I let out a small yawn as I sit up in the bed. I glance at the lock on the nightstand and see that it wasn't even an hour ago that I had decided to go to bed.

I groaned and laid back down on the bed and attempted to close my eyes, but my tiredness seemed to had disappeared.

Seeing no point in sleeping any further, I sit up once again and turn the lamp on, not wanting to be in the dark any longer.

I squint from the bright light and let my eyes adjust for a few seconds before getting out of the bed and going into the small living room with the coffee maker.

I tried to stay quiet and not wake up Dean, but when I looked on the couch, he wasn't there. The blankets that I had gave him were folded neatly and stacked on the couch.

'Did he go to sleep?' I ask my self as I begin to prepare my coffee. The answer to that was probably no. I didn't even know where the man had went, let alone if he had rested any.

Once my coffee was done, I added the necessary cream and sugar and slowly walked back to my bed to enjoy it.

I set the cup on the nightstand then crawl back into the bed before picking it up and taking a small sip. I burned my lip slightly so I decided to sit it down and wait for it to cool just a tad.

I sigh as I looked around the room, the air had kicked on and it was simply freezing once again.

My eyes landed on the balcony door that was opened slightly and I raised a eyebrow before getting up and walking over to it.

Once I reached it, I began to close it but not before my eyes land on Dean, who was sitting on the rail.

"Dean!" I shouted while sliding the door back and quickly walking outside, "What on earth are you doing?"

"Does it matter?" He said plainly.

"Dean get down." I say to him sternly.

"Why?" He asked me.

"Because you could fall." I say to him, "It's dangerous."

"You think I'm gonna fall?" He asked me, "Or you think I'm gonna jump?"

"Dean stop playing games." I say to him, "This is dangerous. Get down. You could hurt yourself."

"I do this every day Bella." He said back to me.

"Dean please." I say to him, "It doesn't matter how much you do it. You could get hurt. Please just get down."

"Why do you fucking care?" He shot at me while glaring at me over his shoulder.

"The real question is why wouldn't I." I shout back at him, "Dean I'm gonna care. I care about everybody and their wellbeing."

"Yeah right." He snorted.

"I do." I say to him, "Dean please get down. Please?"

He stayed quiet for a second before turning around and hopping off the rail, pushing me out of his way to get back into the hotel room.

"Thank you." I say quietly as I entered the room and he stopped walking and turned around to face me.

"Why do you care?" He shot at me, "Give me one reason why you care?"

"Why do you need a reason?" I asked him, "Why can't you just believe that I do? I won't lie to you-"

"Like I haven't heard that one before." He snarled, "Do you know how many times people have said they cared and guess what they did? They-"

"Didn't care?" I say for him, "They abandoned you and left you hurt?"

"Well aren't you just a smart cookie?" He said while rolling his eyes sarcastically.

"Dean I'm not them." I say to him, "I care. I'm not gonna leave you hurt. I'll help you in any way you need it-"

I stopped talking as he approached me slowly, something about the way he looked at me made my throat suddenly dry.

"Don't say anything Bella." He said to me, "Cause you'll just end up regretting your decision."

"No I won't." I say to him. My mouth was going faster than my mind again.

"Yes you will." He said while backing away slightly, "You're not willing to be someone's distraction."

I watched him walk towards the living room but my words stopped him again.

"Let me be your distraction." I say to him, his back towards me, "Let me help you..."

He stayed there for a moment before slowly walking back over to me again and looking me directly in the eyes.

"Dean..." I whispered to him before he quickly placed his lips on mine, preventing me from saying anything else.

There it was again.

His hurt and pain. I can few it just like I had the last time.

But there was something else.

I felt his since of need, almost as if he were begging me.

But I couldn't feel his since of resistance, almost as if he didn't want to do this.

I could feel his nervousness. Something that I thought this man lacked. All his other feeling rode on top of it, but yet it was still there.

A few seconds later, he slowly broke the kiss. Our eyes closed, but I could feel his breath fanning my face.

Seconds later I opened my eyes when I felt the feeling of being picked up and seconds later my back was on the bed.

"Wanna be my little distraction huh?" He said a darker laugh and it sent a shiver down my spine, "Fine by me. Just make sure you don't scream my name when you do this with Johnny boy."

John flashed across my mind for a second and I felt a pang of guilt over take my body, but it was all washed away when his lips were on mine again.

Pain

Hurt

Need

Resent

Nervousness

And something that I couldn't quite make out.

"Let's see if these lips can do more than smile," he chuckled darkly and a strange wave of pleasure shot throughout my entire body.