU'RE NOT A COWARD, HYUNG! IF I WAS YOU, I WOULD PROBABLY NOT EVEN CALL OR TEXT, I'D BE TOO SCARED! I'M REALLY HAPPY YOU STAYED IN CONTACT EVEN THOUGH YOU WERE SCARED. I'M HAPPY YOU FIGURED EVERYTHING OUT AND GOT THAT GIRL AWAY FROM YOUR SISTER." DOWOON SIGHED AND CIRCLED HIS THUMB OVER JUNHYUK'S KNUCKLE. "I'M JUST SAD THAT YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH SO MUCH TO DO THAT. YOU'RE REALLY BRAVE, HYUNG."

"I'M FAR FROM BRAVE, DOWOON-SSI." JUNHYUK ALSO RELEASED A SIGH, PRESSING HIS SIDE TO DOWOON'S. "BUT I HAVE TO PROTECT MY SISTER. THAT GIRL WAS USING HER, AND IT WAS HURTING ME TO SEE MY SISTER IN PAIN. I HATED THAT GIRL FOR USING MY SISTER, THEN. I'M OVER IT NOW. IT HURT BEFORE, BUT NOT SO MUCH ANYMORE. BUT IT STILL HURTS ME THAT I HAD TO LIE TO ALL OF YOU THAT I WAS GOING OUT WITH THAT GIRL. I HURT ME TO LEAVE YOU HANGING JUST SO THAT GIRL WOULDN'T GET MY SISTER IN TROUBLE. I DIDN'T WANT NOONA TO SUFFER JUST BECAUSE SHE LIKES GIRLS. BUT I HATED THAT I HAD TO LIE TO YOU. I'M JUST HAPPY EVERYTHING'S OVER AND THAT GIRL IS GONE. I'M HAPPY YOU DIDN'T HATE ME WHEN I EXPLAINED. BUT IT STILL HURTS TO THINK THAT I HURT YOU SO MUCH. I HURT THE ONES I LOVE MOST."

"BUT WE LOVE YOU MOST, TOO. IT'LL TAKE THEM MORE TIME TO UNDERSTAND THAN ME... BUT HYUNGS WILL UNDERSTAND FOR SURE!" DOWOON WAS CUT OFF BY THE SOUND OF THE KETTLE.

JUNHYUK GOT UP FROM THE COUCH AND GAVE DOWOON THE RED BOX. "I'LL GET THE KETTLE, DOWOON-SSI. YOU SHOULD OPEN THE BOX."

DOWOON NODDED, WATCHING JUNHYUK ENTER THE KITCHEN. ONCE THE BRUNETTE WAS NO LONGER VISIBLE, DOWOON TURNED TO THE BOX AND PULLED OFF THE YELLOW RIBBON. HE OPENED THE RED LID AND TOOK OUT WHAT WAS INSIDE THE BOX. IT WAS A DOG TOY, A SOFT ONE. DOWOON SET THE BOX ASIDE AND BROUGHT THE DOG TO HIS FACE, RUBBING HIS CHEEK AGAINST ITS FAUX FUR. HE LAUGHED IN JOY, CUDDLING THE TOY CLOSE TO HIS CHEST AND GIVING THE TOP OF ITS HEAD A KISS.

JUNHYUK SOON CAME OUT OF THE KITCHEN, CARRYING THE TEA POT TO THE COFFEE TABLE AND CAREFULLY SETTING IT THERE ALONG WITH TWO TEA CUPS. SEEING DOWOON HUGGING THE TOY AND PRESSING KISSES TO ITS HEAD CAUSED A SOFT LAUGH TO BUBBLE UP IN THE BRUNETTE'S THROAT. "YOU WANTED ONE, RIGHT?"

"YEAH! YOU REMEMBERED?"

"OF COURSE." JUNHYUK SAT BESIDE THE YOUNGER MAN, SMILING AT HIM.

DOWOON SCOOTED CLOSER AND PRESSED HIS SIDE TO JUNHYUK'S LIKE BEFORE. "HYUUUUNG!" HE SAID, HIS LOUD VOICE FILLED WITH HAPPINESS. "IT'S REALLY SOFT! THANK YOU!!"

"I'M GLAD YOU LIKE IT, DOWOON-SSI."

"I LIKE YOU MORE!"

"WHAT?!"

"I SAID, I LIKE YOU MORE, HYUNG!!" DOWOON PLACED THE DOG BESIDE HIM ON THE COUCH AND THEN ENVELOPED HIS HYUNG IN A HUG. "IS THERE A REASON YOU DECIDED TO COME TODAY? NOT ANY OTHER DAY?"

JUNHYUK'S LIPS CURVED INTO A SOFT SMILE AND HIS EYES GLEAMED WITH A SLIGHTLY FARAWAY LOOK, AS IF A HAPPY MEMORY WAS PLAYING IN HIS MIND. HE THEN LOOKED OVER AT DOWOON WITH THAT ONE SMILE THAT NEVER FAILED TO MAKE THE YOUNGER MAN'S HEART HICCUP AND GENTLY MURMURED, "I JUST REMEMBERED HOW MUCH YOU REMIND ME OF A PUPPY."

"A PUPPY?"

"IT'S THE YEAR OF THE DOG, SO I THOUGHT TO MYSELF: JUNHYUK, IF YOU DON'T STEP UP AND TALK TO DOWOON-SSI LIKE A MAN ON THE FIRST DAY OF THE YEAR THAT RESEMBLES HIM, YOU'LL NEVER BRING YOURSELF TO!" JUNHYUK LEANED BACK IN HIS SEAT, BRINGING HIS KNEES UP TO HIS CHEST SO HE COULD HIDE HIS FACE BEHIND THEM. "I'M TIRED OF BEING TOO SCARED TO TALK TO ALL OF YOU AGAIN... I'M TIRED OF BEING EMBARRASSED... I'M TIRED OF ALL THE MISUNDERSTANDINGS AND THE ANGER AND THE FEAR. IT'S ALL SO MESSED UP, AND I WANT TO START AGAIN. I WANT TO START FROM THE BEGINNING SO I CAN FINALLY SEE YOU AGAIN IN PERSON AND HEAR THE SOUND OF YOUR VOICE AND FEEL THE TOUCH OF YOUR FINGERS ON MINE... I WANT TO START FROM THE BEGINNING, AND I WANT TO SPEND MY YEAR WITH YOU." JUNHYUK PEEKED AT THE GAPING MAN IN FRONT OF HIM FROM BETWEEN HIS KNEES, HIS EARS STARTING TO TURN A LIGHT SHADE OF PINK. "I WANT TO BE WITH YOU THIS YEAR, AND I WANT TO PROVE TO EVERYONE THAT I'M NOT SCARED ANYMORE. THAT I AM MORE THAN A CONTAINER OF LIES KEEPING MY SISTER'S SECRETS, THAT I'M MORE THAN SOME DISAPPEARING FACE IN EVERYONE'S LIVES. AND, MOST OF ALL..." HIS VOICE GOT QUIETER AND MORE BASHFUL, STIRRING DOWOON'S HEART UNTIL HE COULD BARELY HEAR JUNHYUK'S VOICE OVER ITS FRANTIC BEATING. "I WANT TO PROVE TO YOU THAT I WON'T LEAVE YOU EVER AGAIN, AS LONG AS YOU STILL WANT A FRESH START."

DOWOON'S FACE WAS FULLY RED, HE COULD FEEL IT IGNITE IN FLAMES. IT BURNT SO MUCH IT WAS REFRESHING. HE HAD NEVER BEEN MUCH OF A VERBAL PERSON, ALMOST ALWAYS RELYING ON ACTIONS TO SHOW HIS FEELINGS TO THOSE AROUND HIM. SO THE YOUNG MAN FOLLOWED HIS INSTINCTS AND JUMPED ON JUNHYUK, CUDDLING HIM TO HIS CHEST. HE PEPPERED KISSES ON HIS HYUNG'S CLOTHED SHOULDERS, FEELING THE MAN WRIGGLE BENEATH HIM AS HE LAUGHED BECAUSE OF THE TICKLISH SENSATION ENVELOPING HIS SHOULDERS. HE KEPT SLOPPILY PRESSING KISSES TO JUNHYUK'S SHOULDERS UNTIL THEY BOTH TUMBLED BACKWARDS ONTO THE COUCH, DOWOON LANDING ON TOP OF JUNHYUK. HIS KISSES EVENTUALLY GREW SLOWER AND LONGER, HIS EYES CLOSED IN A SOLEMN CALMNESS AS HE GENTLY LOOPED HIS ARMS AROUND THE BRUNETTE'S WAIST. HE FELT JUNHYUK SLIDE HIS HANDS DOWN HIS BACK UNTIL THEY RESTED ON HIS HIPS AND SIGHED OUT INTO THE FABRIC OF HIS HYUNG'S LONG-SLEEVED SHIRT IN CONTENTMENT. WITH HIS EYES STILL CLOSED, THE YOUNGER MAN MURMURED, "I'VE WANTED A FRESH START SINCE THE DAY YOU LEFT."

"I'M SORRY I EVER DID." JUNHYUK BURIED HIS NOSE IN DOWOON'S HAIR AND LET HIS EYES SHUT IN PEACE. "I HAVEN'T FELT SO AT EASE SINCE THAT DAY. I JUST COULDN'T LIVE WITH MYSELF, KNOWING THAT I WAS HURTING MY FRIENDS AND TELLING LIES LEFT AND RIGHT. BUT IT'S TIME FOR ME TO OWN UP TO MY MISTAKES AND FIX ALL THE MISUNDERSTANDINGS IN PERSON. IT'S A NEW YEAR, AND IT'S TIME TO CLEAN UP MY PAST MESS."

"THAT'S RIGHT," DOWOON MURMURED, SLINKING HIS FINGERS INTO JUNHYUK'S HAIR AND STROKING IT IN HAPPINESS.

"YESTERDAY WAS LUNAR NEW YEAR'S EVE, CLEANING DAY, THE DAY WHEN EVERYONE GETS READY TO START THE NEXT YEAR ANEW. AND TODAY IS DAY 1."

"WHEN CAN EVERYTHING MAKE SENSE, THEN? WHEN CAN WE MOVE BACK IN TOGETHER?" DOWOON MURMURED INTO HIS HYUNG'S SHOULDER. "I KNOW YOUNGHYUN-HYUNG AND JAEHYUNG-HYUNG WANT ME OUT. AND I KNOW YOU WANT ME IN."

JUNHYUK CHUCKLED AND PATTED DOWOON'S HIP. "I DO WANT YOU IN. I MISSED LIVING WITH YOU SO MUCH..." HE THOUGHT FOR A FEW SECONDS BEFORE MURMURING, "HOW ABOUT... DAY 6?"

"DAY 6?"

"YES. I WILL CLEAR EVERYTHING UP BY DAY 6. ON THE SIXTH DAY OF THE NEW YEAR, EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY AGAIN."

"I HOPE IT WILL."

"IT WILL. I PROMISE." AND WITH THIS, JUNHYUK AND DOWOON BOTH SMILED, HUGGING EACH OTHER CLOSE ON THE FIRST DAY OF THE YEAR OF THE DOG, THE YEAR OF CLEARED MISUNDERSTANDINGS, THE YEAR OF PURITY, LOYALTY, AND HONESTY.

WELL, THIS STORY SUCKS 60X MORE THAN MY OTHER ONES...

I APOLOGIZE *bows and cries tears of legit confusion*

IF you DON'T want TO read A pretty LONG and CONFUSING rant, YOU should PROBABLY just SKIP the NEXT part... THE STORY is already FINISHED, ANYWAY... EHEHE, thank you so much for reading!! <3

CAN I JUST MENTION THAT FROM WHAT I SEE, SOME PEOPLE WERE DISSING ON JUNHYUK or JUNHYEOK (sometimes it's romanized like that) FOR NO REASON WHATSOEVER, BECAUSE THE DATING THING WAS ALL A RUMOR AND NOBODY REALLY KNOWS WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED (i mean, IT'S REALLY, REALLY EASY TO MAKE FAKE SCREENSHOTS OF TEXT-POSTS THAT DON'T ACTUALLY EXIST, THESE DAYS...)

i just wish people didn't have to hate on other people. i wish no one would have hated on junhyuk, too. it's really difficult to tell people's motives and to know what actually happened, especially when it comes to famous people, and it bugs me that junhyuk (among other people) had to experience pressure and critique because of an issue that wasn't even assuredly true (that reminds me of the whole issue with top of big bang, when he was caught smoking marijuana one time or something and was receiving so much hate and punishment for it, like WHAT THE FUCK?? IT ONLY SEEMS AS BAD AS IT DOES when people make it that way, especially authorities, like damn... it didn't have to be publicized that way, to that extent, i mean... in america, there has been WAY worse and nothing was done about that OH FUCK I BETTER JUSST SHUT UP ALREADY). JUNHYUK'S GONE THRU A LOT; HIS EXPERIENCES LEFT HIM FEARING PEOPLE FOR A WHILE, AND HE JUST WANTED A FRESH START ON THE UNIT. LUCKILY, HE HAS FOUND A NEW START NOW!

YAY!!

I JUST WISH NO ONE WOULD SPREAD USELESS HATE OVER SOMETHING THAT IS NOT EVEN CERTAIN, because that kinda stuff really hurts and scars, ya know? (sorry about the rant... i just wanted to get it out of my system, bc this issue has been bugging me SO FUCKING MUCH, ever since i heard about people judging junhyuk over rumours??? :/ like, really? gossip is fucking overrated... aish)

THANK YOU, AND I LOVE Y'ALL!!! <3

*hero*