A/N:

Book: Free Fall

Chapter: Training.... It's killing me...

Izuku's POV:

Thankfully I still remembered where the training ground is or otherwise I would have needed to ask around. Well now that I had my morning tea intus I was a lot more calmer and also awake which is the important part here. However it still saddens me to know that I am really completely useless here. No one wanted me and I was as Bakugo would say just a damn extra. Useless that is what I was.

Okay I think this is the training ground.

I wonder who is waiting for me inside...

He said he arranged a trainings partner for me....

Maybe it's another hero..

Yeah as if...

No...

Don't get your hopes high.

He wouldn't be doing this.

He wouldn't just take Tokoyami out and give me to train with another hero.

No way would he do that.

It took me a while but I finally arrived at the trainings ground. For now I couldn't see anyone at all. There was really no one in the hallways. It was still relatively early since it was around 6 a.m but I would have still thought that there was at least someone walking around but there was literally no one.

Looks like I will be making some new best friends with the infirmary beds here!

I hope that the partner could kill me....

I shouldn't make him... Or her... Better them... To kill me.

I would ruin their career and then my dead would be a bother to them...

No.

I can't do that.

I should try my best here.

Yeah....

Let's just try to do my best here no matter what.

I can do it.

There is always a tomorrow where I can kill myself or even evening.

If Hawks isn't back maybe I could try and jump.

Yeah...

Sounds like a good plan.

Didn't Bakugo also suggest a swan dive once?

Ah yes. . . If you want a quirk so badly then go take a swan dive and pray for one in your next life! Stupid Deku!

I remember...

I wonder if he will be pleased if I do take a swan dive?

I was kinda lost in thoughts when I opened the door to the training ground. It was also thanks to that, that I didn't see or realize who my training partner was at all. Hawks really must have gone out of his way to get me a training partner cause the one that was in front of me was a pro hero and a fast one too. The only problem is that I knew that this pro didn't liked side kicks at all and hence also didn't liked training with a partner.

Miruko: Ah finally! You sure did take your sweet sweet time to get here!

White ears...

Bunny ears to be specific....

Miruko!

Out of all heroes it's her?

Oh god!

This will be one rough day!

Please kill me right away!

Maybe I will die of exhaustion...

Me: I am sorry.

Miruko: Sorry doesn't cut it. Now start running! You need to stretch before we start sparing!

Me: How many laps should I run?

Miruko: Start with 10 lapses and use your quirk the whole time!

Me: Ahm okay.

Guess today might be my lucky day!

No one can say anything against me breaking my own bones right?

Yeah...

Luckily for me, running wasn't really an issue but 10 lapses was still hard since this whole training ground was tripple the size of UA's ground beta. That was probably because it was located underground but it was huge! It wasn't an easy task but I powered up my own quirk to a safe level for me to use and started running these lapses. I could tell by the 8th laps that I was getting our of breath. As I said running wasn't the issue alone but having my quirk activated the whole time was draining and so by the 10th round I was considerably dead.

Miruko: Get up weakling! I am about to shape you good.

I was already on the ground after my 10th round breathing very heavily. If I didn't knew some breathing techniques then I would probably suffocate by now.

Me: Yes *pant* Ma'am!

Despite how I was feeling, I stood up and she then gave me more exercises for stretching which were crazy on its own. The amount of how much I needed to do was extreme. There were 10 chicken walking, 200 sit-ups, 300 push ups with her on my back.... All the while I was to use OfA.

The moment I stopped using it she would start complaining and I needed to restart the exercise.

Let's just say, at the end of the stretching part I was dead.

Miruko: This is why I don't train people!

Me: Ma'am?

Miruko: You are to weak kid! You are not made to be a hero!

Me: ...

I know....

But I have too!

All Might is depending on me!

Aizawa is also having his high expectations of our class!

I must do it!

I can do it!

I will!

...

I am tired of it tho.

Why must I push myself so hard?

I was at the end of my own powers but still I refused to let it be and so despite everything I stood up from the ground and faced her. I hated it. If it was to my wishing then I wouldn't even be here but All Might gave everything to me as his successor and I at least had to try harder. If it meant breaking then so be it.

Me: I am still good.

Miruko: Don't lie to me kid.

Me: I am!

Without even a warning the rabbit hero in front of me attacked me with one powerful jump kick with her leg. It was a fast attack and if I didn't block it in time I knew I would have been sent flying towards the next wall.

Miruko: Impressive reflexes.... Let's see if you can hold on more.

Just like that the real training started. All I did however was getting beat up by a pro hero instead of Bakugo which I normally would be. It was nothing new to me and yet for some reason it was not laying good with me. I hated it. I felt defenseless and helpless. Tho I was actually blocking each and every attack, it still didn't mean that I wasn't getting injured at all. More precisely the cut that I made yesterday reopen and I knew that my hand was brused after all the blocking. Not long ago it was even broken but I guess brused is still better then brocken.

Me: ... Stop...

I can't hold on for much longer!

This hurt!

I...

I can't!

This is nothing more than her venting out her anger and frustration at someone!

Miruko: You want me to stop? Bear with this! This is the least you will need to be able to hold on to if you really want to be a hero!

After she said that she jumped kicked me again. Even after I blocked it successfully I was already tired and rhe next blow was something I couldn't protect myself. She nit only jumped kicked me but once she landed she kicked me right towards my stomach and send me flying towards the wall. Once I hit the wall I head the familiar sound of bones breaking. I knew which ones too. It were my ribs that just broke and pierced my lungs. I knew at least this much cause of how hard it was to breath. Not only that but I also coughed up some blood while I landed.

Miruko: Tsch! You are to weak kid! It's better if you stop training to be a hero! All you can do is break your bones which only makes my job harder!

That was all she said before leaving the room in a hurry. I couldn't believe what she said to me. It wasn't as if she wasn't right or anything. I knew it all along. I knew how much I was bothering and hindering other but I was soo selfishly clinging to All Mights dream... No my dream which I long abandoned already.

She's right...

What am I even doing here?

I couldn't protect myself...

How am I supposed to protect others?

I am to weak for this!

Bakugo was right!

I am just usless!

Rhank you for making it clear to me.

I was soo foolish clinging to that!

All Might shouldn't have chosen something this pathetic like me.

I am sure he only felt pity...

...

I..

I am not worth it.

I'll go back up and leave him some DNA so he can chose another one...

I think it was like this...

Yeah...

Let's do this.

I didn't know for how long I was actually standing there leaning against the wall and coughing up some blood but I knew that some time must have passed since it was getting actually hard to stay awake. I could see some black dots paying in my field of vision.

If I die...

I at least want to know what's so special about a swan dive...

Maybe I will feel free?

The words Bakugo used to tell me in his advice were starting to circle around in my head and I couldn't get them out of my mind. It was soo annoying that I decided to stop leaning against the wall and force my already tired and beat upbody to move.

My destination was obvious but my path was kinda busy. There were a lit of people in the hallways now and still I managed to get past all of them. No one bithered to stop me or guid me or even help me to get to the infirmary. It was as if it already was a given.

Guess even they know how worthless I am.

I really should just go up and finish everything up.

No need bothering anyone.

I didn't even care about who's roof I was about to die or leaven any note. I felt useless, worthless even worse than air. All I wanted was to end this misery once and for all.

Why did I needed to go on?

Why do I need to put up with all the pain?

Who was I to be treates like this?

Did I deserve such treatment ever?

I thought being a hero was beautiful but all I encountered was just pain. No one bithered to help me but I on the ohter hand always helped the others no matter what.

Me: I am sick of this!

It took some time but I managed to get to the roof and even busted the door open with my quirk breaking my hand but it didn't matter anymore.

Me: Finally!

As I startes going towards the roof, I couldn't help but cry. All the memories of my past life rushed through my head while I was walking towards my freedom.

Now at last!

Finally after soo many hardships... I could finally rest.

I would be free.

There was really no need to think twice about this and so I just let myself drop face first. There was nothing I was regretted besides not being able to say my mother goodbye or giving her a better life. I only wished I could have helped her out more. I was usless like everyone said. Still she was the one raising me and not giving up on me until the bitter end.

However as much as I wanted to believe that her words "I am sorry" were stuck in my mind. Even my mother gave up on me in the end. She just never shoved it to me.

The moment I felt the air rushing passt me, I knew I was falling. In fact I was in a free fall and it felt amazing. It was also the last thing I felt before blacking out completely.