Truth

I wish you hadn't told me the truth
I wish I were unaware
I wish I could forget it all
I wish I could run away somewhere

I hadn't expected it to be so bad
When you told me that you were sad
I hadn't known that worse could come
After facing the worst of worst

I know you didn't deserve this for sure
I know it's been too hard for you
But why am I feeling so numb
I assured you I would be strong for you

I know you are writhing in pain
Yet it is me going insane
I told you I would look after you
But I am now more helpless than you

I was suppposed to stay strong
To encourage you to be with me
But now our roles have totally flipped
I couldn't have been more wrong

As you lie there so helpless
Yet a smile to grace your face
And I am fine no pain within
Yet I am weaker than your smile unwavering

I feel so worthless now
I can't even explain how
And you are still the one protecting me
Even while breathing your last breathe