"Pyro!" A crew hand shouted and I lazily covered my ears as the explosion in the arena echoed back stage.

After a few moments I remove my hands and let out a small sigh. To say I was exhausted was to say the very least of how I felt.

Sleep didn't come easily last night and that made coming back to work three times harder than it would have been if I had slept.

For the time that I had stayed with Dean, I had slept in the same bed with him. Most of the time I'd end up half on top of him or he'd end up having his arms wrapped around me, but last night I had fallen asleep on the couch and made no attempt to go back to the room. I had woken up well over 7 times and couldn't fall back asleep after I had awaken after 4 in the morning.

'Tell him yes.' I heard Dean's voice say in my head and I simply shook my head.

I hadn't talked to him all morning. We got ready for work in silence, ate in silence, drove in silence, then once we arrived, he gave a sigh and one last kiss on the cheek before parting ways with me.

I was confused.

I was upset.

I was a little annoyed because I was confused.

I just didn't get it.

He tried his hardest to tell me that John wasn't good for me, then tells me that it'd be best if I married him.

I was for sure that he would say no.

"Hey Nik." I heard a voice say and I turn to see Seth walking towards me.

"Hey." I responded as he wrapped his arm around me and gave me a hug.

"Heard you went off the grid for a few days." He told me.

"You could say that." I responded with a small smile, "It was needed."

"No ones blaming you." He said while trying to give an encouraging smile, "Well I don't mean to bother you, but I was wondering if you wanted to come out with me and Roman tonight. Grab a few drink, share a few laughs."

"You and Roman?" I asked him with a raised eyebrow, "Since when have you two been best buddies?"

Seth rolled his eyes, "Shut it. He's a nice guy. Nice to talk to. He's cool and stuff. The question was: do you wanna go?"

I sighed, "I don't know Seth. I'm not really in the drinking mood. Why don't you take Dean?"

"Dean hates my guts." Seth said with a shrug, "It's no secret. He's not gonna want to go."

"Then why don't you two just go by yourselves." I tell him, "Like a date."

"Nikki." He glared at me and I cracked a small smile before he sighed, "Fine. We'll go. But you're missing out."

I sighed, "Have you seen John?"

"I think he's in his locker room." He replied before walking off, "I'll catch you around Nik."

"Bye Seth." I waved to him before walking off in the other direction.

The journey to the side of the building with the men's locker rooms seemed incredibly long, or maybe it was just my thoughts that made it seem longer.

After a few moments I reached the door that had the sign which read 'John Cena.'

I looked at the sign for a moment before sighing.

Was I really ready to do this? This is what I've been asking for. This is what I've dreamed of since I met John. Marriage. Being his wife but now I felt...

I shook my head before knocking three times.

"Come in." I heard John's voice answer, "Is unlocked."

I slowly opened the door, glancing in as though he hadn't said I could open it.

I see him sitting on the bench of the room, currently tying his shoes.

"John." I said quietly and his head immediately shot towards me as I entered the room.

"Nikki." He said worriedly as he stood up and walked over to me, immediately wrapping me into a tight embrace, "God, I've missed you. Are you ok? Where did you go? How have you been?"

"I'm fine." I told him as he kissed my forehead, "Really John, I'm ok. Don't worry about me."

"I'm always going to worry about you." He tells me, "I was worried sick."

'Yet I never got a phone call from you...' I thought to myself but shook the thought from my head.

"You shouldn't." I tell him, "I'm fine. See? Nothing's wrong."

He gave me a small smile before sighing, "Why'd you leave?"

"I needed to clear my head." I told him as we walked over towards the bench of the room.

"Is it because of my question?" He asked sheepishly as we sat down, "I'm sorry Nikki... it was bad timing. I wasn't thinking."

"No John it's ok," I assured him, but never looked directly at him, "It actually gave me a lot of time to think about it."

And I had thought about it. I had thought about it a lot. Maybe even too much. And my thoughts kept becoming unbalanced as I weighed them out.

"You did?" He asked you.

"Yeah." I told him as he took my hands into his, "I have."

My heart was practically beating out of my chest. I wasn't ready to give John an answer. I was still confused. I wasn't ready even though I claimed I was... I was... I was... what about Dean?

"So?" He asked me, "Will you? Will you marry me."

I stared at the floor for a moment, my mind on the man that didn't even ask me the question.

'Why did he want me to tell him yes?' I asked myself, 'Why didn't he tell me to stay with him? Why are you even thinking about him? I shouldn't be thinking about Dean...'

"Well." I heard John comment softly as he rubbed my hand.

I slowly looked up, looking him right in his eyes as I gave his hand a slight squeeze.

Finally I had made my decision.

***
aweee, the books almost over.
I mean there's a few more chapters left but the book will be ending more sooner than later.

but it's not over yet.
fasten your seat belts.