Zak POV

I've got the migraine.

And my pain will range from up, down, and sideways.

Thank god it's Friday, cause Fridays will always be better than Sunday's.

Cause Sunday's are my suicide days.

That's the song I listened to as I walked down the side walk. It was almost 1 am, and for once I felt at peace. All alone, no interruptions. Sometimes I feel so alone and that I need to have someone with me. But other times the only time I feel normal, is when I'm alone.

I am not as fine as I seem.

This is my favorite song because I can relate to it. I always think about the people who go through things like me, of course I only see these people online. Why can't I meet one person like that? Someone that can relate to me and that I can talk to?

I begin to assemble the weapons I can find. Cause sometimes to survive you gotta kill your mind.

Kill your mind.

I wish that was possible. Maybe it is, but I don't know how to do that.

That's one of my biggest problems, overthinking.

My dad started my insecurities, and I continued them. Once someone says something to you so many times, you can't help but start thinking the same things.

I was always a pretty confident kid. Loud, fun, happy. But of course, nothing lasts forever. So I just use on this fake personality. That's what I do when I'm around everyone. So no one will see how sad I am.

I call it fake, but I know it's not.

It's real.

It's just hiding under my sadness.

Thunder rang out through the sky.

Well, it's time to go home.

Ok ok ok, this chapter sucks and is short. But I've had a bad day andddd I didn't really feel like posting a chapter so I posted this. I've been listening to this song all day so I decided to base the chapter off of it. I was listening to it while writing this chapter 😂 that's all. Byeee <3