I was physically tired and mentally exhausted, there's a difference you know.

I couldn't sleep last night because the image of Nicole Bella in a cloud white dress, walking down a isle to a man in a suit kept replaying in my mind.

It practically made me want to vomit.

No. No.

Why does she get to be happy?

Why don't I get a fucking story tale ending or some shit?

Why do I fucking care? ... Well, I don't.

I just cared if she would be able to still be my little distraction like she promised she would.

But until John actually grew some balls and ask her... She still would be. And would explain her current actions.

I bit back another groan as I gripped her hair, a small moan causing vibrations around my shaft and causing a shiver to go down my spine as I released into her mouth.

I bit down hard on my lip and squeezed my eyes shut as she bobbed her head a few more times before slowly removing her mouth.

"Good girl." I say to her with a smirk.

She simply stayed quite and rose off her knees while I pulled my pants back up.

I found myself watching her carefully. Her normal cheerful aura was now dull and unenthusiastic. Her lips pursed in a straight line instead of the infamous smiling position and I have to admit that it did bring me a small sense of joy. Not seeing her smile every damn minute of the day was a nice change... but it also made me curious to what had her acting different.

"What's got you so cloudy, Sunshine?" I suddenly ask her and she gave me a strange look.

"What?" She asked me.

I rolled my eyes, "What's wrong with you?"

"Oh." She said, "I'm just tired."

I scoffed, "Everyone gets tired."

"Yes, I realize that." She mumbled, "So I guess that makes me just like everyone else."

I raised an eyebrow at her snappiness but shrugged it off.

"It's about time." i say to her, but she ignored me as she picked up her bag, "Where are you going?"

"To find my sister." She said to me.

"Leaving so soon?" I asked her.

"Look Dean." She said to me, "You asked for me to 'distract you'. Nothing more. So let's just keep it at that."

"Oh I see." I say while rolling my eyes, "You just feel guilty."

"Don't I have a right to be?" She mumbled before walking out and the door softly shut behind her.

A frown suddenly appeared on my lips as soon as I heard the click of the door.

She was upset.... And I somewhat cared. For what reason, I'll never know,  and I still can't explain my actions for following her.

I twisted the handle and walked out of the door, following her figure as she walked down the hallway.

She made a turn onto the next hallway and I jogged to try and catch up with her.

When I rounded the corner, I stopped in my tracks and backed up behind the corner after seeing the sight that hid down the hallway.

Brie and Daniel stood there with a smiling expression on their faces. Brie's looking more forced than Daniel's as they looked at the couple standing next to them.

I felt a stomach turn as I saw John's lips meet Nikki's for a quick second before wrapping her into a tight embrace.

I peaked my head around the corner and watched the four of them as they laughed at something Daniel had said. Nikki resting her head on John's shoulder and holding him tight to her.

'What was I thinking?' I thought to myself as I forced myself to walk back to my dressing room.

Why was I being so foolish?

Because I wanted a happily ever after?

I didn't get that. I never got that.

Really, what was I thinking?

More importantly, what am I feeling...