4/28/17
I can remember:
The last time I cried, to feel the feeling of tears
The last time I pretended to be angry just so I didn't have to talk.
The last time I blasted my ear buds, even if it hurt, so I didn't have to be part of a conversation.
The last time I locked myself in my room, just to feel free.
The last time I bit myself so hard, just so it would leave a mark.
The last time I ate as little as possible because of how fat I feel.
But I can't seem to remember:
The last time I smiled just to smile.
Laugh just to make myself happy.
The last time I ate more than I usually do because I wasn't feeling self conscious.
And I don't know why this is how I am...