“ Wonder where I was wrong... Wonder where I was wrong in judging you...

Wonder where I lack... Wonder where I lack in understanding you...

Wonder where have you gone.... Since you are not the same person I loved back then.

Wonder where we have gone wrong... Cause it's killing me seeing you leave along.”
~Anya.

Chapter-15

Jhanvi's POV:

     "So... You didn't tell that bastard about your stupidity. How cheap of you to sleep with a man who doesn't even have a family! He is a bastard so was the baby that died in your wom-" "MOM! YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ABOUT ADWAIT! AND YES I AM GOING TO HIM!" I screamed.
*Slap*

" You have brought enough disgrace to the family by getting miscarriage because of that bastard. That child.... How could you even do such sluttish things Jhanvi Arora? You are not even suitable to be a daughter you worthless bitch." My mother said as tear brimmed in my eyes ..

I placed my hands on my belly as a sob escaped my lips. 'how many times I have to defend you Addy? When are you going to come and take me from this hell hole?'

"I TOLD YOU I NEED TIME JHANVI! TO SPARE YOUR STUPIDITY! I NEED MY OWN TIME! Leave for now please. I will come my self when I feel it's alright for us to continue and... Please leave right now I don't have my mind to hurt you... I have already suffered enough because of you... You killed my child." Adwait said as a tear rolled down from his eyes to which he immediately rubbed it. I breathed heavily before walking out from his place and forever from his life...

I tried to open my eyes... I saw a figure sitting there...

" Don't die Jaan. I need you please. Please wake up... Baby I am an asshole who left you... One chance... Just one chance.... I really repent... There isn't a day when I don't think of you." I heard someone say but before I can even see who it is my eyes felt heavy again.. I hope kids and Vanya are safe....

Vanya's POV:

" Vanya you are looking sexy my love... Leave that Surya who only shows his back to you... Come to me. I swear you won't be walking well for at least a week.." Kunal said... Surya's one of enemy in college...

" This asshole needs to know he shouldn't mess-" " Leave it Jaan. Bastards gonna bark!" I said and tried to ignore him. But those vulgar comments.. 

I shook my head and left to canteen since it's break for us.

"Hey! Did you know what had just happened? Kunal said he will fuck that Vanya!"

" Vanya? You mean that junior girl who always is behind Surya despite getting rejected so many times? Huh... Poor girl I must say that Kunal is a vulgar dog."

" I know right? But Surya was there only... Behind her. But he haven't said anything... It's as if he is deaf!"

" Hm... It's okay it's their issue why we should bother."

     These are the words that are hitting me badly... So he is behind me all the time but haven't said anything! A tear rolled down from my eye. The fact that Kunal saying some words didn't hurt me much as his ignorance did...

   Getting up from my place I ignored Jhanvi's pleads. I went to library and started focusing on my project that I should submit next week... 

          After reading and writing the required information I got up and checked the time. I almost missed all afternoon lectures now its time for me to leave. I thought. Jhanvi knows where I will be when I am upset so I don't need to worry. I thought and started walking towards the exit when I heard a commotion in the football ground.

           " YOU DARED TO TALK TO HER WITH THIS FILTHY MOUTH YOU MOTHER FUCKER!" I ran towards the area and saw Surya hitting Kunal.

         I covered my mouth with my hands as I saw how mercilessly he is punching Kunal's jaw. "See Vanya! Because of you he is fighting with that Kunal! God! Who will stop him now." Shanaya asusual whined.
  
       I went to the front to have clear sight of what's happening and saw Adwait bhaiyya drinking a coke watching the scene as if it's some interesting drama! I went and hit his arm. " Bhaiyya! Go and stop them!" I said. " No! That bastard deserves that." He said. " You are hopeless!" I said hitting his arm again. "Learnt from you." He said pinching my cheeks.

         " Remember. I. Won't. Say. Again. Don't. Mess. With. Vanya. Dare. You. See. Her. You. Will. Be. Dead. For. Good." Surya said in a most dangerous voice sending chills down to my spines as goosebumps made their way on my skin. His knuckles are bleeding and I rushed to him and dragged him outside of the campus.

           I opened my water bottle and washed his hand. Tear after tear rolling from my eye. I tied the hand kerchief around his hand. (A/N: don't you guys think this also repeated in future aka present too? Tell me where you found it familiar.) He cupped my face and rubbed my tears. "Even if we are not in good terms.. I don't know why your tears are making my heart wrench! What are you doing to me?" He said....

                     I shot up right as I woke up from the nightmare which sent chills to my spine.. cold sweat formed on my face as I saw myself on the hospital benches in a sitting position. I looked at my wrist watch and saw its 3:00 in the morning. The weather is quiet chilly. The day is nothing but a list of endless crying sessions. I really don't know how but the news of the accident reached Adwait bhaiyya and he landed in the hospital. I thought Surya would tag him along but he didn't and when Sidharth asked who also came uninvited Addy bhaiyya said that he was taking care of some important matters.

          The kids are now alright but Jhanvi got some pretty bad injuries to which the doctors insisted of keeping her in observations. My mother and father so much worried and being here will only increase on stress for them. So I sent them home on my strong impulsion they did leave the place but I too had to hear alot of things from them like how I am behaving irresponsible regarding my own health.

          I shook my head and surprisingly Sidharth left soon after my parents and Adwait for some reason seemed more pleased. Maybe because, of their love rival. It's really hard to understand men I mean who the hell said its difficult to understand women must be a stupid because men are complicated.. some-times more than women! Yeah! Like your man? Don't you think you are relating too much? I shook my head since the voice in my head is bothering me again for quite some days.

Currently apart from Adwait bhaiyya and me no one is there. It was really awkward at first to talk with him but gradually he started talking like how are kids... whether I am facing any issue raising them... or do I have plans of showing or letting them meet Surya... the last question is like a bomb.. I mean should I ? Couldn't we just act like him being a sperm donor and nothing else and if Addy bhaiyya knows then what about Surya? Did he know? I never knew that thinking about issues which stress you makes you fall asleep.

               I shook my head and went towards a small balcony on the floor's corner, as soon as I stepped the cool breezes hit my face... crying for hours my eyes got strained and I am still in my office dress. Since the office is in the top floor the view from here is pretty good.

                 Tear after tear rolled down from my eye as I thought about my life... first I ruined myself with love and now my kids were almost near death while my best friend for life is lying lifelessly on the bed... if only I was enough considerate towards my people rather than killing myself slowly with the pain. Every-time I used to look into the sky it used to comfort me but now when I look into the sky I feel like it's mocking me... mocking me like how lonely I am in my life.... Why me? Why is it always who is ending up with nothing.... but misery...