I'm trying so hard to forget all the times we shared. You're a different ex not the one I've been talking about. We ended months ago. Yet here I am thinking about how much hurt you put me through. After you dumped me for the third time, you started dating one of my best friends. I wasn't mad at the fact that you were dating her. I was very upset and hurt by the things you said about me once it was over. I was also hurt by what your friend called me. Your friend called me a hoe. That hurt really bad inside and I don't know why. You said I'm dirty, you said you didn't love me that you were bored so you decided to date me again. That hurt because you told me you loved me and you promised not to hurt me again but you did. You hurt me terribly bad. It's funny isn't it? How one day you made me feel special and loved and wanted and the next, you made me feel like worthless shit. I don't know why I showed you my cuts. I don't know why I almost opened up. I pretended like I didn't care but what no one knows is that night I cried myself to sleep. And the night after that I attempted suicide. Sadly, as you can see it didn't work. But it's not like you would've cared, you probably think the world would be so much better without me in it. I totally agree. And last month when we were at that "bridge" program your friend put me down again. And so did you. You called me a hoe then he said things that you previously said. Right now you're dating my lefty and you make her happy. But I'm scared she's gonna end up hurt just like me and my other friend. Please don't hurt her, she doesn't deserve that kind of pain. Neither did my other friend but we all know I deserve pain because I'm a worthless, attention seeking, dirty, ugly, fat hoe.

      ~me