- One week later -

I started dating her again. I posted her on my story, I got messages every day from Andy, Jake, and sometimes Jinxx ever since he found my Instagram, I would get the occasional calls from Andy but it was more when I first left and ever since then, he stopped calling as much.

"Babe! We're going to be late!"

I sigh and looked at her as she got dressed. I hated the feeling she gave me. I felt dirty and this felt wrong. My roommates wont talk to me, no one wants to deal with it. Spencer already told me that he's not going to be there when I get hurt again. He's not going to kick me out but he said he didn't support my decision and tried to talk me out of it and it was working until she saw us and started bugging for me to stop talking to him and to give her attention which I did.

"You're friend is going to be back at school, right? I don't want you talking to him." I nod slowly and looked down. "Don't worry babe, nothing is going to break us apart this time."

I smile slightly and kiss her as she kisses me. As I was getting dressed, I noticed her shooting herself up with heroin. I cursed at myself because I knew she was going to convince me to do it once I was dressed.

I finished getting ready and looked at her. She walked over to me and smiled. "Come on, here." She tied the band around my arm and then looked at me. "Ready?"

"Hey, baby, I was thinking-"

She shot it into me and I wince. I didn't want to do this. I sighed as I felt it go into my arm. It felt so weird doing this again. We've done it for the past three days but I wasn't trying to get addicted to it again.

"I'll bring some with us for school. Y'know how it can be." She giggled and put some in her bag. I nod and walk with her out of my room. My arm started to hurt a little so I started holding it which didn't help.

I groan at the pain and ignore it. We grab something to eat and I noticed cookies out, along with brownies. I then see Spencer looking at his phone. I sighed. "Weed?"

He looked up at me and then the cookies and brownies. "Yeah, why?"

"I'm taking some." I said as I open the drawer next to him. He looked at my arm and grabbed it, noticing the small holes from the past few days.

"You're doing heroin again?" He whispered.

"So what, just leave me alone." I said as I grabbed a bag from the drawer and grabbed some cookies and brownies. I soon walked out with her and we walked to school. I soon seen Andy drive up to us. I looked at him and notice small hickeys on his neck. I quickly look away when I felt her hand in mine.

"Rem, stop walking for a second. I need to talk to you."

I was about to speak when she stopped. I stopped and looked at her. She grabbed my face and kissed me. I just stood there, not knowing what to do. This felt wrong but he doesn't care. He's probably dating that one dude. I kissed her back after a few seconds until I heard a sigh and his car driving away. I pull away and watch as she walked away from me. I sighed and followed after her.

When we got to school, I walked to my locker while she went to hers, which was upstairs, far away from mine. I quickly get my stuff so I didn't bump into Andy. I didn't want to be around him.

"Remington."

I froze and turned around. Andy was staring at me. He looked hurt and sad but he had no right. He was fucking that dude while I was gone. Probably on my bed too.

"What?"

"What? Seriously? No 'Hi' or 'Sorry for leaving'? You had me going crazy! I thought we lost you, then I find your fucking Instagram account to find out that you were fucking that one crazy bitch! Do you know how-"

"How what?! How hurtful it is? How crazy I am for doing that?! Yes, yes I know already! I don't need shit from you! You were fucking some guy! The dude on Jakes story that one day? Yeah, I saw it! Plus, you have fucking hickeys all over your neck! You're a fucking slut! Kissing me and then kissing some dude the second you get alone time from me!? Wow, thanks! I don't need you're fucking protection! At least I'm with someone who loves me!"

"You think she loves you!? How fucking stupid are you!? And on top of that, I'm not a fucking slut! I never meant to hurt you! If you told me you didn't like me kissing you, I would have stopped! I'm sorry that you felt that way! You're the one that fucking left out of nowhere! I tried to talk to you! I tried to do everything I could but you ignored me! You're a fucking bitch, Remington! Fuck you."

"You wish you could." I laughed. "You really wish you could, huh? Wishing I was sucking your dick? Wishing I was under you? Why else would you try to contact me every day? You love me, admit it! You want to fuck me so badly, you can't get enough of me!" I shouted, causing people to look.

"I DON'T LIKE YOU REMINGTON, I NEVER DID! GET THAT THROUGHT YOUR THICK FUCKING HEAD! YOU MEAN NOTHING TO ME! I NEVER WANTED YOU!"

My heart dropped. I looked down and then turned to my locker. "At least I wasn't fucking with someone's feelings." I mumble before closing my locker and bag. I turn to Andy and sigh. "I hope you make him as happy as you made me...even if we weren't dating. I hope you treat each other right."

I started to walk away but Andy grabbed my arm. I wince and he looked at me then my arm. I had fresh cuts on my arm but that's not the first thing he noticed. He touched the small hole on my arm and then took me to the bathroom. He pushed me inside and locked the door.

"What the fuck Remington. Heroin?!"

"Shut up okay? It's not your body."

"No, you're right, it's not but you're fucking your body up!"

"And why do you care?"

Andy looked at me and then looked down. "I don't..."

"Exactly, now let me go and don't talk to me again."

He let go of me but spoke up again.

"I missed you...y'know? When you left, you were the only one on my mind."

"Fuck this shit. You don't give a fuck about me, remember? You just fucking said that."

He sighed and walked up to me. He kissed me and for some reason, I didn't push him away. Instead, I clung onto him. He pushed me against the wall and started kissing my neck.

"Andy, stop."

Andy stopped and placed his head on my shoulder. "I miss you, Remington. I can't get you out of my head."

"I can...I don't want anything to do with you anymore."

He looked hurt when he looked up at me. He started crying and I could feel myself tear up. I quickly pushed him away from me and ran outside the bathroom. I started having a panic attack and fell to the floor. Fucking hell, not today.

"Rem? Remington!" I heard Andy shout but then she came into view. I got up and tried my best to walk to her but I ended up falling again. She looked at me and walked away.

"Remington, come on, we need to get you to the nurse-"

"LEAVE ME ALONE ANDY!"

I got up and ran as much as I could but ended up being pushed into a bathroom again. I notice it was a girls bathroom. I look up to see her. She smacked me across my face and glared at me. "Shut the fuck up and stop being a baby!"

She started hitting me. She wouldn't leave me alone, no matter how much I tried to push her away, she kept grabbing my arm and holding it tightly, causing me to wince and cry out in pain.

"Stop!"

"Shut the fuck up!" She yelled as she kicked my stomach. I fell over and heard her laugh and kick my head. After a few more hits and kicks, she shoved the needle in my arm again and shot me up with more heroin. I winced and cried as she walked out.

Not again...not again, not again, not again. This can't happen again...but it did. All because I didn't listen. All because I'm a bitch and a slut. All because I cant deal with anything by myself.

I got up a few moments later. I walked out the door and see that the hallway has cleared up. I walk past everyone until I bump into my brother.

"Rem? What are you doing? Holy shit, your arm-"

"Go to class Em, I'm dipping."

He looked at me and shook his head. "No, dad got a call from the school that you've already missed enough days. They're going to do a walk through if you miss another one."

Fuck...

"Alright. I'll stay at school." I stated as I walked to class.

"I love you Rem...please don't keep hurting yourself."

I stopped and sighed. I wanted to cry. Emerson shouldn't see me like this. "I love you too Em...don't end up like me. Take care of yourself."

I continued to walk as I was left alone with my thoughts. Fuck this shit. I don't want to be here anymore.

Once I walked into the classroom, all eyes were on me. I hated it but I still walked past everyone. I then notice Andy. I walked over to him and sat next to him. He looked at me and frowned.

"What?" I asked, trying not to sound supper upset.

"Your face...you have a red mark on your cheek...a bruise on your eye."

I shake my head and roll my eyes. "Mind your own business."

Andy sighed and looked away from me. I did my work in each class, turned in missing assignments that I had, I even told the teachers everything that happened but I didn't want them to keep asking me where I've been, what happened to me, every little thing.

Once I got home, Spencer saw me. He looked at me and his jaw dropped. "I knew she was bad for you-"

"You said you weren't going to help me. Don't interfere with something that has nothing to do with you."

I walked upstairs and into my room. I looked through my stuff until I found a blunt. I lit it and started smoking. Smiling as the smoke filled the room. If this doesn't kill me, I don't know what will.

I looked around the room to find some alcohol. I found a small bottle of half full vodka. I drank some before putting some pills in my mouth. I didn't even bother to check what they were, I just wanted to end it all.

I drank some vodka to help the pills go down before taking another puff of my blunt. I heard someone outside my door and smile. It's probably her.

I open the door, half high and half drunk. Andy was standing there with Spencer.

"Oooohhh. It's yooou. When did yooouuuu becooommmmeee friendsssssss?" I slur my words as I spoke.

"Rem, it smells so fucking bad in here. Come on, stop."

I looked at Andy and glare. "Yooouu let thissssss happpppen!" I shout and then cry. "I'm sorry~!"

"Rem, what are you on right now? There is no way you're just smoking. You smell like vodka." Spencer asked.

"That's because I drank vodka. Duhhhhhhh."

"Rem, you shouldn't have gotten high and drank. That's stupid."

"Im not-" I started coughing and I smiled. "Yay!!" I lay on my bed and take another puff of the blunt. "Close my door and leave me in peace!" I giggle.

I didn't hear movement so I assumed they were gone. I then feel myself start to puke but I didn't move. After a moment, I started choking. Everything then goes dark.