Jiya's POV
As i came out of bigboss house i saw everything whatever happened inside the bb house behind my back and that which happened in outside world.
I really had feelings for that guy . I believed in 2nd chances but his family i don't know what i have done to get that much hate. I was not able to process the same i cutted off my self from the world. I don't use Instagram Twitter anything. My team do that for me.

I loved him i still do.. but i can't take it i just can't I cry every night for him. But he never tried to even contact me intially but few days ago my pr team said he tried through dm .. but i am done yrr i don't want hate for my mom.. we got rape threats and what not. I tried to contact him after coming out but he didn't replied after that i got to know everything.. my life these days is like i do work and work thats my life since bigboss.
I recently got a movie that too from salman khan films. And i really got busy but his memories hunt me. I can't sleep properly. I have found me a place where i go and cry in corner. I don't meet my friends because of me they get hate even today after one year of BB so yeah i am totally alone.
After all that happened i still ask God for him. I ask God to take my pain away and give him to me . I always pleaded with my cries but no one knows the depth of my cries except me. The agony inside me is unbearable but i seek peace in His divine power .But My heart remain shattered with his memories, and i still want him to hold me close. I pour my heart out to the heavens hoping for miracles. Yet the weight of my unspoken emotions are growing heavier with each passing day.
You completed me somehow there is no one as i adore you, but i have take my steps back my heart is broken but this pain i love this as its given by you

Just one question hurt me why can't i love you? Why you said i am faking it. It hurts yar.. whenever i take you name my tears starts coming thats why i avoid it..

I miss you yarr . But i know we are not meant to be.

*Beep beep*

My phone rang . It was Instagram notification.

With beating heart i checked my insta dm after one year.

Abhishek malhan requested to text you.
5 days ago
Abhi: jiya you there

4 days ago
Abhi : jiya

2 days ago
Abhi: jiya can we talk?

Today
Abhi: where are you jiya?

I saw the text but i didn't replied i am afraid of uncertainties, i am afraid of closures I don't need one.. there is a hope but if i replied that hope will be finished.
What if he said why you fake loved me what if he said all that he used to say behind my back.

Yes its broken. I am broken. Nobody can do anything about it.
It was beautiful but now its just pain that i could feel..

Some relations are like this never confessed never showed never happens but the person who loved only knows how broken its

So i jiya shankar accepting i did loved Abhishek malhan but it wasn't meant to be .
He taught me how to lve but didn't taught me how to unlove.

Some stories just don't end.