Today was the day...I was getting top surgery.
I woke up to a sleeping boy next to me. I smiled and kissed his cheek until he woke up.

"Hi." Remington smiled as he sleepily looked at me.

"Hi." I smile and laugh at the same time.

"What time is it?" Remington asked while yawning. I checked my phone and noticed how early it was.

"It's time for kisses and cuddles. Unless, you want to go back to sleep."

He shook his head and cuddled into me before looking up and kissing my lips softly. I kissed him back and he smiled into the kiss.

His hands slowly ran up my back as mine went to his sides. Remington whined when I pulled away from the kiss and pulled me into a hug.

"Love, it's 5am. Even if you don't have to go to school just yet, I'd rather you take your meds now instead of waiting until you normally do. Then we can watch a movie and eat breakfast downstairs." I spoke softly before lifting his face from my chest to look at him in the eyes. "Hmm? Would you like that?"

Remington nods but then shakes his head. He mumbles, "I don't want to walk downstairs."

I sighed and got out of bed. I picked Remington up, bridle style, and took him downstairs to the living room, placing him on the couch. I walked into the kitchen to get his meds and a cup of water before walking back to him.

"Here."

He took his meds and smiled. "Now cuddles?"

"Now food. Then cuddles." I smile as I kiss his cheek and walk to the kitchen. I made pancakes and grabbed one of Remington's many Nutella jars that he has and brought it to the living room.

We ate silently until I spoke. "So...I have surgery today. I'm excited."

Remington nods slowly and stops eating. "Yeah...me too."

He sounded scared, sad, upset. Something I couldn't really understand. Why would he be upset or sad? Why would he be scared?

"Hey, you know you can talk to me about anything that's bothering you right? I don't want to leave you when you're sad and sounding upset."

Remington sighed and looked up at me. "I'm scared Andy...I feel like you will get hurt or you won't return home...it's eating me alive just thinking about the possible outcome."

I smile slightly. "Don't worry. I'm going to be in good hands." I thought for a moment before checking my phone. "Do you want to come with me? You can stay for a little while. I just gotta talk to my mom about it."

I smile as Remington nods rapidly. "I would love to...and possibly...maybe I will be able to stay with you?"

I laughed. "Love, baby, I wish. I really do. But you need to go to school. You can stay for a few hours and then I'll see if my mom can pick you up early."

He nods and we continue to eat. My mom came down a few minutes later so I talked to her and she agreed to pick Remington up early and agreed to let him stay with me.

Once we finished eating, we got ready for the day. I had a button up shirt and a pair of basketball shorts on. It didn't match and quite frankly, I didn't care. Before I buttoned up the shirt, I look at my binder and smile.

"Won't have to see you after today." I whisper as Remington knocks and opens the door. I smile at Remington to see him in one of my hoodies and a pair of grey sweatpants. He had his vans on and smiled at me.

"Are you sure I can't stay with you? What if you wake up and I'm not there yet? What if something happens and you want to hug someone? Who's going to be there for you?"

"Trust me, the surgery will be a while. You'll be there when I wake up, trust me. You will be fine, just go to school and don't worry. While you're there, can you pick my school work up for me?" I ask as I button the shirt up.

Remington nods and walked up to me. Giving me a tight hug that was almost suffocating. I huged him back with a huge smile on my face. I'm going to miss his hugs. I look down as kiss his head.

"BOYS! LETS GO!"

I look at Remington and smile. He smiled back as he took my hand and started walking out the door. Once we got to the front, my mom grabbed her keys. I quickly slid on my shoes and grabbed my aftercare bag which held all the essentials.

"I can hold that for you." Remington spoke as he got his school bag on. I shook my head and ruffled his hair as I walked out of the house, leaving Remington whining as he ran after me to catch up.

"You can't do that!"

"Oh, I can't? Says who?" I laugh as I run away from him and into the car.

He groaned and got into the car from the other side. He made a pouting face and looked at me. I laughed and grabbed his hand, leaving a kiss on the top of it.

He blushed and looked away, leaving his hand on mine. Once we were both buckled up, my mom drove to the hospital. I nervously bounced my leg and bit my lip, slightly squeezing Remingtons hand during the process.

It took us 20 minutes to get to the hospital and get checked in. I was more nervous then before. My heart was pounding as Remington rubbed his thumb along my hand. I tightly squeezed his hand and followed the lady and my mom as we walked to my room.

Remington, now holding my bag, put it on the mini couch against the wall that was next to a small bedside table. Remington looked at me with a smile.

"You're going to be okay, right?"

I nod but then instantly shake my head as one tear escapes my eye. Remington hugged me as I started to cry more. My anxiety wasn't bad but in this moment, it spiked high. I was terrified.

"Okay, we need you to get dressed in this. Take these once you're done and sit on the bed. The doctor will be right with you."

I nod, my head now buried into Remingtons neck. I'm going to miss him and these hugs. I won't be able to have them for a while.

"Okay, you get dressed. I'll be outside the door."

I nod and wipe my eyes. I got dressed in the hospital gown and sighed. I look in the mirror and can see the outline of my breast. I felt disgusting and uncomfortable. I didn't open the door. I didn't want Remington to see me.

After what felt like an hour, I heard a knock on the door. The door opened and the doctor came in. I was kinda hoping it was Remington though.

"So, your name is...Andrew?"

I nod and look at my hands. After a few more questions, he began to talk about the process.

"Okay, so in a little bit, the medicine is going to kick in, if you havent started feeling jt yet, and we are going to take you tobl get surgery. You'll be put to sleep-"

"I-im sorry, is my mom or boyfriend outside?"

"Oh, they left already. Maybe 30 minutes ago?"

I nod and sigh. I couldn't really feel my arms anymore which was new. It made me feel awkward.

"I think I feel the medicine kicking in.."

The doctor looks at his watch before walking out. A few seconds later, he and another guy came in and took the hospital bed I was in, out of the room.

Before I knew it, I was out like a light.