Cameron walked over to the bed and pulled the blankets back for me while I stood frozen in place, rethinking the situation I was about to put myself in. It was one thing to want the security he gave me when I was alone in a dark room, but it was a whole other frightening prospect of lying with him half-naked next to me in bed.  Even if nothing happened, one of us was bound to move accidentally or touch each other in a way I wasn't sure if I was ready for. 

"Well, are you just going to stand there or are you joining me?" Cameron grew impatient as he waited for me to climb in.

"Will you promise to stay on your side of the bed?" I swallowed, looking at the way his perfectly defined chest moved up and down with every breath.

"Darling, the whole bed is my side." He smiled and raised an eyebrow at me which caused an instant chemical explosion south of the border.

Fuck, he should come with a warning label.

I hesitantly walked over to his bed and threw his pillow back down where it belonged. I climbed under the blankets in my usual spot as he climbed on the other side next to me. 

We both sat lying on our backs in silence, clearly unable to fall asleep with the uneasy tension between us.  I sat drumming my fingers against my stomach and began humming because I was so nervous. My feet were tapping to the rhythm in my head.  

"Do you have to do that?" He complained.

"Do what?" I asked innocently.

"Constantly make noise and move." He grumbled.

"I'm not moving," I argued. 

"I... you know what? Nevermind, please continue not moving and shaking the whole bed."  He shook his head and clenched his jaw at me.

I sat there for fifteen more minutes humming, huffing, and doing everything I could to take my mind off of the boy lying next to me.  No matter how hard I tried, it didn't work.  Cameron was the only thing I could think about.  It got even worse when he began restlessly shifting next to me too.  We both were squirming around like fish out of water as we tried to keep our limbs from coming near one another.  Cameron began sighing a lot and making little grumbly comments under his breath in frustration.

"Thats's it. This feels weird, Jess." He grunted, giving up.

"For me too," I admitted. 

"I don't know how to just lay here like this, without touching you."  He admitted.

"Same." I sighed. 

Even when we were just friends, before everything happened, we always found a way to hold hands or snuggle against one another.  It was never weird back then. I never felt as empty without him touching me as I did right now.

"You know what, I am done with this bullshit game." Cameron turned on his side to face me.

"This isn't a game to me." I turned to the other side to avoid looking at him.

"I want to be with you. I have always wanted you and I know you want me too. What we have right now might not be perfect and might take a little work, but it is there."

"I don't know." I was running scared from him.  Every time I let my guard down with anyone, I always lost.  If I let him in, it meant I could lose him again. I would never survive without him this time around.

"Kiss me and then tell me you still don't know."  He turned me around to make me face him. We were nose to nose as he slid his hand over my hip and around my back. His fingers traced lightly up and down my spine underneath my tank top as he pulled me closer.

"I don't know if it's a good idea, Cameron."  I swallowed as he looked at me expectantly.

"Jess, I won't pressure you into anything you don't want to do, but we need to figure this out one way or another.  If being in a relationship with me isn't what you want, then I need to know now because I can't keep doing this. The only thing I am is asking is for you to kiss me one time before you decide if this is over between us." He laid all his cards out on the table.

"Fine, just one kiss." I agreed.  I waited for him to come to me and he didn't.

"Your move, Miss Miller. It's your turn. I'm done chasing you. If you want it, you know what to do." He turned on his back waiting. He was tapping his fingers against his chest impatiently.

I lifted the top half of my body back up and looked down at him.

I could do this.  He was only asking for a kiss. One very tiny, innocent kiss.

"Still waiting, darling." His eyes flickered to my mouth. I was chewing on my lip nervously. His breathing began to change as he watched me. Cameron looked like a man who was starving.

Fuck me.

I hesitated one more second before giving in. His eyes were glued to my face as I leaned down to lightly brush my lips against his. 

The electricity shot through my body the moment his mouth barely brushed mine. 

Cameron wrapped his hand in my hair to pull me in further.  So much for letting me make the move, he practically swallowed me whole the moment we touched. He parted my lips with his and pushed his tongue greedily into my mouth.  I moaned as his hands slid down body stopping until he stopped just below my belly button.

I pulled away from his mouth slightly and we locked eyes.  The fire that burned within him stole my breath away.  I could stare into those eyes for the rest of my life.

His eyes lingered on my breasts and he nudged me slightly, letting me know he wanted me on top of him.  I placed my knees on either side of him and pressed against him as he hardened underneath me. 

"You can't deny this, Jess.  You know what we have feels right."  He whispered into my mouth.

I had no words for him because it was true.  I was desperate to feel his strength consume me.  I wanted him to devour me. I wanted to feel what it was like to be loved by him again even if it scared the shit out of me.

I leaned my body back up so I could look down at him. He grabbed my hips to help me move against him.  I ran my hands over my breasts, squeezing them while he watched my desire for him growing. I was dripping for this gorgeous gray-eyed boy.

He leaned up and lifted my shirt over my head, exposing my skin to him.  His mouth went straight to my nipple and he began sucking and nipping at it until it was swollen between his lips. 

"I think the other one is jealous." He said, moving to the other side. 

"Just a little." I smiled, wanting him to even it out. Every nip and lick he made against my skin went straight down my body until I was ready to combust on top of him.  My mind couldn't even handle the dirty things I wanted to try with him.  I was ready for him to take complete control of me. 

"You are still on birth control, right?" He whispered between nips.

"Yes, why?" I asked.

"Because I am going to come inside you tonight."

"Do you promise?"  I asked playfully.

His eyes went as dark as night as they locked onto mine.  I bit my lip and looked down innocently to the spot where he was straining against his boxers.

"Damnit, Jessa, just take off your shorts and put it in before I do." He commanded, unable to control himself any longer.

I raised up from him and took off my shorts as he wiggled his boxers down off his hips.  It was a mad dash to see who could get naked first.

I won, of course. Getting naked quickly was one of my many talents.

I smiled when I saw the third tattoo as he removed the fabric covering it. It was a gorgeously inked black guitar fretboard. There was something that resembled lettering positioned perfectly on the lower part of his hip just below it. The black swirls were so intricate that it took me a second to register what they even were.  It looked like they were hidden just enough to keep them a secret.

Holy fucking shit.

Was that a JM? Did this insane boy get my initials tattooed on his body?  It had to be a coincidence.  He was too intelligent to do something like that. I was the dumbass in our weird relationship. He wasn't allowed to let me give up the title that easily.

My eyes were wide as I stared down at it and the very intimidating accessory next to it that was standing straight up for me. I didn't know which one had knocked the breath out of me more.

"What's wrong?" He asked when I shook my head.

"Did it grow?"  I asked, pointing at his hard dick. I wanted to ask about the tattoo, but I didn't want to ruin the moment. "How the hell am I supposed to get it in? Did I really fuck that thing before?"

"You are ridiculous. Will you just sit on it?"  He laughed and laid his head back on the pillow.

"I'll try, but I might need a step ladder to get to it." I crinkled my nose. 

"Jess, you really do know how to stroke my ego." He laughed.

"Hopefully, I remember how to stroke something else."  I bit my lip, pondering my strategy. I was actually really nervous about having sex with him again. What if I didn't remember how to make him happy?

I had to practically stand to even get the tip near enough.  I pushed the smooth, beautiful head in a little and moaned as I slid down a bit further.  It had been almost fifteen months since I had anyone inside me.  I felt like I was a fucking virgin again as I tried to slide down him. In a way, I was glad Cam wasn't the first guy I slept with. I'm not sure I would have been able to walk after having him inside me. 

"Jess, shit." He leaned his head back against the pillow and sighed with relief when he felt me around him.

"Oh," I winced as I took more of him in.

"You ok?" He asked, looking up at me, concerned.

"It's just been a while. I just need a second."  I said, moving slowly over him. 

"Take your time Jess. This is all about you tonight, darling."

I still was only taking about a third of him in after a few minutes. I was growing bolder as I began to relax, ready to try for more.

I smiled deviously as I looked down at him. 

"Cami, will you help me?"  I whimpered and stuck my lip out to pout .

"Anything Jess."

I leaned down over top of him and ran my tongue up his chest until I had my lips just below his ear. He shivered waiting for me to make my next move.

"Make me take it all," I moaned.

Cameron grabbed my hips in his hands.  I looked down into his gray eyes and placed my hands on his chest as he pushed me down over him until he was completely buried inside of me. 

I took a few more seconds to readjust and relax around him.  The pressure of the fullness burned in a good way. 

I could remember how to do this. It was like riding a bike, right?

"Move, darling." He instructed as he twitched inside of me. 

He began helping me by slowly rocking in and out underneath me.  He was twisting his hips like the filthy boy he was and made sure I felt every inch of him inside me. 

"Fuck Cameron," I screamed when he hit my spot. He knew he found it too because he kept sliding against it slowly as he teased me. I raked my nails across his chest as I dug in deeper, wanting more. It was insane to think I was going to finish this quickly on him.  I had always been a very sexual person and holding that part of myself in for such a long time didn't help.

"Aww, look at you, working for it. Do you need it Jess?" He teased.

I whined and shook my head yes.

"I think you need to work a little bit harder. You haven't earned it yet." He smacked my ass and taunted me. I loved his little playful dirty talk. 

I gave him a tiny smile. Challenge accepted. I may be a little rusty, but he didn't even have a clue about the things I could do to him. He barely had scratched the surface of how I could make his toes curl in the most wicked ways. I clenched my muscles to grip him tighter. I readjusted my position off my knees to my feet so I could bounce up and down on his dick like a porn star as I gripped him. 

"Jessa..." He moaned as I moved up and down his whole length clenching him as tight as I could.

I was going to fuck the shit out of this boy like the dirty girl I was.

"Come in me, Cami." I begged for it when I saw his stomach muscles tensing. He dug his fingertips into my ass and squeezed as hard as he could.  This was going to be quick tonight. We both needed this more than either one of us knew. 

"Jessa."  He panted when he shot himself inside me.   I melted instantly as every cell in my body came alive.  My orgasm was right behind, chasing his. I reached down to grab his hair to make him look at me as I ground as hard as I could into him. I tightened around him and I swear I could feel him in my stomach as my body lost control.    

I collapsed down against his chest as he twitched inside me.  He was still half-hard and every movement caused little electrical shocks to pulse through my already sensitive areas.

I could feel the warm liquid seeping out between my legs.  Cam must have been holding it in for a long time.  He filled me so full, there was nowhere left for it to go. It was starting to run down my thighs. I know he had to feel it too.

"You don't even know how much I have missed you." He whispered, running his hands up and down my spine.  I buried my head in the crook of his neck and he rested his chin on top of my head.

"I missed you too," I admitted.

"Does this mean what I think it means?"  He asked, looking down at me.  He looked slightly hesitant to even ask the question.  It was adorably sexy to watch him be so unsure.  From years of knowing me, he knew how oddly my brain behaved. He was trying not to get his hopes up, knowing I could flip flop without giving him any warning.

"Yes, I forgive you.  At least right now until you do something else to piss me off." I smiled and snuggled into him deeper.

"So I have exactly thirty seconds then.  I'll take it." He celebrated. His chest shook with his laughter and I was in heaven when I felt the deep rumbles inside my body.

"Twenty-nine, twenty-eight, twenty-seven..." I began counting down. 

He lifted my chin up and pressed his lips against mine. 

He always knew the best ways to shut me up.