February 14, 2017 – Present day.

Shownu stepped out of his car and walked alongside the railing. The wind caressed his face softly as he looked around. The never-ending chain of vehicles passed by him, the lights were colourful streaks in his vision as everything blurred. He looked over his shoulder at the end of the bridge where he parked his car and sucked a breath. He had spent his days on that particular spot on the bridge every night since today last year.

The day when Lisa got into an accident. Her car crashed on the side of the bridge, on the day of his big performance.

His eyes watered as he thought of the face that haunted him in his sleep, and sometimes during the day when he was just sitting not doing anything. His love, he have failed her.

He looked down to the wilting flower in his hand. It was hard to find a cherry blossom during this time of the month, but for her he searched everywhere, until he found a tree that always blossomed even though it was not the season yet.

"Rose? Pretty, but I don't like roses... well not really."

"Why?"

"Because they have thorns, and thorns hurt."

Shownu chuckled when she scrunched her nose. He found everything about her mesmerising and cute, even the smallest details.

"So what flowers do you like then?" He asked, wrapping his arms around her as he drew her closer, smelling her sweet perfume.

"Hmm." She sighed in content. "But it is not easy to find them when it's not the season."

"You know I'll do whatever I can to find it, for you." He said and she giggled. Oh how cheesy he was! But she would not want it any other way.

"Really?" She asked excitedly. He nodded and buried his face into the crook between her neck and shoulder.

"I love cherry blossoms, they reminds me of mother."

Shownu looked at the waters below him, how it crashed on the bridge's pillar. How does it feel like if he fall? The pain will be inevitable but will it end as soon as it started? He shook his head, slow death would not even equal to the pain he inflicted to the three of them; Lisa, Jieun and himself. He should suffer forever, for the distress that he caused.

He had a huge arguments with Lisa on the morning of his important event. He was just preparing himself with his clothes when she barged in and decided that they needed a 'break'. He was shocked of course, he asked her if she was joking but she said she was not. She said she had enough of him and that she did not deserve his love. That was when he snapped.

"The hell are you talking about, Lisa? On the day of my event? Can't you at least fucking wait until it ended before spitting it?"

She was on the verge of crying but she held herself together, like she wanted to.

"No! It can't wait! I have enough of this, I can't do this anymore!" She yelled her hearts out. "I can't pretend that I'm happy when I really am not."

"Why? If you're not happy with me why accept my love in the first place?"

She looked away from his torn look. "I thought I should give you a chance."

"Bullshit!" He stormed to her and cupped her face so that she was looking at him. "Those times we spent together, those kisses... Tell it to me that it didn't mean anything. Say it to my fucking face!"

Just as he predicted, she did not say anything. He stepped back and nodded. "Just as what I thought."

He moved to the couch where he placed his things and continued his work when he was interrupted by Lisa.

"We'll talk later, okay?" He said, putting his phone into the bag and zipping it up. He adjusted the strap on his shoulder, ready to go out.

"No, Shownu hear me out. You're right, I love every moments that we're together and I'll treasure it. But that's it, I don't feel the same way anymore. So if you still love me, let me go. Because I'm not happy with you anymore."

xxxxx

"Sunshine." His eyes widened when he saw her inside of his practice room. He was fully clothed in their dance costume, and his friends were already getting ready behind the stage. Another half an hour and they will perform. But his mind was in a chaotic state, and he was worried that he will mess up. His teammate understood and asked him to clear up a little before joining them on the stage.

"Hi." Jieun gave an awkward wave. "Um, Jooheon told me that you're here."

He did not reply to that and just stared at her as she wandered into the practice room.

"You tidied up, I see." She said, looking around.

"Yeah..."

She took a place beside him on the floor, not minding that she was wearing a skirt. Shownu took a deep breath and raked a hand through his hand.

"Supposedly she told you what happened, huh? Of course she would, you're her friend."

"I'm sorry." Jieun said softly and Shownu shook his head.

"Why are you sorry? It's not your fault she grow bored of me." He let out a humourless chuckle. "I guess you'll always see me at my most vulnerable state."

Jieun bit her lip but did not say anything.

"People will always leave and in the end I only have myself."

"T-that's not true." She murmured and gulped when he shifted. She looked beside her just to see that he was already watching her. "You have me."

xxxxx

"Nee-san, you sure you wanna do this?"

The girl looked outside the window and nodded. She deserved closure, all of them do.

"Is everyone okay?"

"Yeah, I guess. We're signed in an agency and will be starting as a trainee once we graduated."

"That's good. How's Jieun?"

"I thought you guys talk?"

"Not since..."

"I'm sorry Lisa, I really do. None of you deserve this. The fate is so cruel."

"It's fine. Time'll heal."

She heard a chuckle from the other line. "You know that's not true. Time don't heal, you'll only forget about a certain thing, but it never really fade."

"But in the end everything will remain as a memory, Jooheon-ah."

There was a brief silence. "I suppose that's true." He sighed. "Jieun's fine. Shownu is just too hard on her. He still goes to the bridge at least once a week. He never missed it."

Lisa sighed and bit on her lip.

"Anyways, how's Japan?" Jooheon's cheery voice asked.

Lisa smiled. "Glad to be home."

He laughed. "At least you're okay. Lisa, I have to go. Actually I'm waiting for the members to arrive to practice together. Shownu can't know that I talk to you."

"Oh okay."

"Bye Lisa."

xxxxx

"Noona," She snapped her head around at the young guy beside her, an eyebrow was quirked up questioningly. He shrugged.

"Since we're in Korea why don't I call you noona for once?"

She rolled her eyes as she swiped the card and the door to their room opened. The light automatically turned on as Lisa walked inside, venturing into the big suite.

"At least help me with your stuff, geez." He said and dragged two small luggage with him. She smiled.

"It's just a small luggage Jin. If you can lift Rei with one hand why not your sister's small luggage?" She teased and he blushed. Rei was his girlfriend and they have been together for almost two years.

"Aww, is my big monster embarrassed?"

"Stop." He huffed and walked pass her to a room. "I called the big one!"

Lisa rolled her eyes and adjusted the strap of her handbag. "Jin, I'm going out. Just order room service."

"Be careful noona!"

xxxxx

"Stop here please."

"Are you sure miss? The bridge is quite long."

"Yes I am sure. Thank you." She paid and stepped out of the taxi.

She walked for a bit, enjoying the soft breeze that caressed her cheeks. It was cold and she literally could see her breath whenever she exhaled. She rubbed her palms together and tucked it into the pockets of her coat. Aside of the endless vehicles, it was quite calm. She suddenly missed living in Korea. How she wished she could turn back time.

But people usually wished for the impossible.

Then she saw him. The ever so familiar silhouette that stood dangerously near the edge, with only the fence stopping him from falling into the cold water below. She sucked a breath as she saw the thing on his hands and the tears prickled. She took more steps, closing the distance between them.

"Shownu?"

He tensed and it felt like forever before he turned to see her. His face showed surprise before it morphed into something else.

He was angry.

"What are you doing here?" He asked, his voice cold, his gaze calculating.

"Shownu." Lisa breathed out, stepping closer.

"Stop. You shouldn't have come back. You left!" He yelled and her face fell. "Why did you come back? You probably erased me now, you should have!"

"Shownu, please-"

"No, it's your turn to listen now." He gritted out and she stopped mid-step. She met his gaze and stood on her ground. He was mad, and it was okay. It was fine even if he lashed out on her, it was better than he kept it bottled up.

"You won't be hung up in the past." He said and let out a dry laugh, "I'm just someone who's not there, a face that you've never seen. But for me, the sound of your laughter... I can still hear the sound of love in my ears. I don't want to acknowledge it, but I don't think I've forgotten you yet.

"It was easy for you to let go, but you left the memories with me. It's hardly fair, Lisa. I'm beating down myself ever since that accident. I'm just barely breathing, Lisa. I'm a shadow of my own self, do you know that?"

Tears ran down of her cheeks, leaving trails of wet streaks on it.

"It's so hard... if only I could erase you. If only I could forget you." His eyes were filled with his own unshed tears, and he vaguely saw her walking toward him. A while later warmth engulfed him as the familiar scent of cherry blossom filled his nose. His arms automatically circled around her and she tightened her hug. He released the sakura from his hold and it fell onto the cold pavement.

They stayed like that for a while, she unwillingly tore herself from him. She looked up and brushed a thumb across his wet cheeks. Smiling softly, she tip-toed and kissed him on his cheek.

"I've come to make a closure. The fate have been kind enough to let us meet. Let our memories live, but forget me. You deserve so much better."

He clenched his jaw and cupped her cold cheek. "If only I could turn back time, I'd go to you."

Another tear trickled down, Lisa shook her head. "It's all in the past, live the present."

He nodded and let his head hung low.

"Go, Shownu, and don't come back."

It will need more than time to heal a broken heart.

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