#BWB02

"Putang ina ang sakit ng ulo ko," bulong ko sa sarili habang naglalakad sa hallway ng school

"Hey Tori. Goodmorning," bati sa'kin ni Nicole

"Walang good sa morning."

She chuckled. "May hang over ka pa sis?"

"Obvious ba?"

I opened my locker and took some few books out. Nagulat ako dahil may nakita pa akong bra sa loob ng locker ko. Tinago ko nalang iyon sa sulok.

"Same. Pinilit ko lang pumasok dahil may quiz tayo ngayon. Umabsent nga si Aubrey at Tiffany eh."

"Dapat pala umabsent nadin ako," sabi ko habang hinihilot ang sentido

Fuck. My head hurts like hell! Parang may gera ng mga demonyo sa ulo ko.

"Nag-aral ka?" she asked

"Nope. Kopyahan nalang tayo. Katabi naman kita."

"Ako pa talaga inasahan mo."

"Matalino ka naman."

"Luh. Sakto lang."

"Kamusta pa ako?"

She smiled. "Fine."

Pumikit ako at sumandal sa locker ko. Kinuha ko ang tumbler ko sa bag at uminom ng tubig. "Para talaga akong magkakasakit."

She suddenly touched my neck. "Medyo mainit ka nga."

I smirked. "I know I'm hot."

She clicked her tongue. "Ang dami mo din nainom kagabi eh...tsaka nga pala, bigla kang nawala. Kasama mo ba si Jared nun?"

I nodded. "We fucked."

Her eyes widened because of my boldness. "Oh...kaya," palihim siyang ngumiti

Ilang sandali ay biglang dumating ang iba naming kaibigan. Si Jude with his girlfriend, Karina and my boyfriend, Jared.

"Hey babe," he went to me and kissed me on the cheek

I smiled. "Hey."

"Oh, bakit 'di niyo kasama si Ross at Clyde?" tanong ni Nicole

"Absent si Clyde, 'di mo alam? Boyfriend mo yun di ba?" Jared said

Her lips parted. "Hindi ko alam na absent siya. May hang over din siguro."

"Ross is, I don't know where the fuck he is," sagot ni Jared sabay akbay sa'kin. I held his arm and leaned my head on his shoulder

Nicole nodded and shifted her gaze to Karina. "Ano 'yang hawak mo?"

Karina smiled. "Ahh, eto pala para sa inyo. I baked some brownies."

"Wow, mukha ka ng anghel ngayon ah!" I teased. "Unlike last night."

She rolled her eyes at me. "At dahil diyan, ikaw ang una kong bibigyan ng brownie."

She opened the box. My friends immediately dived into it. Nainis siya dahil sa bilis ng pagkuha nila. Agad nila iyong kinain.

"Here, taste it," she said and handed me one

I licked my lips. Itsura palang ay nakakatakam na. My mouth started to water. Mahilig pa naman ako sa sweets. Jared took one and gave it to me.

"Thank you," I smiled and unwrapped it

I was about to take a bite when someone held my wrist. Nanatiling nakabuka ang bibig ko. Lahat kami ay napatingin kay Ross na siyang may hawak ng kamay ko.

"Don't," he said

I blinked twice. What the fuck is his problem?

"Hey dude, back off," my boyfriend warned and removed Ross' hand from mine

Nagulat ako nung biglang inagaw ni Ross sa'kin ang brownie. He opened it and smelled it.

"What the hell Ross? Sa tingin mo ba nilagyan ko ng lason 'yan?!" inis na sabi ni Karina

Masama niyang tinignan si Karina bago binalik ang tingin sa'kin.

"You can't eat this," he said

I scoffed. "Why not?! Akin na nga 'yan. Kung gusto mo, kumuha ka sa box. Hindi yung nangunguha ka sa iba!"

Umiling siya. "You're allergic to nuts right? There's nuts on this brownie."

My lips parted. Lahat kami ay tumahimik sa sinabi niya. I swallowed hard. "How did you know I was allergic?"

"You have allergies in nuts babe?" Jared whispehered in my ear

I nodded. Hindi ko inalis ang paningin kay Ross.

"Ay oo nga! Binanggit sa'tin yun ni Tori noon. Naalala ko na," sabi ni Nicole. "Nangati pa nga nun si Tori nung kumain tayo noon ng mani."

I smiled awkwardly. "Yeah. Nakalimutan ko din na...may allergy nga pala ako doon."

"Oh, sorry Tori. I didn't know. Dapat pala sinabi ko sa'yo na may wallnuts itong halo," sabi ni Karina sabay tingin sa box

"It's okay. I was careless too. Natakam kasi ako sa brownies mo," I replied

I looked back at Ross. Nahuli ko siyang nakatingin sa'min ni Jared. Bumaba ang mata niya sa brownie na hawak niya at kinain iyon ng buo. He then put the wrapper inside his pocket.

"Wait, how did you even know that there were nuts—"

Nagulat kami nung biglang tumunog ang bell. Some of the students are already going inside the room. Naghiwalay nadin kaming magkakaibigan.

"Ge guys, una na kami," paalam ni Jude at sabay na silang naglakad ni Karina. Nagpaalam nadin si Nicole sa'kin sabay pasok ng room.

"Bye babe, I'll see you later," Jared said and kissed my temple

"Love you."

"Love you more!"

I smiled and waved my hands. Sinundan ko siya ng tingin hanggang sa lumiko na siya sa hallway. Tumingin ako sa katabi ko at nakita si Ross. Mabilis nadin siyang naglakad palayo. I rolled my eyes at him and went to my classroom.

I wasn't able to focus on our discussion because my head is still hurting. Nakayuko lang ako habang nagkukunwaring nagbabasa ng libro kahit na ang totoo ay nakapikit ako.

"Miss Andrada. Are you sleeping in my class?"

I was surprised when my prof called me. Agad akong umayos ng upo. "Yes ma'am? I mean, no ma'am. I was just, reading," I forced a smile and showed her my book

She stared at me with a blank expression, not buying my alibi. "Ilang beses na kitang nahuhuling tulog sa klase ko ah. Ipapaguidance na kita sa susunod."

I tried my best not to roll my eyes at her. She is definately not my favorite teacher. I don't even like attending her class. If I know, sinasadya niya na ibagsak ako sa klase niya.

"Sorry ma'am."

Bumalik na siya sa pagsusulat sa board. I sighed heavily and ran my fingers through my hair. I saw that some of my classmates are staring at me.

"Ayan, puro paganda kasi. Napagalitan nanaman tuloy," a girl from behind me whispehered

I clenched my fist. Agad ko siyang nilingon. "May sinasabi ka?!"

She stiffened in her seat. Namilog ang mata niya habang nakatitig sa'kin.

"Miss Andrada. Warning!" my prof called me again for the second time around

I clenched my jaw. Sumasabay pa talaga sila sa sakit ng ulo ko.

"Ma'am. May I go out?" I politely said

Hindi siya sumagot. Simpleng tango lang ang binigay niya sa'kin bago bumalik sa board. I bet she also doesn't want me to be in her class. Don't worry ma'am. I don't like you either. The feeling is mutual.

Tumayo ako at mabilis na lumabas ng classroom. I then went to the ladies' comfort room. Nagkulong ako sa cubicle at umupo sa toilet bowl. I took my phone out, went to twitter and post a tweet.

Fuck my school. Ayoko na mag-aral. Help me find a sugar daddy.

My eyes widened when my tweet got over a hundred likes in less than a minute. Marami ding nag-reply doon. Well, not to brag but I do have a lot of followers on social media. I'm pretty famous, to the point na maraming gumagawa ng fake account at nilalagay ang picture ko as their profile.

Bigla ulit akong nahilo. Para akong masusuka. Should I go to the clinic instead and sleep there? Pwede naman akong mag-inarte na masama talaga pakiramdam ko. Pwede din naman akong umuwi nalang pero mas malabo akong payagan.

"Hay, putang inang buhay," I sighed

Nag-muni muni muna ako sa banyo bago bumalik sa classroom. I was planning to go to the clinic but I realized that we have a quiz today. What's the use anyway? Hindi naman ako nag-aral. Sigurado akong bagsak ako.

Pagkaupo ko sa upuan ko ay napansin kong may gamot na biogesic na nakapatong doon. Kumunot ang noo ko at kinuha iyon. Tumingin ako sa paligid at nahuli si Ross na nakatingin sa'kin. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. Umiwas siya ng tingin.

For a second I thought maybe he's the one who gave me this...but why would he in the first place?

Since my head still hurts and I feel myself burning up, hindi na ako nagdalawang isip at ininom ang gamot.

"Five minutes left," my prof announced

I only realized now that we are in the middle of a quiz. Kaya pala ang tahimik ng room pagkapasok ko. Tumingin ako sa paligid at nakitang nagsasagot ang mga kaklase ko. I immediately opened my notebook and copied the questions on the board.

Fuck. Only five minutes left. Sigurado akong bagsak ako.

After class, I got the result of my quiz. Disappointed but not surprised. Nakatitig ako sa papel na hawak ko. I literally got two out of five. At yung isa ay bonus pa. I inhaled sharply and crumpled the paper and threw it on the trash can.

I was about to leave when Ross suddenly appeared in front of me.

"Masakit padin ba ulo mo?" mahinahon niyang sabi

"Pake mo?!" inis kong sagot at nilagpasan siya

As soon as I got home, I saw my younger brother playing video games on his phone.

"Hi ate! Lagot ka kay mama," aniya

I clicked my tongue. "Bakit nanaman?!"

He stuck his tongue out on me. Nakita kong lumabas si mama sa labas ng kusina.

"Saan ka nanaman galing kagabi? Uminom ka nanaman?" tanong niya

"Yeah. Just with my friends," sabi ko at nilagpasan siya

Hinawakan niya ang braso ko. "Pwedeng sumagot ka ng maayos? Pwede?"

Napapikit ako sa inis. "Sinagot ko naman po yung tanong niyo."

"Hindi mo ba talaga aayusin 'yang buhay mo Tori? Nineteen ka na at third year college. Puro ka nalang inom, panay bagsak naman ang mga grades mo."

I sighed. Here she goes again with the long sermon. Daig pa niya ang pari sa simbahan eh.

Humarap ako sa kanya at pilit na ngumiti. "Yes ma. Aayusin ko na po ang buhay ko," sabi ko para lang matapos na ang usapan namin. I don't want to prolong it. Masakit padin ang ulo ko at gusto kong matulog

"Pa!" 

Napatingin kami sa pintuan. I saw my brother greeting the man at the door. Nakita kong tumingin siya sa'min ni mama. Mom walked towards him.

"Hon, andyan ka na pala. Ang aga mo ngayon ah," sabi ni mama

"Ahh oo. Nga pala, may uwi ako sa inyo na donut. Pang meryenda," the man said

"Wow! Thanks pa. Sakto, gutom na ako," sabi ng kapatid ko at kinuha sa lalaki ang pagkain. The man smiled and played with my brother's hair

I rolled my eyes at them. Didiretso na sana ako sa kwarto pero bigla niya akong tinawag.

"Tori. Meryenda ka muna."

I looked at him and forced a smile. "Ayos lang. Mamaya nalang."

"Hindi mo manlang ba babatiin ang papa mo?" mom asked with a cold tone

Why would I? He's just my step father. Wala naman akong sama ng loob sa kanya dahil wala siyang kasalanan. I'm angry at my mom. I'd rather live with my biological father.

"Hey Scott," bati ko at mabilis na naglakad papunta sa kwarto ko

Pagkapasok ko sa kwarto ay humiga agad ako sa kama. I didn't bother changing my clothes. Gusto ko nalang matulog para mawala na ang sakit ng ulo ko.

"Hey loves! I'm back on another IG live. Sorry for being MIA lately. I've been really busy partying but anyway, I'm back! Thank you sa mga nagmemessage sa'kin, asking me if I'm okay. Don't worry guys, I'm alive and kicking. Yes, I do miss interactinbg with you," I smiled and read the comments

My views are slowly increasing. From one hundred to five hundred real quick. I'm almost at a thousand. Inadjust ko ang lighting ng ring light ko para maganda ako tignan sa live. I'm facing on my vanity while sitting on my white feather chair. My phone is placed on a mini tripod. I also adjusted it a bit, finding the right lighting.

"For today's live, I'm going to share my skin care routine since a lot of you guys have been asking me what's my skin care and all. So as you can see, I'm bare face right now. I look ugly on the camera but trust me, I look better in person," I joked

Hindi ko na mabasa ang comments dahil masyado nang madami. I smiled when I saw my friends entered the live.

Karina:

She pretty!

Nicole:

Bakit apaka ganda mo?! Truly a queen

Aubrey:

You're glowing sis! 

Tiffany:

Nadine Lustre ikaw ba 'yan?! Morena beauty it is.

"Shoutout to my girls, you know who you are. And yes, ako lang ito. Nadine Lustre is shaking!" I joked

My eyes widened when I reached three thousand views. I can't believe a lot of people are watching me. Well, I'm not even surprised. Ang tagal ko ding nawala. Kung pwede din panoorin ko ang sarili ko eh. I'd never get tired of looking at myself in the mirror.

I sighed. Ang hirap maging maganda.

"Okay, I'll start now. I've already washed my face as you can see. I also tied my hair into a bun and put hair clips on the side. Ew, my head looks too big in the camera," I said

Lumayo ako ng konti. I looked at the products in front of me. "Oh yeah, before I forget. Yung cleanser pala na ginamit ko to wash my face is the St. Ives cleansing stick. The Apricot and Manuka Honey one. Eto siya oh," I said and showed them the product. Binalik ko din agad sa drawer pagkatapos kong ipakita at kumuha ulit ng panibagong product. "My new favorite product is this Ponds Mineral Clay Facial foam. Super love this and affordable din siya guys. Available siya sa watsons," I said and applied it on my face

"Marami nadin kasi akong napapanood na beauty influencers na gumagamit nito. You know me guys, I'm obsessed with beauty products, beauty lifestyle, fashion, make-up, and clothes that's why ganitong content lagi ang makikita niyo sa ig live ko. And I also just want to share my knowledge about these things to you. Disclaimer lang, hindi po ako professional or a beauty guru," I chuckled. I took my wet wipes and removed the leftover cream off my fingers

"A lot of you guys also want me to start a youtube channel. Honestly, I've been thinking about starting my own channel too to interact to you guys more. Tsaka dumadami nadin talaga ang audience ko. I want to but maybe not now due to personal reasons. Isa pa ay marami din akong ganap sa life. I'm still a student. I have a life outside social media. I do a lot. So, I have trouble balancing my social life and everything. I really enjoy talking to you guys and I love what I'm doing. I just don't think it's the right time. Maybe in the future, hopefully."

Muli kong binasa ang mga comments. They keep on sending me hearts. Unti-unti nading nababawasan ang views ko.

"Ate ang ganda niyo po," basa ko sa comments

I smiled. "I know."

How to be you po?

Ate, make-up routine naman po next

Ate, ilang taon na po kayo?

There were a lot of comments and mostly are female. I noticed that I have a lot of young female audiences 'cause they keep calling me Ate.

"Don't be me. Just be yourself. You don't have to be like everybody else. You don't always have to follow the trend. Just be natural. Yes may favoritsm si Lord nung ginawa niya si Nadine pero I think we should also try to love ourself," sagot ko sa tanong ng isa

"I'm nineteen years old. And yes, I'll be doing a make-up routine soon. I'm excited!"

Nagbasa pa ako ng comments. I noticed that the views are dropping. Biglang nasa around one hundred nalang ang nanonood. Bigla akong nalungkot at nainis. Bakit ang bilis naman nila nawala? Hindi ba ako entertaining panoorin?

"How to be confident like you po?" basa ko sa isang comment

I smiled. "Well, first all of thank you for saying that I look confident. Honestly, there is no exact formula. I mean, I have days where I feel confident but I also have days when I feel down. May mga insecurities din naman ako. What I do to feel confident is by putting on make-up and dressing up kahit minsan wala naman akong pupuntahan. It sounds weird but that's what boost my confidence. I do things that I love. I feel empowered."

Time flew by and I didn't even notice that an hour has passed already. Bumagsak nadin ang views ko. From one hundred to fifteen real quick. Well, I guess people don't have attention spans anymore. I can't help but to get annoyed at myself too from talking too much. Like shut the fuck up Victoria!

"See you guys soon on my next live. Thank you for watching! Mwuah. I love you! Bye!" paalam ko

The views went from fifteen to ten, to five until there was one person left. I was surprised that she still hasn't left. I was waiting for her to leave. Binasa ko ang username niya. I realized that it wasn't a girl...but a boy and his profile is so familiar.

Kumunot ang noo ko. "Ross?"

I was about to click on his username but it suddenly disappeared. I ended my live and searched his username. I clicked his profile and he's on private. I rolled my eyes. 

Why is his account on private? He doesn't even have that much followers to be honest. He only has less than five hundred. I have thrice the amount of followers than he has. Who does he think he is? Famous ka tol?

Bumalik ako sa account ko at napansing finofollow niya pala ako pero siya ay hindi ko finofollow. Nag-isip ako ng mabuti kung ifofollow ko ba siya o hindi. In the end I followed him since he's part of my circle of friends even if we're really not that close. I just hang out with my girl friends more often.

I stared at my phone for ten fucking minutes and he still hasn't accpeted my follow request. Nainis ako bigla. Parang natapakan ang pride ko. 

"Ang kapal, akala mo talaga ang famous eh. Nood nood ka pa ng ig live ko," inis kong sabi

I rolled my eyes. I was about to throw my phone on my bed when my phone vibrated. A notification popped up. Agad ko iyong chineck.

rossclifford has accepted your follow request.