I wanted nothing to do with Edward and his family minus maybe Rosalie. For some reason still unknown to me, I felt somewhat safe around her. Like I knew deep down she wouldn't hurt me and she would protect me. I often was at the beach on the reservation with Jacob, Embry and quil. I did visit Leah here and there, I could feel more of my old self coming out again. It scared me of course but I knew it might be for the best. Being happy is all I ever wanted and I could finally laugh and talk more with the boys. It had been a while since what happened with the cullens and James. Who is dead now apparently according to Bella and her lovers family. I didn't want to be around them anymore then needed to. I avoided them at school and I avoided Edward when he was over. Saying I needed to go to Jacob's and Bella and I. Well on that subject we aren't as close anymore as we were two years ago.

I wish she hadn't hid things from me that caused me to get hurt. I wish she never dated or met Edward and we never met the cullens. I hated them most and I really wasn't a fan of my sister right now. Of course she's my sister and I still love her but I wasn't on the best of terms with her right now. She wasn't home as often still and neither was I to be honest. I was in love with being on the reservation and I never really got to meet the man that saved me. I never have met Sam but even if he saved me Jake and the boys aren't a fan of him or Jared and Paul. I don't know but whenever someone says Paul's name I feel a shiver go down my spine. Like my body is telling me something that I'm unaware of yet.

Something that will be important in my further that I'm unaware of at the moment. I wish things were easier for us more so me then anything. I don't know why things like this had to happen to me or Bella. Charlie grounded her because of what she did by leaving and dragging me along with her unwillingly. Literally dragged me into the life of the supernatural and I hated her for that. Although I could never truly hate my sister even if I wanted to so badly. Because she's my sister and she was there for me when I needed her most. So when Edward left her in the middle of the forest one day and up and disappeared I was pissed.