I was thinking about how I'm so supportive, helpful, encouraging, and trying to just get other  out of whatever sad state they are in . It's so much different than how I help myself. I decided...Hey this would make a good chapter! It fits. I just hope I don't get yelled at to much.

  What I tell others.
  Hey, hey I'm not going to promise it's going to be ok. By  I can promise I'm here for you.

   Look I know things are bad, I know you want to give up, you've probably already started looking for the closest razor. But stop. Your stronger than this. You have people who love  you. Please, I  your not going to stop cutting for them, do  yourself, stop for me. Stop and think about all that love you.
 
  It's ok, it's ok, I'm here. I don't want you to hurt yourself. I don't want you to be sad. Please don't cry, I care to much to see your face tear stained.

Now things I've told myself. Or what the voices told me.

    It's not going to get better. You've waited 5 years and its only gotten worse. No one cares anymore just stop pretending it's going to get better. Just face reality.

     You know things are bad. I've told you time and time again, just give up. Just go get the razor. Go on, it  been to long. You thought you were strong enough to stop, but your to weak. The only one you'd be stopping for is your dog and barely for yourself. No one's going to see. Besides no one would care. Let's stop and think about all the hateful things people have done to you.

   It's never ever going to be ok. No one's here, just go ahead and cut yourself. Just cry, let the tears run down you face. You know you want them. You've been holding back.

The real things I've told myself.

    Maybe my predicament got worse, but I've gotten mentally stronger. I've waited 5 years and can wait a while longer. Some do care, I know it. And if I'm pretending then I don't want to stop.

      Yes things are bad, but they have been for ages. I won't give up because, me giving up would lead to others being in pain. I'd never do that. I'm not suicidal and your not going to make me. Your just a voice in my head. I refuse to cut. Not again. Once I start its heard as heck to stop. And it hasn't been ling enough. I'm hoping I'm strong enough to make it longer. To stop. And I'd be stopping for the ones I know love and care about me. I want to stop, and not continue these breaks. So far so good. And stop showing me these hateful things!!

    It will be ok. Soon enough, when it's in God's time, it'll be over. And I may not have many people I trust 100% but I have some that have my trust. They are  there for me. I'm refusing to cut. And I won't let myself cry, my problems are to stupid to let others see me crying about. I'll cry later. But you are right....I've been holding back.

Ok everyone, can you relate? And remember I'm ok so please don't worry over me. I am here for you to talk to tho remember. Also question for the chapter!!
   If you lived  in an anime what would it be, and why???