"You hear that, Jessa. That's music, Sweetheart." Nathan moaned as I rocked my hips up and down over him. I wished he would shut his damn mouth so I could pretend I was riding anyone else but him.  It's not like I wasn't attracted to him, but he was a complete dick. 

Nathan was gorgeous, every inch of his chest and arms were covered in tattoos and his hair was a perfect shade of blue/black.  He had large, broad muscles and loved showing them off to everyone. He was always shirtless when he was working in the studio. My favorite thing about him were the nipple rings that I got to play with every time I had him inside me. I loved to run my tongue against them and watch him shiver. 

The loud music swirled up around us and I moved my body up and down over him to the rhythm.  He sat back and watched the band playing through the glass of the small recording studio. 

"Jessa, this is epic. Are you even listening?" He complained when I disagreed with him.  I was too busy trying to make myself come to pay him any attention.  I had drunk way too much and popped a handful of Xanax as soon as I got here.  I was having a hard time bringing myself over the edge.  It wasn't like Nathan was going to do anything to help me.  He was just going to lay back like always. The only time he ever helped me was when he wanted to show me off to his friends.

The door opened and Keith, the sound engineer, walked in.  He walked over and leaned against the soundboard.

"Hey Man." Nathan raised his hand, waving at him. "These guys are awesome."

"Yeah, I wanted to tweak a few of the settings. They sounded a bit pitchy on the vocals. I think I can cover it if I layer the guitar in right." Keith said, fiddling with some of the knobs on the board.

I gave up and stopped my motion. I started to climb off of Nate. 

"I think she got bored." Keith said, watching me pull Nathan out.

"Where do you think you are going? You're not done yet." Nathan grabbed my arm and spun me back around.  He pulled me back on top of him, this time so I was facing away from him staring directly at Keith.  He took himself in his hands and slid back into me. 

"Nathan." I mumbled, frozen in place, not completely sure what to do. He reached up and unclasped my bra and pulled it off my shoulders. 

"That's better." Nathan laughed. "Now everyone can see you. Get to work."

I could feel him pulsating inside of me, ready to go.

"Go ahead, Jess. Keep going." Keith licked his lips as he stared at my exposed skin.

"Throw me a guitar cable." Nathan yelled to Keith.

Keith reached back and grabbed one off the shelf. He walked over and handed it to Nathan. His other hand ran along my breast as he squeezed and twisted my nipple. He patted my head when I looked up at him and winked at me.

"Hands behind your back Jess." Nathan grabbed my wrists when I didn't move fast enough for his liking.  He corded the cable around my wrists tightly.  I fought against the cable as he began moving up and down inside me.

"Jess, you have some new fans." Keith chuckled.   When I looked up, the three guys in the studio who were recording had moved to the window to watch. Keith switched the intercom on. "Say hi to the boys, Jess."

"Mmm..." I moaned, moving my hips up and down, taking Nathan in deeper and deeper.  I was a performer and I craved the attention they were giving me. I wanted to be unforgettable.  I desired nothing and everything at the same time. I was euphoric in my drug haze. I didn't even care that Keith was walking towards me, stroking himself over his jeans.  He could pull his dick out now and I would swallow it greedily.  I was floating on pillows through the sky. I was a fucking goddess on Mt. Olympus. I was their superior. They worshipped me.

"You are too quiet, Jess. Give them something to remember you by."  Keith walked over and grabbed my hair. He was stroking himself over his pants next to my face. 

"You want me to come?" I asked in a breathy moan.

"Do it." One of the guys hollered through the intercom.

"Are you sure you really want me to?" I moaned between heavy breaths.  I opened my mouth, panting harder the closer I was. 

"You're such a tease, Jess." Nate growled behind me. He wrapped his meaty hand around my neck and squeezed. He was seconds away from finishing too.  He always liked to choke me when he came. 

"Fuck me." I screamed when my body ignited on top of him.  He pushed into me deep and swore my name as he filled the condom inside me.  I collapsed back onto Nathan's chest, trying to catch my breath.

I looked up and laughed at my cheering section in the other room.  They were high fiving and chanting my name loudly through the speaker. My stomach dropped when I realized what I just did.  Why did I do these things?  Why couldn't I ever stop them? All good questions, but none of them mattered.  It was my moment to shine.

"My turn." Keith laughed.

"You ready for more, sweetheart?"  Nathan whispered in my ear.

"Yeah, ok." I slurred back to Nathan.  My brain was a jumbled mess.  I was free-falling.  If I closed my eyes again, the dark side of my brain would take me over. I had to keep them open.  I had to stay away from the shadows. I was a light bulb shining way too brightly and the switch was threatening to cut off the source of my power.

"Take these. You need more." Nathan reached around me and opened his hand.  He held out four white pills to me.  He took two and placed them in my mouth.  I was so good at this now. I didn't even need water to swallow them. 

"More?"  He asked, smiling.  I shook my head excitedly while staring down at them.  Two more wouldn't hurt me.  It was a party and we were celebrating.  He placed the two pills in his mouth and grabbed my face to turn it close to his.  He opened his mouth and I stuck my tongue in, desperately searching for them.  I was panicking with need. I had to have them to be better before I was swallowed down again.

Relief flooded through me when he finally pushed them into my mouth. He squeezed my cheeks and shook my head back and forth.

"Now hurry up with her. I need her recording again to make me some money."  Nathan pushed me off his lap and I fell to the floor.  I couldn't turn myself since my hands were still tied behind me.

Keith unzipped his pants and dropped them to the floor.  He got on his knees and pulled me to mine and then pressed my head into the concrete floor. 

"Are you going to untie me?" I groaned.

"Nope." Keith said as he pushed himself inside of me. 

I turned my head and watched Nathan sucking on a joint while he watched Keith tear into me from behind.  Every movement he made pounded my head further into the ground. There was dust on the floor under the couch.  I wondered if I should let Nate know he needed to sweep.

Please let the pills kick in soon. 

"I love it when you are fucking crazy, Jessa." Nate leaned forward to place his elbows on his knees.  "You're so much more fun."

Keith moaned and finished quickly, to my relief.

"Who's next?" Nathan called out while staring directly into my eyes.  

"Nathan, can I take a little break?" I asked. 

"Come on, Jess, it's a party.  Show my friends a good time or I'll find someone else who will. Maybe she will want your recording contract too." 

Asshole. I needed that contract and he knew it.

"Fine, let's go." I said, smiling back at him sarcastically.

"You're a legend, Jessa Miller."  He leaned back and placed his arms behind his head. He was smiling down at me as the door opened.