Date: Jan 25, 2021

Hello my rats, here we are restarting something I did years ago for my own health. I considered deleting all the old posts and comments, looking back on them showed me so many ways I was in the wrong. Reminded me of so many ways I was hurt. Gave me photographic proof of the first time me and my parent had to leave the house. But I'm keeping them.

They show and remind me of how much I've grown ya know? And id like to continue that. This is after all my own little public diary and a place for people to come to to talk and vent.

I've grown up a bit. Im all old and stuff. I still rewatch cartoons to cope and color pictures of creepypasta characters for comfort, but that's okay.
I'm in all AP classes and haven't been taking my meds for months because they make me feel bad. I want to go back to having a place to put my troubles out there and feel refreshed after. If I decide it's a bad idea, I'll take it all down. So until the next entry, here's my question.

How have you seen growth from when you were in middle school to now?

Here's my answer: I'm not striaght anymore which is okay. I don't know pronouns or my own name. I am more accepting and understanding of new things. I weigh 15 more pounds since the last time I posted my weight which was a good couple years ago. I feel like I'm a better person now. And that's enough to make me feel a little bit better :)