Sighing as she watched from behind his eyes, she couldn't help sometimes feeling like that was all she was. An observer, someone here just to watch and learn. What she hypothetically needed to learn, she had no idea. She just knew she was tired of feeling like a shadow, someone easily forgettable.

She didn't know exactly what she was. All she knew was that she shared a body with a boy. And while that boy was very nice, and had even introduced her to new people who were now friends of hers that supported her and cheered her on...

It didn't change that she had no real way of expressing herself.

Sure, she could change his voice to his upper range when she had control. She could wear what she wanted behind closed doors. But everytime, she would look in the mirror and see him. Never herself, just him.

She knew what she looked like, or at least had an idea. She had drawn herself plenty of times, others had as well. And yet...even despite the drawings...

She yearned to express herself. To be free. To be her own person instead of someone stuck in another, even if that person was nice and caring.

Sighing, the girl resigns herself. It was a foolish hope. She knew that better than anyone. Why she sometimes came back to it was something she didn't understand. Why hope for something that couldn't happen? Why hope that things will change, even when everything else proves that it won't?

Taking control of the boy's body, she felt tears well up in her eyes. She couldn't keep pretending that she was just okay with not being able to express herself right now. That she would have endless hope and faith that things could change. Because she didnt. She wanted to be able to do those things so bad, she yearned for them.

Finally laying down and shutting her eyes, she hugged her knees to her chest as she sobbed a little. "It's not fair, it's not fair..." She cries, before finally letting go of her knees and staring up at the ceiling with a pained look as tears kept falling .

"Why can't I be a normal girl..? Why this..? Why this way..? " She whispers, the wind howling outside the window her only answer....