Day by day the time is flying so fast. The past days  were not so good which ended up without a smile . It's obvious that the reason behind this is the decision taken by me. The decision to distance myself from Arjun.

I don't want to get carried away by anything related to him. I have been avoiding him since the last incident. I avoided making the favorite morning tea for him... avoided serving food to him... avoided not to bother about his sleep. Successfully I avoided all the materialistic things belonging to him ... but deep inside I was miserably failing to avoid my own emotions and feelings.

We didn't even had a small conversation during the past days. It's not like we used to talk for hours previously but this time it's not even a Hi- hello.

Few things had definitely changed a bit between us. Arjun started having breakfast and dinner on time along with me. The dinner where we just eat our food with heads bowed down. Whenever he's late due to some reasons he gives me the prior information through his message which included only three words "I'll be late"

Despite of being under the same roof... in the same bedroom we were staying like strangers. Even though  being around him I started feeling lonely. I was literally tired... tired of  being the way I am not🙁

I was back home from my work. I dropped my bag on the chair and entered the kitchen to gulp some water.

"Bhabhi...your coffee will be ready...

"No thank-you Didi... I am not in a mood to have coffee.. just prepare the dinner as soon as possible"

"Are you OK Sona??"

"Ha Amma... it's just I am feeling a little hungry"

"Ok...go and freshen up.. everything is almost ready...you both have dinner and get a good sleep... you look tired"

"Both??"

"Ha Arjun is in the study"

"When did he come back??"

"It's been 2hrs"

"And bhabhi...till now Bhaiya had 3 cups of tea"

"Hmm"

Climbing up the stairs to my room I was wandering why Arjun is back home so early today...and what is he doing in the study room...he never works there...why there's such a sudden change in his behavior

"See again you are thinking about him" my inner voice poked me

I didn't find it necessary to reply back as I was too tired to argue and I wanted a shower so badly. The hot water falling on my body is taking away all my tiredness and replacing it with a good relaxation. My body got relaxed with a good shower but my mind wasn't. It was still stuck at the stairs thinking about Arjun.

After the shower I was going back to the kitchen and saw Madhavi Didi carrying a cup of tea to the study room. This man is really unbelievable. Already he had 3 cups of tea in 2 hrs...now this is the 4th one🤦

I sat  on the chair waiting for him to come out.

"Shall I serve you dinner Beta??" Amma asked

"Let him finish his work  Amma... I'll wait ...no problem"

Madhavi Didi came out of the study room with a tensed look on her face.

"Bhaiya didn't like this one too Amma" she said to Amma refering to the cup in her hand.

"What happened Didi??" I asked her in confusion

"Bhabhi... I don't know why but Bhaiya is not at all liking the tea today...in fact all the 3 times before this one  he asked me to prepare tea giving the reason that he didn't like it... I don't know what to do now "

"Don't get tensed Didi" Placing my hand on her shoulder I gave her a little assurance and started making tea hoping that he'll like this one.

Madhavi Didi gave him the tea which was made by me and came back to the dining area.

Before I could utter any word... Amma enquired Madhavi Didi

"Did he like it??"

Madhavi Didi just shrugged her shoulder and said

"Bhaiya didn't taste it...he ordered me to place the cup on the table and leave"

Caressing my head Amma said "Sona you have dinner first...you are already very tired .... you need to rest"

Unable to react anything I just nodded and Amma served me the food. Before taking the first bite of food I thought of waiting for him but again thinking about his mood I felt that it's better to give him some space. The moment I took the first bite in my mouth... I started coughing as the food was so spicy.

I was coughing so badly that my eyes started watering and I couldn't find the glass ...but then I felt a hand softly patting my head and someone held the glass in front of my mouth and I gulped it in one go. Rubbing my chest  I moved my gaze up  and it was non other than  him with his deep orbs full of  care  and a little worry.

"Are you OK??" he asked in his husky  voice... his hand still caressing my head

I nodded a yes.

"I told you not to make the food so spicy" with his stern voice he yelled at Amma and Madhavi Didi

"No...it's not that spicy.. don't scold them please... I am Ok"

"Sorry Bhaiya...Sorry bhabhi...is it really so spicy??"

"Shall I make something else Sona??"

Amma and Madhavi Didi started apologizing

"No Amma... it's fine.. please don't stress out yourself"

I looked at Arjun and whispered "shall we eat now??... I am starving"

He nodded and sat next to me. We had dinner and later came back to the room to rest.

Suddenly at midnight I heard Arjun screaming badly "please don't leave me"

Immediately  switching on the lights I ran to him. The view that I saw was so shocking that I got scared looking at him. Sitting on the couch his half body still covered with the quilt , he was breathing so hard that his chest was vigorously moving up and down.... His forehead full of sweat...he looked so scared

Without wasting a second ... I sat on the couch and holding him by his shoulder I asked

"Arjun... what happened??... are you OK??..."

He held his head between his palms  "just a nightmare" saying this  he ran   his fingers through his hairs which continued till the back of his neck. And then he looked at me with his most painful eyes.  I lifted my hands up to cup his face but before I could do that he stood up with the jerk.

"Vo... I am... I am fine" saying this he rushed to the washroom

After some time he came out of the washroom and sat on the couch.

Referring to the glass in my hand I said "drink it"

He took the glass and I sat with him. He gulped the water and again said the same thing "don't worry I am fine...it was a just a nightmare"

Gently placing my hand on his shoulder I asked "what's bothering you arjun??"

Brushing my hand off he stood up facing his back to me " I said I am fine"

"I know you are not"

"I need some fresh air" saying this he walked towards balcony.

He was standing in the balcony with his hands resting on the railing.

"What's bothering you??"

"There's no problem at all" saying this he walked past me but I held his wrist making him stop in his path.

"Telling me there's no problem, won't solve the problem Arjun"

He stood still without uttering a word. Moving close to him I tip-toed  myself and placed my arms around his neck and immediately he reciprocated the hug  by placing his arms around my waist. I wanted to give him all the warmth he needed through my embrace.

"I am so scared Sona"

"Sshh! Don't get scared .... I am right here with you and I'll always be with you " caressing his hairs I whispered in his ears

"Pakka??"

"Ha Pakka"

His grip on my waist tightened like he don't want anything on this earth except the warmth of my embrace. Under the moonlight Arjun was in my arms cherishing my embrace.

After sometime I felt his hands slipping from my waist so Pulling back my arms which were around his neck I cupped his face

"Ab bataoge Kya hua??"

He nodded a yes and holding his hand I made him sit on the chair. I sat  opposite to him.

"Tell me what's bothering you"

Closing his eyes he took a deep breath and then he opened his eyes.

"Its the same nightmare which is haunting me all the time...the nightmare because of which I haven't slept for numerous nights...I think something is stuck between my eyelids Sona...it won't allow me to have a peaceful sleep...Whenever I try to have a good sleep...the same nightmare attacks me...it attacks my head...my heart...my body...my  soul everything...it ruins my everything..it it..it just shatters my soul into pieces"

His eyes and the clinched fist were  expressing more of his pain than his words. He covered his painful eyes with his strong hands for a moment and then looking at me he continued "I can't even afford a good sleep Sona...this nightmare is following me like a shadow"

"It's because the door hasn't been closed yet that the nightmare always find its way in to your soul"

He was confused with my words. Taking his hands in mine "when the door to past is left open its very easy to hear the cries of the past and get drawn back into its grasp. So it's time to be strong... close the door to the past of darkness and open the door to the light"

"Will I be able to get rid of all this??... Will I get the peaceful sleep for which I am have been waiting for so long" our hands still tangled

"Do you trust me??"

He nodded a yes with a thin smile. Holding his hand I dragged him inside the room and made him lie down on the bed. Sitting close to him I started patting his head gently with one hand and the other hand resting on his chest tangled with his hand

"You'll never get attacked by the  nightmare until I am with you... I'll not let anything ruin you... I'll never let you fall... even if you fall I'll be the one to make you stand strong... I'll never let you alone... I'll protect you and your soul from everything... mai tumhare paas hu.. tumhare saath hu...aur hamesha rahungi"

"Pakka??"  his face full of innocence

I kissed his forehead and replied looking at his cute innocent face "Pakka"

With this he closed his eyes drifting off to sleep.

I don't know whatever I did today whether it was right or wrong...but the only thing I know that matters to me more than anything is Arjun needs me. I did what I felt  and I'll do the same further. No matter what I'll be there for him. The words which I spoke to him were not just a part of consolation...all those words came deep through my heart and I mean those words. 

Patting his head I don't know when my eyes got closed.

Your emotions are valid. You have the right to be angry about what you experienced. You have the right to be sad about what happened. You have the right to feel how you regardless of why you feel it. Let it happen. Accept it. Allow it to do what it needs to do.

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