So my mom just yelled at me for having headphones on while I baked

so yeah

im doing great

she says shes not a fan of this whole "listening to music all the time" thing

and since i cant fricking keep my mouth closed i grabbed my laptop and phone pulled down my headphones and said "i was just listening to music cause im baking and i didn't want to be bored but didn't want to distract you" and stormed upstairs

my headphones are in my drawer

i dont know what to do know

my mom and dad yell at me for every single thing and they always come to apologize and say they wont do again but how about you stop the apologies and actually stop yelling

cause not everything is my fault

im not trying to be an angsty teen 24/7

maybe cause of my anxiety and depression i stay in my room as much as i can

maybe im starting to develop anorexia because i don't want to eat cause im too big and too awful and all the yelling is my fault so i stay in my room without food and when my stomach rumbles i think good

maybe not everythings my fault but it sure feels like that

and musicals were my coping strategy cause i never feel more alive than when im singing but now im getting yelled at for listening to them

so maybe ill stop listening to music

maybe ill stop listening to anything at all