Arial P.O.V

" Okay with that being said; I killed my Mom"

" I don't believe you" Harry said

"What? No, I did, I swear"

"There is no way a beautiful girl like you would hurt a fly" Louis said

I saw Eleanor from the corner of my eyes; she absolutely hates me

"What are you talking about Arial?" Zayn asked

I took a deep breath "Well 8 months ago I had an argument with my mom, I can't remember about what it was; I have been trying to remember but I can't "
I said smacking my forehead

"She called after me telling me to get back inside clutching my wrist, as I ran out the house, it was a rainy day, I yanked her arms away screaming for her to leave me alone." I breathed loudly

"Hay .. you don't have to tell us if its...." Liam started

"No it's important you deserve to know" I said

Sophi pated his knee, he bought her closer to him.

"I took 2 steps then heard a loud roar of a truck and mom screaming" I said

"She was hit instead of me should have been me. It was meant for me; but I was selfish and arrogant and stubborn and stupid to take it, it was all my fault" I said falling of the floor my voice was bearly audible at the last part.

"It's not your fault Arial" Harry said leaning down next to me

"Yes it was. Still is" I whispered

"No it was not honey, God needed a new angle so he took your mom" Shopi said

"Plus your mom surly loved you and wanted to help you just like I do, and all of us do" Zayn said

"What???? how could you say that??? " I whispered

"It's the truth" Niall said

"Even my dad did not want me around; since him and my mom divorced; at the time I was seven. He had to take custody of me, as he is family, he didn't even know I didn't come home for about two weeks. I doubt if I died he will even take notice" I said

"Do not say that you're important to everyone here" Louis said

I shook my head disapproving let alone they don't even know me I  am just telling them cause I know we will not meet again. I hope am wrong somehow.

"I entered Rehab for 6 months no one paid me any visits" I said

Flashbacks of that day running through my mind.

*flashback

"Arial you will have to be away for some time" Dad said

"But who are these people?"

"Doctors you have to go to the hospital with them. They will treat you"

"Dad I am not mentally ill "

"You have to go Arial "

"Dad I just want mom back "

"You have depression and anxiety an eating disorders"

"But I want to stay at home with you "

"I will visit you I promise " Dad said the paramedics taking me away. None of my screaming helping.

*end of flashback

I closed my eyes trying to shake the memory out some one called me ...

"Yes ...sorry what"

"Are you okay? " Harry asked

"I don't know. But You have to promise not to tell anyone on  the whole planet" I said

They nodded

Except for Tiff, she already knows everyghing more like that is why she left.

The girl I use to call my best friend abanded me in the middle of nowhere, her and my boyfriend cause they're ashame of me; 'The girl who intered Rehab, the crazy one.'

"Do you have siblings?" Eleanor asked after a while

"No " I answered shortly

"What about friends ?? boyfriend?? "  Sophi asked as if she read my mind

"Ahg...  no not that either at least not anymore" I said

"What do you mean? " Zayn asked

"I use to have a friend but she abandoned me when; you know I got into Rehab" I said

"You had a boyfriend? " Harry asked

I looked at him almost not wanting to answer him but I said everything one last thing won't hurt. I bit the inside of cheek choosing to speak up.

"He didn't like the fact I didn't show any; ahmm you know .."

He looked at me clueless

"Wasn't affectionate I didn't show tenderness or fondness towards him " I said shyly

"You mean you didn't have sexual contact with him??? you guys didn't have sex" Zayn said laughing

How is he so open about this? ? But then again it's Zayn. That is one side of Zayn that not so many people get to see.

Louis smirked at him fist pumping him. If I say My face turned into a tomato that would be an understandment.

"Didn't kiss him" I said looking somewhere else

"You neve kissed him" Sophi asked laughing

I shook my head no

"OMG no way " Eleanor said getting into the conversation

"Don't tell me you never kissed before" Louis said laughing

"Was not going to " I muttered

"You didn't have your first kiss yet? " Harry said smirking

"How excatly did we get into this topic? " I said feeling embarrassed

They laughed, I placed a hand over my face.

Harry bought me closer to him I buried my face in his chest.

How can they laugh and take it easy. Above all that make me laugh with them.

I wouldn't have ever guessed that not in my wildest dreams.

One direction and Sophi; not to mention Eleanor make me feel less bitter; well I think I can say it now, I AM QUITE OKAY WITH  MYSELF.

Hello! did you just hear that!

THE BOYS NOW KNOW what do you think sorry for the late update but I have been incredibly busy for the past 2 weeks.

Comments and votes are more than appreciated.

Lots of love ❤❤❤

Btw who's over Infinity by one direction. Cause I know for a fact am not. I'm I alone???!!