Henry muffled his cries in his palm so Alex won't be able to hear him. He sat on the floor by the tub holding on to his knees closer to his chest. Alex made his choice, he had to respect it. He knew sooner or later he would be in this situation knowing he couldn't leave his past behind. He ruined everything he had and everything in his life eventually would crumbled apart. Henry never felt this kind of pain before in his life. Never he had experienced this kind of pain even when he lost his parents, this was the worst he'd ever felt.

The way it twisted deep in his chest and his stomach Henry felt like he was going to throw up, probably passed out from thinking about the pain right now. Heartbreak. It was more painful than any other kind of pain he could self inflicted on himself. There is no amount of cutting himself that would make up for this pain. He won't survive this knowing well how he screwed up his own life. But he was proven wrong. 

He was startled by a warm hand over his and he looked up from his knees. Alex was kneeling beside him with a robe in his hand, "Here." He said pulling Henry up from the floor and pulled away the towel over his body and tossed them over the counter. He wrapped the robe over Henry's body and let him adjusted his arm over the sleeves before he pulled Henry's towel over his waist down on the floor and tied the robe closed.

Henry was confused at the gesture but he let Alex does what he did best, taking care of him. He later pulled Henry by his hand and guides him back to the living room. "Sit." He instructed Henry and he obeyed. Henry sat by the edge of the bed hugging the robe closer to his chest. He waited for Alex to say something but instead Alex went back to the luggage over the wardrobe. He had the same robe Henry had on his body and he tied it loosely over his waist.

"Thought you're already packing by now. What's stopping you?" Henry asks staring at him digging into his luggage. "Would it matter if I did?" He asks back without turning his head behind to see Henry's replying to him. "Why didn't you? I give you chance to leave, why didn't you leave?" Henry asks and Alex finally turned around to face him over the bed. "Because I'm not giving up on us. If you are then maybe you should leave then."

Henry knows Alex is daring but in this case, he won't be able to give him the satisfaction. Instead, he lowered his gaze down on his palm fidgeting over the robe tie around his lap. "I never say I'm giving up on us Alex. I'm just giving you an ultimatum. I don't want you to regret in the future knowing how much you can change your life without me in it." Henry could feel the tension in Alex's shoulder when he turned to face him. Henry felt his stares are burning holes on Henry's face.

"You think I would regret falling in love with you? Why would you think that? Why do you always thinks the worst on anything? Can't you just enjoy one moment without thinking badly about everything?" Alex asks and the moment he did he could feel instant regret saying it to Henry's face. "Because I have lived in life where hope would make you weak and love is nothing but lies. People said they love you but all they wanted is to hurt you. I don't blame you if you don't understand or if you wanted to leave, but I can't have you live your life being with someone you should't." Henry can see Alex had balled up his fist next to him when he told him to leave various times.

"Is that what you want then? You wanted me to leave so I won't regret it in the future for not leaving? If you are coward enough to leave, fine! Tell me Hen, tell me to leave then I will take my things and left you. At least you're home right? You don't have to go back to New York, start your new life here, where it was meant to be. The prodigal son returned." Alex says and Henry was hurt when Alex said those words to him.

"Tell me to go back. Tell me to leave Henry. What's stopping you?" Alex asks and Henry couldn't stopped his tears from flowing down his face. "You don't need me to tell you to leave Alex. If you want to, just go. I'm not gonna hold you back." Henry says and Alex clicked his tongue. "So if I walked out right now and go back to New York, you would be fine with it?" Alex asks and Henry stares at the floor beneath him feeling the tightness grew inside his chest.

"You're telling me that you are fine with us no longer seeing each other, that you won't be able to hold me or kiss me or talk to me at all. You're fine with it?" Alex asks and he can see Henry tried to advert his eyes away from him trying to avoid his questions.

"Your choice not mine." Henry replied softly.

"Exactly Henry! My choice! So it's my choice to choose whether or not I wanted to stay or leave you! My choice to choose you as the love of my life. It's is my choice to choose this life with you and you can say nothing about it! My choice!" Alex repeats and he can see how hard Henry is holding on to his words right now. He hates to fight with Henry like this but he had to make him see that nothing will make him leave.

"I can't bear that burden Alex. I can't bear the consequences of your unhappiness with me in the future. It would destroy me to know how I ruined your life. You weren't supposed to fall in love with me. You promised." Henry says and Alex sighed pressing his fingers against his temple. "You fall for me first Hen! Then I fell harder for you." He yelled and Henry pressed his lips unable to form any other word in protest.

Alex sighed walking closer to Henry and kneeled before him, he rested his palm over Henry's shaking hand and he can see the tears flows on his face and he wiped it almost immediately. It wasn't until he saw Alex placed a black box in Henry's palm that made Henry gasped. "My choice Hen, no one can change my mind, not even you." He says before he opened the box, size of Henry's palm and revealed a platinum ring with a single diamond lined in the middle inside the box.

"Alex." Henry calls and Alex gripped Henry's hand in his with the box right in Henry's palm. "My choice to make you mine, however broken you think you are. I accept you the way you make me feel. This is the way of me telling you I'm never ever gonna leave you. So if you don't love me, tell me now. If you want me to leave, tell me so I would put this away and never look back." Alex stares deep into Henry's eyes seeking for a sliver of hope in him.

Henry could feel his lungs is tightening and he is panting in his own breath and his hands are shaking in shock. "You're joking, right?" Henry asks and Alex laughs at him. He shook his head before he pull out the ring and hold it out in between his fingers,

"Henry, all my life I never met anyone like you. All the years I have been in love, I never love someone like I love you. The love that I gave to someone, I never get the same amount in returned which is why I was so afraid to be in another relationship. But you changed that Henry. You made me realized that the world is whole lot better with you in it."

Alex took Henry's hand in his and held out the ring in his other hand before he continued, "You taught me how to love. You taught me how to be a better doctor, a better listener." He looked up to meet Henry's eyes that is now flooded with more tears. "Most importantly, you gave me back my family. You fixed everything in my life and I hate how I can't fix yours. So Henry, I'm asking you to be mine so we could complete each other. Would you do me the honor? Of becoming mine for life?"

Henry felt like he was holding out his breath until Alex finished his sentences and when he does, Henry exhaled out a breath that he didn't know he was holding. His hands trembled in Alex and his mouth gaped apart. He felt overwhelmed with emotions being sprung out on him by this but he also knows how much he loves Alex. "Are you sure?" He asks again still couldn't believe at what's in front of him and Alex laughs at his question. "Of course, or I won't brought it from New York now would I."

"You had it all planned? When did you-?" Henry asks and Alex shot him a look, "Are you gonna let me kneeled down all night or you're going to answer my question?" Alex asks impatiently and it made Henry smiles in his tears before he nods, "I do. More than my own life, I do." Alex exhaled a breath of relieved when he heard Henry says I do. He placed the ring over his finger and proceeds to crash his lips over Henry's but he went overboard and pushed him a little harder making Henry falls back on the bed behind him.

They both laughs and Alex leaned to kiss him again properly on the lips. Alex let go of Henry's lips staring at his beautiful face stroking his cheek wiping away all of his tears that he had caused earlier. "You are mine Henry, always and forever." Alex whispered and kissed Henry on his lips again.

"Alex." Henry called and pushed him from his kisses. "What?" Alex asks propping himself up on his elbow by Henry side. "I'm sorry about hiding the blade." He starts and Alex sighed. He traces his finger over Henry's tangled hand playing with the ring over Henry's ring finger. "I know it's hard Henry to let go of something but I wanted you to try for me, please." Alex stares into Henry's eyes and he softly nodded. "I can't promise you anything. But I can promise you I will try. I just don't want you to be disappointed to find it in the future."

Alex laid on his back sighing at the thought of Henry and his commitment towards his self infliction. "Alex?" He called seeking approval from him by his side but Alex could only stares at the ceiling above them. "Aren't you happy Henry?" He asks after turning his gaze towards Henry and he can feel Henry nods next to him.

"I am with you." He says and Alex eyebrow furrowed, "Then why did you need to go back to the blade if you are happy?" Henry pressed his lips together before he answered, "I told you before, because sometimes in my head it needs a constant reminder that I shouldn't. That I don't deserve this happiness in me. That I need to know my place." Alex turned his head towards Henry by his side staring onto his pale face after he said it.

"Your place is here with mine. Right here with me. It's all that matters." Alex pulled Henry's palm over his chest and rested it right in the middle. Henry eyed his hand tangled in Alex and finally looked up to meet Alex's eyes. "Be patience with me. It's all I'm asking for and I promised you I will love you unconditionally Alex."

Alex stares deeply into Henry's hazel eyes before he nods softly at him. He raised Henry's palm over his lips and kissed it softly over his knuckles. "I love you Henry." He whispered turning to his side keeping his face closer to Henry's. "I love you." Henry whispered back with a smile and he could feel Alex's hot minty breath fanning over his cheek and when Alex leaned to kiss it, Henry relaxed in his kisses.