Dean didn't say anything as he slammed the door shut. His grip still tight on your arm, not even lettering you go as he locked the door behind him.

"Dean, you're hurting me." You told him quietly, and he dropped his hand immediately as if you burned him.

"Y/N, I'm..." He muttered, running his hand along his mouth. "I don't know how to start."

"Umm, the truth is always a good start." You snapped back, softening when you saw the look of heartbreak and fear in his eyes. "Dean, I'm just trying to figure things out. We've been through so much together. This world has tried to pull us apart, time and time again. But yet we've managed to fight it, and I thought we are stronger because of it."

Reaching out, he pulled you to his chest, and you let him. It felt safe, and right to be in his arms, and you loved being there more so than any other spot in this world. "Y/N, I love you more than I've ever loved anything. There have been times I thought I was dying because you were not by my side. I have no idea why she showed up as my deepest desire, because she's not. You are, and you will always be."

"But then..." You wondered out loud, believing his words.

"Maybe it's because we're tied so close. I had the Mark, the lock to her cage, and that brought us close together. Maybe it's because I'm her deepest desire. That the mark has us tied in a way that I'm having trouble fighting. But know this. I will never willingly pick her over you."

"Dean, deep down I knew that. It just hurt, seeing you and her together, knowing it could have been me." You answered.

"I'm so sorry you had to see that. And when you brought it up in the car, I had no idea how to answer. I knew if you saw you would hate me, and I couldn't have that." He muttered, pressing a kiss to the crown of your head.

"I can't hate you. Even if you totally shattered my heart, I don't think I could."

"Y/N, can I tell you something." He mumbled so quietly you weren't sure you heard him at first. As he guided you over to the bed, you nodded. Laying down on your side, you pulled him down with you until the two of you were lounging in bed, arms wrapped around each other.

"She scares me. The hold she has over me. I love you, and will never willingly leave you. But what if she forces me? What if I can't control myself? I can't do that to either you, or myself!" He cried out, and you could hear the pain in his voice.

"You will be able to fight her." You assured him. "You're strong, and your heart is full and good. No matter what she does, I know you'll be okay."

"How can you have such faith in me?" He asked you, his arms tight around you. "I'm a mess, a broken and ugly mess. And yet, you've stayed with me, even with the darkness trying to lure me to her."

"Because you're my mess." You answered him, trying to make light of the situation. "Because even though you might not see it, you're a good person, with one of the biggest, kindest hearts I know."

"How did I get so lucky?" He asked you, and you just shrugged.

"Can we just go to sleep now?" You asked tiredly. "It's been an exhausting day."

"Of course. I'm just glad that we were able to clear that up. I was worried that you wouldn't believe me." He admitted, and you tilted your head up to stare in his green eyes.

"Of course I would believe you. Amara is real, and powerful, and her hold on you is as real as well. And I'll be by your side, fighting against her every moment. She's not going to be able to take you from me."

Yawning, Dean stood up, slipping out of his boots and jeans while you did the same. Grabbing one of his spare shirts from his bag, you slipped it on before climbing under the covers, yawning widely.

"So, what's our plan for tomorrow?" You asked him as he came back from the bathroom.

"Head back to the bunker. Try to figure out where she is, and try to get rid of her once and for all." He answered emphatically, climbing under the covers with you, and pulling you tight to him.

"That sounds wonderful. And then maybe we can go to Disneyland." You whispered, already half asleep.

"Once we get rid of Amara, I'll take you anywhere your heart desires." He answered you, kissing your temple.