Zak POV

Ohmygodohmygodohmygod

Why did I say that? He's going to come to my room any second now and I'm going to be sitting here with nothing to say. I want to talk to him so bad, but I can't.

He's just going to worry more.

I don't want to be more of a burden than I already am.

Maybe he won't come.

But of course seconds later, he walked through the door. He came in with a confused but worried expression. "What do you need?" He asked.

I'll just start talking slowly and see how much I want to tell him. I started off by opening my drawer and picking up the pills I had left. It's been one day and there are only 4 pills left.

He had dropped fifteen.

I was ashamed and scared,

Was this a coping mechanism or was it an addiction?

I turned to Darryl with tears in my eyes. "Here." I said holding out my hand, "You dropped these."

He looked alarmed, "Four? How many did I drop?" He asked. I looked down but didn't answer.

"How many, Zak?" He asked again.

"Fifteen."

Darryl POV

"You took 11 pills in one day?!" I yelled. Zak flinched but nodded. How could I be so careless and drop fifteen?

He sat on the bed and I followed.

"We need to talk." He said. "Yes we clearly do." I replied.

"First of all I'm sorry for being so annoying lately." He said.

"No no, you don't need to apologize just get to the point." I said quickly. I knew I shouldn't rush him but I was impatient.

Then Zak told me everything:

"It started when I was 15. My mom left and took my sister with her. My dad was going out at night, coming back drunk. He never did anything to us but my mom hated it. She said my dad was a horrible person and that she never wanted to see his face again. She told me she was sorry but never really gave me a reason as to why she didn't take me with her. And this was the result. My dad spiraled out of control. He would come back drunk at 4:00 am and begin yelling profanities at me. After a while of that my self esteem started to go way down. He would say I am useless and that I have no purpose. Soon without him even hiring me yet, I began hurting myself. I would cut daily and his words kept repeating in my head. About a couple months later he lost his job. They said he wasn't coming to work daily so he got fired. He became angrier, more violent. He would come him every night and beat me. Then he would just leave after I was unconscious. That's where my love for hoodies came from. They covered everything up. All the bruises, all the cuts, everything. My dad got his job back but he didn't get better so neither did I. I got worse and worse. I tried to kill my self 3 times in the same year. I can't remember one time that I was happy."

I realized my eyes were watering. I looked at Zak and saw that tears were streaming down his face. I reached out hug him, remembering to be careful, not to alarm him. I gently put my arms around him.

He stiffened at first but soon he relaxed and continued.

"But then one day I met someone who turned my whole life around. Well not that much but you know what I mean. His name was BadBoyHalo."

I smiled and felt a tear roll down my cheek.

"This guy would become my friend in just a couple of months. He seemed to be the only one that could handle how annoying I am." He pulled out of the hug and smiled, "so thanks for that."

Then he looked at me and smiled. "I'm getting kind of tired."

I wanted to know more but as I studied his face I noticed bags under his eyes. He probably hasn't slept in days maybe weeks.

"Okay well good night muffin." I told him, "Can I tell Vincent about this?"

"Sure." He replied then I walked out."

*Woosh*

After I told Vincent what Zak said, we got to work. We began researching this about the way Zak acts.

Vincent is really concerned, "Here is a list of the things Zak has symptoms of; depression, anxiety, PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), and everyone probably already knows that he's sleep deprived." He explained.

"This is bad." I said.

I thought of all the times Zak made my day. And I'm going to make sure I turn Zak's life around.

Aghagah new chapter. Idk do this is good. Idk what I'm doing writing this so late... tomorrow I have school 😬 but at least is Friday 🙃 the other cheater was rlly short so I wanted to write this. That's it beyeyeee

Edit: I just realized how many words I misspelled in my Authors note...