Hello
I am a fucking asshole
My friend is having a birthday party for my friend group
And I'm skipping the ice skating part
So I'm skipping like four hours of it
Because I hate skating and social events
I'm selfish
And I made up an excuse and everything
And I just reread a letter my best friend sent me this summer
And it was so nice
And I'm a fucking disaster
I'm skipping hanging out with friends because I'm spiraling
What's wrong with me
I hate myself
I'm going to her party later
But everyone will be pissed
And my anxiety is crazy right now
I hate myself
But I can't go because then they'll ask questions and then talk and I can't talk because I'm a disaster right now
I hate myself