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Dear Diary

(AN: Can refer to chapter 18)

Sorry for forgetting you...

I was not in the state to share anything with you...

The past few days I was facing hell...

But now I am fine...So I am back to you

And to be frank I was really pissed off with Sona

Something was wrong with her...

I felt like she was avoiding me...no...actually she was purposely trying to avoid me...

But why???

What did I do wrong???

And as far as I know, I didn't do anything that she doesn't like...

In fact I am doing everything according to her...everything that she wants me to do...I am coming home on time...having food and sleep on time

Then where did I go wrong???

I didn't ask her to do make tea for me

I didn't ask her to wait for me

I didn't ask her to make me sleep

I didn't ask her to do anything for me...

It was her who started making tea for me...and it was completely on her own wish...

But now suddenly she is changed...

She stopped making tea for me...

She is avoiding talking to me...

She is literally avoiding to have single eye contact with me...

Why???

Why such a sudden change???

I am sorry...

This is wrong...totally wrong

First, you behave in a way that a person is habituated to you...and then suddenly you start behaving like a complete stranger

It hurts...

It really hurts like hell

And this odd behaviour of hers was giving hell negative vibes to me...all of sudden I was drowning into the same fear that shudders my soul...

Her behaviour towards me was awakening the same nightmare that I am afraid to death...

The sudden change in her behaviour was recreating the worst memories of my life...

Years back it happened the same with me and still I couldn't move myself away from it...I am still rooted to that incident because that incident has pierced its roots deep into my soul that even voluntarily I can't take a baby step away from it...

Years back Maa did the same to me...she distanced herself from me

Very easily I was asked to stay from the person who was the only world to me...

And what happened...

She left me...

And I am feeling like I am reliving the moment...

And it's breaking me badly...I am unable to take it

I can't even dare to think about it...

But then how can my life be so peaceful...

Again I was attacked by the horrifying memory...

Sorry baby...I am really sorry...I didn't mean to hurt you...I did not know that my behaviour would hurt you to this extent...its just that I didn't want to get carried away...it was just an outcome of those circumstances

But this time it was a different case...this time I had my strength by my side...I had my Sona with me...

The moment she engulfed me in her protective embrace all the darkness was gone and I felt safe and secured...

In her arms, I felt alive...

The moment she assured me that she is with me and will always be with me I couldn't resist myself...Tightening my grip on her waist I tried to hold her close to me....so close that she won't even think of leaving me

I was scared to lose her...I was scared to survive the distance from her

But when she took me in her arms...my soul that was turned cool gained the much-desired warmth...

The only thing I wanted on this earth was her warm embrace and nothing else...

How much I was longing for her embrace...her warmth...her touch

At that moment I couldn't express the depth of my emotion in words...

All I wanted was to hold her close to me...I was scared to close my eyes because Maa left me in the same condition...

She left me when I was sleeping...

And the only thought that kept ranting my mind was...what if I close my eyes and Sona leaves just like Maa

But Sona promised me that she won't leave me...I clutched her hand close to my chest so that my horrified heart can feel her presence and be a little calm...

And when her lips touched my forehead affectionately it gave me a motherly feeling...Maa used to do the same when I would get scared

And at that very moment, my wife had become a mother to me...

A man getting a woman who can be his wife and mother both is such a blessing

What else do I need??

Just like a mother she patted my head and made me sleep like a small baby...

Her lips were on my forehead but I felt them more on my soul...

Her assurance was vocal but it was written on my soul...

And what else do I need??

And the next day was super fun...

(AN: Can refer to chapter 19)

She imposed a strict rule over my tea habit...

As per my strict wife's order, I can only have 2 cups of tea a day...

And the reason she gave for so funny...

She said if I continue with my tea habit my six-pack body will be turned into a family pack body

And I so wanted to confess her...neither a six-pack nor eight pack I want to have a big 12 number dozen family pack with her

Let's plan Aarna first🙈

And unknowingly a tear escaped my eye as I was smiling at my husband's family planning

But I kept mum thinking she will be scared listening to my wish list

And during all this, I found something new and a bit romantic

My wife finds me effortlessly handsome and hot...

Wow...I am so proud of myself

Finally, my hours of the workout was proved out to be successful with her one single compliment

I controlled myself not to blush at her compliment or else I would have made fun of myself in front of her...

But I think I need to increase my workout time so that I can get more compliments...

I enjoyed it when she was embarrassed with a tint of pink blush on her cheeks...

She looks cute with those round pink Shimla apples...my all-time favourite fruit

I know the further dialogue🙈

But more than her pink blushing face...her innocent filled face felt more attractive

With her head covered with the dupatta...the pinch of vermillion in her partition and the nuptial chain around her neck adorned my woman with my name

Surrounded by the light of the sacred diya lightened in our pooja room...she looked so angelic...

And as always my body took baby steps towards her and in no time unknowingly I was kneeling next to her...

Knelt in front of the stone monument...joining her hands she was praying and the holy yellowish-orange light falling on her face made her look even more divine...

She was so pure in that state that without my knowledge my hands got lifted in front of the so-called God...

I never believe in the word called God..

He doesn't exist...because if he did exist then today Maa would have been with me...he wouldn't have separated a little son from his mother...

But when I saw her praying so innocently and wholeheartedly an unknown emotion rushed into me and closing my eyes I just said "Bless her with everything she wants"

She is unleashing some unknown and new emotions in me...

Never in my life I have joined hands in front of any stone monument but this girl is doing so many things to me

The things that I ever even imagined to do...

But then I am obedient husband...

Poor Arjun obeys his wife...

So anything for my wife...

But later with what happened next the naughty me was back...

As she slept in the sitting position for the whole night I was sure she must be having a severe neck pain

So I thought of reducing the pain with the pain reliever and asked her to move her hair...

And when her peacock-like slender neck was exposed to my eyes I gulped a lump of the thickest size when my eyes captured a sexy tempting mole on her sleek neck

Shameless mode on😂😂

But with the effort of resisting the naughty Arjun and maintaining the Akdu Arjun I sprayed it on her neck and she screamed in pain...

Immediately I began blowing on her neck and damn the way she moaned in pleasure was giving me a really hard time

As I was blowing air on the spot...that sexy black spot was teasing me...it was my inviting my lips to have a good salsa dance with it

And the professional dancer in me was all ready and giving me a green signal to have a sensuous dance with the salacious spot of my love

The dancer in me didn't mind the pain reliever spray on her neck...all that mattered was my dance partner...a tiny tempting spot all dressed in black...

And as my wife says...I am a black lover...how can I not love the hot black spot

Wait let me open the dictionary😂

But I had to remain sane

My lips were just a few inches away from that sexy teasy mole and only I know how the hell I controlled myself...

There I was clutching the sheets to control myself and she was moaning...Ahh...Arjun it feels better

And my stomach was filled with zillions of butterflies doing their own happy dance

But my poor heart couldn't take it and started beating in my mouth...

Before it could come out immediately I blurted out something and finally, my wife turned to me showing her face and the mole was safe...

It was so tough for me...

But keeping the naughty shade aside I am still stuck at that moment when I was in her protective warm arms

It was a blissful moment for me...

The moment was something that gave me immense strength...

The moment has created a connection between us...

True baby...

And a fresh question with a beautiful yet fearful hope has taken birth...

Is she feeling something for me??

Yes of course I do

I wanna ask her so much but I can't...

And honestly, I am not a person who can express himself well...but if my unsaid emotions takes a shape of words it will be something like...

This one's for you Sona❤

Now at this moment, something is disturbing me❤
Your silence is driving me towards you❤
My longing for you is prickling my heart like a tiny thorn of a rose❤

A secret was hidden in my heart❤
But the secret got revealed itself the moment I was in your arms melting in your warm embrace❤

The words that were filled with silence, made their way out of my heart screaming your name❤

Now at this moment, nothing else matters to me❤
Your protective arms around me holding the broken pieces of my soul are enough for my fragile heart❤

The moment your love leapt into my heart all the darkness was ceased and my soul was lightened with your shine❤

Your arms around me has been a dream for me...but it's the reality...I am in your arms like a baby❤

Is it the turning point of our relationship??
Is it the turning point of my love??

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To be continued...

This chapter was equally important because Sona needs to know to what extent the seed of fear is rooted in Arjun's heart

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