last chapter for this rant book

this is probs gonna be my last rant book so i just wanted to say something

so I've realized something

everyone has their group of friends

the people they like

and i also realized that people invite me to their group but every time

I just don't belong

people stop talking to me

 and it happens here too

I guess it's just me then

today i told bri and laci that i'd rather freeze to death outside in the cold then go inside with all those people

why is a completely different story that really no one knows 

but anyway

imma ask you guys here

why?

whats so different about me?

throughout my year on wattpad yea, i made mistakes

 and people just stop talking to me for it

but then I see some people do way worse things

theres some people who pretty much bully people just for fun

and yet i still see you guys friends with them talking with them like they never did anything

so why am I so different?

out of all the people on here who say we are friends

only three people have really stood by me

bri, nat, and sharp

so this chapter really isn't for you guys

but for everyone else

why?