I think I'm beginning to realise what self love actually means.

Perhaps it's not just being proud of the way you think, loving to get lost in your thoughts and being able to spend time alone in silence.

It's more about these moments- when you feel lonely and think that you need someone to cuddle with, that's when you gotta be there for yourself. When you're feeling left out, not liked properly, not valued enough, that's the time, though I'm not sure whether I should convince myself that I'm just overthinking or convince myself that I'm lovable or something else. It's about the moments you feel hopeless, when you're unsure about yourself and want someone else to solve it all for you. When you get the feeling that you just need someone to somehow drain all this stuff for you, from you, let you feel light and carefree and neutral, even if it's only for sometime. Times when no one seems to understand you, even you fail at that.

I think that's what actually loving yourself is, even though it seems I'm equating it with being independent or strong. Still, you gotta convince yourself that you are sufficient, simply because there's no point in mulling over this stuff or waiting for someone to come along and change it all. You might not actually be enough, but do the best you can.