oliver wood
hey jax are you okay? did
we do something wrong?

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charlotte's web
sorry that we pushed evan
into telling us your name,
didn't think it was a big deal

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alice in wonderland
what's going on with you? why
are you ignoring all of us? becuase
we know your name - that's
nothing. it's just your name
we're not going to start calling
you it or anything so stop being
so dramatic

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even steven
sorry that i told everyone your
name, it didn't seem like such a
big deal. can you just talk to
me already? i'm worried about
you

even steven
okay

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jax
i feel bad for ignoring all
of them

hoseph
why?

jax
because they keep texting and
are asking me what's wrong and
if im okay and i feel bad for not
telling them anything because
they are my friends but i just
hate them knowing because all
i wanted was to put all that
behind me

hoseph
you are allowed time to kinda
think it all through and calm
down

jax
but alice is angry with me. she
just thinks im being overdramatic
and i think evan is the same and
so does oliver. i think lottie is
really the only one who kinda
understands and is okay with me
taking some time

hoseph
well fuck them

jax
but i like them. they're my friends
and i hate ignoring them because
evan was the one who told them
so i should really just be mad at
him but im mad at the others for
not understanding and pushing
him to say it

hoseph
im sorry

jax
it's fine. i just wanted to forget
all about who im supposed to be
and what my parents want
because im not that and i just
wanna be myself without that
pressure and when i hear my name
it feels like that pressure is back

hoseph
even though they aren't
pressuring you?

jax
yeah

jax
i don't know, i just hate it and
i hate that im dealing with it
like this but i don't know how
else to deal with it because
i don't wanna talk to them and
hear them say that name

jax
it's jackson, by the way. not bad
but i still hate it

hoseph
i like jax better

[HE CAN'T HELP BUT SMILE]

jax
thanks

hoseph
no problem. i really do mean it,
jax is a much better name