Arial P.O.V

Liam woke everyone up early in the morning he would not dare to wake Louise up though, cause then you will have to deal with a fresh morning Lux mood not so nice.

Not to mention Zayn to be honest I felt sorry for almost everyone.

"She is not my girlfriend why do I have to go pick her up before my breakfast" Naill groaned.

<at least he got a point> I laughed inside just from the way he said it was really funny.

"Because she is my girlfriend. I have to look good. My friends should behave now get dressed and stop nagging you are coming whether you like it or not Horan" Liam told him leaving no place for argument.

My mind rewind back to the day I meet Eleanor which was only 2 days ago which also did not go very smooth. I just hope this time it will go really fast and less painful.

I made it my number 1 priority to convince the boys that I will be staying in the van, Paul thankfully agreed saying that it is for the best and 2 of the boys should stay with me as well so Zayn was already paseed out a sleep in the car and Niall made it clear he is staying earning a glare from Liam.

"Are you okay Ari?" Niall asked after a while "I am fine " I said.

"You can tell me anything you know" he insisted. "Okay I am fine really" I said, taking my sketch and drawing I stayed silent for a little while just vaguely matching patterns.

"I am scared" I suddenly blurred not taking my eyes off of what I was drawing "I feel so bad idk what to do anymore this feeling is the same exact feeling I had - I" stopped not wanting to continue as my tongue almost slipped.

"Do you ever just feel like no one cares about you whether you stay or leave, sick or healthy, happy or sad, like no body cares if you are lonely or depressed, its like I am so left out.." I ended

"Niall are you-" I stopped, turning my head to him, when I saw that he was looking back at me actually listening to what I was saying I wanted to actually ask him if he heard me. To my surprise he was.

Niall lifted his hands up I closed my eyes afraid of the motion, how stupid of me I knew he would not hurt me yet I did.

I  felt soft hands on my cheek I opened my eyes Niall flicked the tears that had built up I had not even realized I was crying.

"Sorry" I said feeling rather stupid breaking in front of him; yet again, thankfully, Zayn did not wake up or maybe he was just pretending to be a sleep.
Which was very likely.

"Don't apologize Ari" he said I looked the other way smiling stupidly at what just happened. "Anyways that was just plain crap" I started

"No it was not, and yeah I felt that way a while ago but I just learned from the boys that no matter how few the people who care for you are, you better appreciate it cause they are everything that someone can wish for no matter how small their act of love is they might not tell it or say to you but they will show it in small little stuff that you even might not notice.
Y

ou just have to keep your eyes wide open. And eventually it's a passing period, Ed once told me that things will get better at the end, if not then its not the end.

I guess I just carried on from there I figured I was making it bad for myself if someone was treating me bad then so what he lost me I have other important stuff to care for I will just find someone else to care for and love and they will love me back" Niall ended.

I blinked my eyes never in my life had I guessed such wise words would come from Niall.

I mean he is a celebrity most celebrities just don't care although I should say that One Direction are far from that. They are the most kind generous white hearted people I ever saw.

"And just for the record I care and Zayn cares and Liam and Harry and Louis and Lou care and Paul and Mark and Jason and Brad and Nick and Erin care, do you want me to carry on?" Niall said I shook my head at him smiling.

"There she is" Niall said I laid back on his shoulder replaying his words in mind.

"Ed?" I asked "Yeah Ed Sheeran" Niall said simply as if it was the most obvious thing ever.

"Oh! you do not know him do you " Niall said

"Sorry" I said.

"He is one of my very good friends he is a singer and song writer really successful as well really huge it's sick" Niall said.

He was really bragging now about how good that Ed is as if he was his hero I wonder what kind of music Ed made.

"I am more than happy to know that you out of every one do" I spoke a little while later Niall replied by simply wrapping his arm around me and stroking gently.

"How come you don't or maybe you never told me about her" I said

"Her??" Niall asked

"Your girlfriend" I said making it obvious.

"I don't have one" he said

"Seriously" I asked

Niall laughed "Seriously don't "

"Wow! but you are really perfect and caring and extremely attractive and omg I am gonna stop now" I said slapping a hand over my mouth I did not dare to move thou I was extremely comfortable.

Niall laughed "Don't worry about it babe you are pretty attractive as well" he said

Did I just hear him correctly or did I not??!!! is he blind or something!???!! I decide I did not want to say anything I liked it this way.

<Hah even your  boyfriend thought you  were ugly he even told you so, are you that stupid you don't get it he is fooling you and you are too stupid to understand, poor Arial pathetic what a disturbed mind you have> my mind screamed at me.

SHUT UP I SCREAMED BACK FLIPPING AT IT.

And it was like searching for a needle in the dark. No point.

At the same second the van door opened and a burnet really fit one hopped in "Nialler I missed you blonde" she screamed. "Hay Soph missed you too babe"

"Omg is this your girlfriend!! hi sorry I am Sophi nice to meet you" she said extending her hand.

"Hallo Sophi I am Arial" I said shaking her hand.

"Soph she is just my friend" Niall said.

Ouch that hurts not that I wanted us to be, okay maybe I did okay but who would not!! well that just proves a point 'I am a stupid pathetic bitch.' I smiled "oh opps" Sophi said.

Can you just see how my life works, it's like I don't know when a person should smile.

I smile instead of crying.

I have those terms mixed.

"Hay babe" Liam came saying.

When we first walked to the hotel Lux came running to me.

"Arialllll" she squealed crying hugging my calves.

"I alone" she said

"Hay baby girl" I said hugging her and picking her up.

"Why are you alone baby?" I asked softly.

"Mommy say I bad" she said sniffling.

"Why did she say that baby?" I asked she looked to the floor.

"Because I mess clothes and play with laptop in bubbles" she said

"And do you think that's what good girls do baby?" I asked.

She shook her head no. "But, me not good Ariall" she asked crying.
"No baby you are perfect and pretty but you have to listen to mommy to stay perfect and pretty cause mommy asked God to have you and the least you could do is listen to mommy okay baby?" I said kissing her.
"

Now what do you think you have to do ?" I asked testing her "Say sorry to mommy" she said smiling.

"Good girl" I said

She was about to go to her mommy.

"Lux" I called she came back, "How about we make something special for mommy" I said she grinned.

"We draw Arialll draw nice " she said.

"let's go draw then" I said picking her up.

I turned around to see all the boys looking and me and girls.

"What?" I asked they looked everywhere else.

"Nothing" Louis said taking Eleanor's hand and went to his room.

"Do you have sisters??" Harry asked.

"No" I answered quickly.

Liam and Sophi looked at each other smiling and moved.

"Arial we draw to mommy when?" Lux asked I saw Niall smiling at me <what is wrong with him> I thought.

"Now baby" I said

I picked my sketch off the ground and pulled Lux and myself to the balcony I started drawing a picture in my mind of her and Lou while Lux either looked at me trying to copy me miserably or childishly drawing with crayon on a separate piece of paper.

"Here baby girl, now you write I love you to mommy and go give it to her" I said

"Waw! Ariall it looks like mommy and me!! and I have flower in my hair like princess"

"You are a princess baby " I said

"You and me are princesses" Lux said jumping, I smiled

I saw her write under the drawing and go give it to Lou. I saw Lou looking at me from a distance hugging her child mouthing a thank you, which I returned with a smile.

"I miss you mom" I said a little too loud.

"Arial we are going out care to join?" Harry came asking me.

I looked up at him as I was sat on the floor.

"Where to??" I asked.

"Some party " he said.

"When" I asked.

"In an hour" he said, I held my hand up for him to take and help me up. he smiled gladly pulling me up.

Hay loves thank you so much for everything silent readers do me a favour and comment what you think .

NOW!! Who is  EXCITED FOR THE BOYS FIFTH ALBUM I am dying to know when will be released probably died already when it gets released.

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