Warning self harm mentions in this chapter from the start.

He left the room, went to grab me aspirin and water, he comes back handing it to me, I take it saying,

"Thanks babe, " I smile up at him.

He leans down, kisses me softly, then pulls away saying,

"For you I'd do anything," he smiles.

My heart melts, he was amazing at doing that, making me so happy, he was a better person, I hadn't seen anger yet still, we were doing great, I mean I know there are plenty to come, we all have bad days, some worse than others. I was prepared, for anything now, I knew just how I would react, I wasn't going to kill myself anymore, that wasn't my answer, I needed to live, fight back, be stronger for myself, I had anything in life, and I tried to leave the world, I died for a bit, it wasn't anything like they said it would be, it was blackness.

I tried to hang on, but I couldn't, I had fucked up that badly, I see the world different but the thoughts only crossed in the beginning, I found my savoir, Landon he fixed the broken perfectly. I take the aspirin and drink the water, then I get up, and go change in the bathroom after grabbing clean clothes from my dresser. After that I go back to my room as the boys are finally getting up off the beds, they walk towards the door, we all go downstairs, hearing Natalia and Sasha's voices in the kitchen, we walked into the kitchen, I went over to the girls,

"Best Halloween party ever Natalia," I smile at my best friend.

She smiles back, "Thank you, I tried, we all needed the fun," she pulled me to her for a hug.

I hugged back, "You're welcome, but thank you for that party, I finally don't have anything to hide, I'm finally happy, not depressed."

I heard Landon's voice behind me, "You have depression?"

I turned around, "Yeah, I have had it for 5 years, " I look up at him.

He hugged me, "I'm sorry."

"It's OK, I'm not living in the past anymore, I'm living for now, I'm okay, I've had my moments but I'm good, you don't need to worry about me. I have it managed good, my therapist gave me a way to express the bad without having to feel it." I say hugging him back and looking up at him.

He smiles at me, "Good, you worry me when you're upset honestly, I'm going to feel like that for awhile, my therapist said it's normal, it's called guilt and concern, we pushed you over the edge, and you died, I don't want to see you die, I want you to live, and be with me for a long time, I have five years to make up for, and I intend to, whatever you want, I'll give you."

My heart melts yet again, there he goes again with the sweetness, the random I'm so in love, his true personality is awesome, I look at him smiling more,

"Baby, I'm fine, you are just perfect I can't say it enough, perfection only exists in certain people's eyes but your my definition of the perfect guy, despite the 5 years things sucked, you have been making it up since we got together, you're doing a great job too, I'm feeling better each day, even the bad days we have, I'm okay at the end, with you everything's getting better, thank you for everything." I reply.

"Again, for you I'd do anything if it meant you'd be happy," Landon says smiling, then he kisses me.

I kiss back, nearly forgetting we were in Natalia's kitchen, I pull back and look at him, as Natalia says,

"Lucy, I need your help."

I smile, "I have to help, we can chat more later."

He smiles, "Okay baby."

I walk away from him towards Natalia, to help her make lunch, we were making burger's, after we finished we set out the condiments and buns, putting the burger's on a plate and setting out plates and napkins. We grab plates and eat our burger's then, we clean up our mess, then we go to the basement and watch Grey's for awhile, us girls get some good cries, the boys holding us, saying it was okay.

It was touching, honestly, a guy who watched Grey's and comforted you while you cried over deaths and scenes that broke your heart, that's a great guy who took care of his girl who was a die hard Grey's Anatomy fan. We watched until we stopped to make dinner, chicken alfredo, when it was done we all ate, then we cleaned up and went back down to watch more Grey's, until we got tired and went to bed, Tanner and Natalia went to her room, Sasha and Greyson went to the bedroom in the basement and locked the door, me and Landon went upstairs to my room.

We went in, changed into our PJs and laid down, he pulled me close and kissed me goodnight, I fell asleep soon after that. We woke up around 10am to the sound of a dog barking outside, we got up, got dressed and went downstairs to see Natalia and Tanner making breakfast, we sat down,

"Good morning, Natty and Tanner," I say.

Natalia turns around smiling, "Morning Lou and Landon."

Tanner turned, "Morning Luce and Landon."

I smile at him, then look at Landon as he replies smiling,

"Morning Nat and Tanner."

They went back to making breakfast, about 10 minutes later, Sasha and Greyson come upstairs stretching,

I turn to them and smile, "Morning Sash and Greyson," Landon smiles and says,

"Morning guys," he puts his hand on mine.

Natalia and Tanner both say, "Good morning."

They finish cooking breakfast, and we all eat, then we end up packing and parting, Tanner stayed, Landon and I went to his house, he parked and we got out, grabbing our stuff we went inside, I grabbed our dirty clothes basket and went start laundry, Landon went upstairs, I felt slightly nauseated, I brushed it off, it went away, I started the laundry then went upstairs. I went up to Landon's room, walking in, he was on his laptop, on Facebook. I walked up behind him and kissed his cheek,

"Laundry's started," I smiled.

"Thanks baby," he says looking at me smiling.

"You're welcome," I reply smiling more at him.

I go sit on his bed, grabbing my phone, I go on Facebook, going through all the pictures from the Halloween party smiling. Landon gets up and comes to lay next to me putting Grey's on, pulling me close to him, I look at him, placing my phone in the bed, we watch it until we get hungry, then we make food, eat, then go back to his room.

The rest of the day went by fast, after dinner, and showering I fell asleep when he put a movie on, I was tired, I awoke to his alarm the next morning, we got up got ready for school, made coffee, ate breakfast then left for school, once at school, he parked and we got out, we walked into school, we went to his locker, then he walked me to class saying goodbye, I went into class and sat next to Tanner, we talked until the teacher arrived, then class started, all the classes until lunch flew by, we walked to lunch, grabbed lunch , then went to our table.

We ate and talked until the been rang, Landon walked me to class, we said our goodbyes, then I went in sat away from Trevor, these classes dragged on, then it was drama, we were still preparing for the play we were a week away from it, we went to the auditorium, and did run through after run through, trying to perfect the play and our lines, when the bell rang, I gladly pulled away from Trevor, hating how I had to let him touch me.

I grabbed my stuff, then headed out, seeing Landon, he takes my hand and we head to his truck, we got in and we went to therapy, today she wanted to see us both together, we got out and went in, we checked in and then waited to be called in, once we did, we sat next to each other, our therapist smiled at us,

"Hello Lucy, Hello Landon, how are you guys?"

I smiled, "I'm good."

Landon smiles, "I'm great."

She smiles, "Good, you guys doing good in your relationship?"

We both nod, I say,

"Better than I ever imagined."

Landon looks at me, then takes my hand and squeezes it gently,

"Yes, it's great she's my world."

Our therapist smiles, "I'm glad you too are doing so great."

We smile at her and talk for another hour together about everything, all our feelings, he hears me speak about my hidden demons I keep at bay, he had more concern on his face, but he was happy to know my pain, he wanted to be able to help, he shared his inner demons, I was concerned but happy that he shared those thoughts in front of me. This was a good step towards us staying happy for a bit, as we said our goodbyes,

"Lucy and Landon keep up the great work, you guys are progressing nicely," she says to us as we get ready to leave.

"Thank you, we will try ," we reply as he takes my hand.

We leave, get in his truck, and he drives us home, once home we go start our homework, then stop for dinner, the finish it up, I work on my project with Greyson and Tanner, we nearly have it done we worked so long each time on it, after we said our goodbyes and good night's, we hung up and Landon pulled me in for a kiss, then we went and showered, had sex, then laid down and watched Grey's until we fell asleep.

We awoke to his alarm for school the next day, school flew by until drama class again today was all run through after run through again, and too much closeness to Trevor, it was making me sick, I didn't like being touched like that by him, when the bell rang I rushed out to meet Landon , we went home, did our homework, ate, then went to bed, the rest of the week flew by until it was finally Friday, today flew by Trevor called out sick, I did the run through in class for the play with Nate instead.

When the bell rang, I waved goodbye, the play was next weekend, it would be perfect if Trevor was sick for it, a girl can only hope right? I met Landon and we headed to his truck and home, did our homework, then he took me out to dinner, we had a nice date, we dressed nicely too, then he took me out for a drive, we talked about how we felt in the moments we were in, we felt like a whole.

When we finally got home, it was 3am, we collapsed into our bed and fell asleep after taking off our shoes, too tired to change into PJs. We woke up around 12pm, got up, showered, got dressed, then we went out to lunch, he surprised me with roses once we got there, he was the best boyfriend ever. After lunch we went home, and watched movies the rest of the weekend.

Monday came and went by faster than I thought, no sign of Trevor, Tuesday was the same and so was Wednesday, when Thursday hit, Trevor finally showed, his face bruised up, I didn't care, I stayed away from him until drama when we were doing our final touches to the play, Trevor was the lead, he acted his part out without extra words to me which was unusual, but I didn't mind.

Once the bell rang, I grabbed my stuff, met Landon and we headed home, once there we did our homework, when we finished, we went to make dinner, we ate then went to bed. I had to have some extra sleep for the play tomorrow during school, end of the day, all last period we were doing the play over and over for all the school, I fell asleep right away once my head hit the pillow.