The whole room was all messed up...

Pillows and the duvet were lying on the floor....

All the glass vases were broken...it's pieces were scattered all over the floor...

And when my eyes fell on Arjun my body started shivering...I was scared as hell...

His eyes turned totally red with unstoppable tears and was standing like a rock...his body was like frozed to ground...

I saw blood dripping on the ground and moved my gaze to his hand...

Blood was oozing out of his palms as he was clutching the broken glass tightly in his hand...

"Arjun leave it" I ran to him and tried to snatch the glass from his hand ...

He pushed me on the floor and clutching the glass more into his palms he roared like a lion "LEAVE... Just LEAVE"

The glass piece was piercing more into his palms and blood was oozing like water from his body...

Getting up I tried to take a step closer to him and next what he did scared me to death

He pointed the sharp end of the broken glass to his wrist and yelled "LEAVE"

"Arjun...No...no...drop the glass now"

"I said LEAVE" he roared again and this time the glass touched the skin on his wrist and my heart stopped beating

"Raghav...Aaru" I yelled at the top of my lungs while he was taking steps away from me

Raghav's POV:

I asked the elders to be with Arun Chachu and was praying for Aaloo's condition to be good and was cursing myself for being so careless about him...

I knew about him but everything happened within a blink of an eye that I could not even think of anything except Arun Chachu and totally forgot about my Aaloo

As me Siya and Aaru were walking hurriedly in the direction of stairs Suddenly I heard Gudiya's cry and rushed to their room

And the thing I was praying not to happen...it happened the same...

He was attacked by his fear the yet another time...

Gudiya was shivering badly and Aaloo was fighting with his inner demons...

Siya took the shivering gudiya in her arms while I ran to my Aaloo and engulfed him into me...

He dropped the glass and tried to hide himself in my frame...his whole body was turned cold and trembling badly as he was fighting with his fear...

While Aaru tied the hanky to his hand I kept caressing his head and reciting soothing words in his ears "Shhh...Aaloo...everything is fine...Chachu is fine...he is not leaving you...No one is leaving you...calm down...I am there...here with you...Shhh"

"Ta..Take...Bbaba..aannd Sssona...aawa..y...frr..oom...mee" he tried to speak up his fear while Aaru immediately responded "Bhai...Baba has already left with Rohan...he is not here...he is safe and sound Bhai...you calm down"

And his hold on me was getting tighter and tighter...

And next we heard gudiya's cracked voice "Arrjuun" and sensing her presence around him he got even more scared...

"Assk..herr.. tto..leaavve Aabbu...shhee..wiilll..get hhurtt be..cause..ooff...mee...I...I am a ddee..mmoon"

He was getting the attack again...his inner demons always ruin him badly...

The word FEAR is a strong emotion that can shatter a soul into pieces and ruin everything within seconds

I cupped his face and made him look at me "Aaloo...look at me...you are not a demon...you hurt no one ...you can never hurt anyone...especially your Baba and your Sona...you can never ever hurt them...don't let your fear overpower you Aaloo...you are not a demon baccha...you are an angle...Please please calm down bacccha"

I tried my best to calm him down but he kept hiding his face in the crook of my neck and kept ranting the same thing "Take her away"

I signalled Siya to take Gudiya out of the room as his condition would get worse...

He was not ready to leave me at all...he was clutching my shirt in his fist like a baby...my shirt was all wet with his tears...

Somehow I made him eat his tablets and gulp a mouthful of water...and tucked him under the sheets...I began caressing his hair and as the effect of meds he was slowly drifting off into a slumber..

He is still the same 5year Arjun who is stuck badly within his trauma...

My heart cried seeing him in the vulnerable condition yet another time...

Yes I have experienced this before...

When chachu got a heart attack for the first time Aaloo was scared to death...only I know how I managed to handle him...

When Chachu got stents and was getting better he decided to stay away from his father...

For the world, he pretends to be the strong person but only some of us know how weak he was...

Somewhere he had developed a fear within him...a fear of losing his loved ones...and as I said...the word fear is the strongest emotion that is alone enough to break you

Though he was not talking to his father post finishing his education he stayed with him in the same house but then post his father's attack his fear started taking a new shape called belief...

A belief that if he would stay with his loved ones...they will leave him just like his mother left him

Finally, when he was dozed off I went out where Gudiya was crying like crazy in Siya's arms

"Just once I'll talk to him Raghav...let me try please" she cried as hell and even she was not in the state to digest the situation

"It can worsen the situation Sona...he is not in the right state" I said while Siya suggested "Raghav...Let her speak to him once"

"Don't make it difficult for him...I gave him the meds he is quite better now...and he is dozed off with much difficulty" I said with a heavy heart

"Please Raghav" my little Gudiya pleaded and her tears were pricking me more

"Let him rest for a while...we'll talk to him in evening"

Somehow I convinced her and asked her to stay patient with him

I managed to hide the incident from Arun Chachu and Saru Maa and asked Mohan Bhaiya to drop them home along with Deepali's parents...

Maa was taking care of Siraj while Siya was consoling Gudiya

Sona's POV:

I couldn't digest what was happening around me...all I wanted was my Angry Bird to be safe and sound...

When I saw the glass positioned to his wrist...I was mechanically dead at that moment...

I couldn't afford to take any risk...so
I followed Raghav's words and waited till evening...

I was dying to talk to him once...my heart knows how I had survived those 6 hrs...

I went inside the room while Raghav said something to Arjun and left the room warning me not to argue more and just follow Arjun's words...

Wiping my tears I stood in front of him and cupped his face "Baby...Listen to me onc

"Leave" he didn't let me speak and I lost my cool

"Neither I am leaving you nor this place...samjhe??" saying I held his collar even more tighter and pulled him close to me.

He was not even ready to look at me.
His head was bowed down hiding his eyes...those deep eyes that never failed to speak his unsaid words and convey his unexpressed emotions

Joining my forehead with his I cried "I don't want to go please...please don't do this to me I can't live without you...I can't leave you"

Though I cried like crazy he didn't react at all....he was standing completely silent like an emotionless stone

Why the hell he is not speaking at all??

His silence is killing me...

Unable to bear the pain I tossed my arms around his neck... hugged him tight and buried my face in the crook of his neck tears....

My heart was bleeding and was oozing out the pain through my eyes in terms of unshed pools of tears...

His neck was wet with my tears...then to he didn't react...he didn't hug me back...

No this can't be true...never

He is not my Angry Bird who always holds me in his arms...

He is not my Aladdin who loves his Jasmine❤

I stuffed my face more into his neck and my sobs became louder

Brushing off my hands that were around his neck he yelled "Leave"

And finally he lifted his head and my teary eyes met his red shot ones

"Just take your belongings and leave"

Announcing this he stormed off the room with a loud thud on the door

Hearing those words from him I was shattered. But coming back to my senses I wiped my tears and started packing my luggage. I grapped all my clothes from the wardrobe and put them in the bag.

Sitting on the bed I glanced at my room which is supposed to be my happiest place where we shared our heartful talks... cute fights...romantic dance and many more ...

As I was caressing the bed it reminded me of the day when we slept together in each other's embrace...

On this bed we have spent our most peaceful sleep in each other's arms...
Our pillow fights...his cuddling habits...our moments on this bed...everything was serene❤

With a painful heart I took my bag and left the room...

I had to do this for him...

Author's POV:

As Sona was talking to Arjun...Raghav was standing outside the room because he knew Arjun was delicate to handle...and only he can control broken Arjun...

Arjun stormed out of the room and sat on the stairs itself waiting for her to leave...Raghav kept caressing his back while Sona came out of the room

He saw her standing figure and tried to stand but his body had no strength left...he trembled while Raghav held him...

He clasped her body in a quick tight hug that she couldn't even breath...as she was about to hug him back he pushed her away and barged into the room and locked the door...

He punched the mirror and his knuckles started bleeding...he began hitting the wall....he began throwing all the things in the room...He removed the white cloth dressed to his hand and  punched the glass table breaking it into pieces...

As Raghav ran to get the spare keys Sona heard his cries "I am sorry...Sorry....Jaana...I canttt l..let..y..ou hha..pen any..thhing...ddon..t..l..eaave mee"

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Sona's POV: (At the hospital)

"It's a severe panic attack...please be careful" Dr informed and left

Don't leave me...

Were the last words that I heard from his mouth...

When we opened the door he was lying in the pool of blood...his head was hit to the edge of dressing table...both his hands were full of blood...

We rushed him to the hospital and now my baby is lying on this bloody hospital bed with bruises on his head and hands...all thanks to me and my stupidity

Never in my dreams had I thought of seeing him like this...

I was just staring at him like a lifeless statue...

I was not even crying because I guess I had no tears left in me...

Within one single day, my life has turned upside down and I am helpless...I can't do anything for him...

I was the only one responsible for his condition...and this fact killed me...

And I felt a hand on my head...

It was Raghav...the one who is by my side like a solid rock

"He will be fine"

"Leave us alone Raghav" I said and he just left without any further talk...

I was mentally dead...I didn't want to talk to anyone...I just wanted to be with him holding his hand...

I opened my handbag and took out the thing that I found  in the locker while I was leaving..

While I was packing my things I was keeping the documents that Baba gave me and found something in the locker...I put it in my bag and left the room

It was a diary...

Arjun's diary...

As my one hand was holding his with the other hand I opened the diary

The reason to write this diary is to cherish all my memories with my life...my Sona❤

When I get old and will hardly have any teeth in my mouth and hair on my scalp...I want to relive my memories with my Sona...

I want to relive my life with her n number of times...

I don't know what should I call this...a blessing or a curse...

Blessing to be her at least for a short time or a curse to know the fact that I can't be with her forever...

I don't know whether I should laugh or cry...

I don't know whether I should be happy and sad...

I know I can't be with her forever so I want to live all my life within this one year...

This one year with her will be a lifetime for me...

So dear diary let's begin the journey...

A short journey with the only girl I always desired for❤

The one who is my life❤

The one whom I loved ever since she was not even born❤

The one whom I loved ever since she was in her Mother's womb❤

My Jasmine❤

Dearest Readers❤

So here comes the most awaited part of the story...Arjun's POV❤

I don't know whether you like Arjun or not but I can assure you...from now onwards you will definitely fall for him❤

The love story of 5 year Chotu Arjun is the cutest because

Arjun is love❤

And his love for Sona is divine❤

And I am sorry too😐😐I tried to make the chapters good but no wander why I feel like I am writing shit nowadays😐😐But I promise you guys to improve myself❤