"I'm leaving." The word spirals through her head all of those words she said to him, "Lucas I am going on a work trip, they need my help."

She lied to him, but instead she needed to he destroyed her life, he used another woman so that she could leave her house, all of this is fucked up.

Could she go back though? She doesn't fuction well when she is either under stress, she sighs and sits in one of the glass green chairs displayed on the end of the bed facing towards the tellie mounted onto the wall.

Kaya looks around, taps with her shoes on the dark oak wooden floor. Looks over her shoulder at the suitcase lying on the bed when she arrived a few minutes ago. She could feel her heartbeat in her chest begging to come out.

She sits back in the comfortable chair that isn't worth nine hundred euros for three nights and closes her eyes and reminds herself over the wonders she had over the fifteen years they've been married.

"I Kaya Margaret Higgins take you Lucas Friend to be my husband..." Kaya says to her new husband. Memories goes through her head the way she announced to him she was pregnant, how she got a huge promotion and how she needed help during a troubling time.

She feels the tears prickling her eyes again, trying to stay in control and not going to accept that sobbing and pity will win her over, she won't turn into someone who could be won over easily.

Pity and sorrow won't help with the fact that she would come closer to who the woman her husband is sleeping with. Only things she knows she pushed her only best friend away by telling the truth, or is that what she thought?

Kaya opens her eyes and sighs, taking in rich air of the hotel room, and jumps out of the chair. She locks her eyes at the door out of the hotel room, she storms towards it but rather stops when she helds the door knob in her hand.

The sensation of the cold makes Kaya nauseous, sick in the stomach, she leaves the handle and runs towards the bathroom and throws up the last thing she ate, was it a sign that she needs to confront him and do something about it or was it just her anxious behaviour getting the best of her.

She cant just hide in the hotel for several days but she isn't hiding, or is she? Again multiple rumours fills her head making her more sick, she swallows and stands up from the floor. Walks back to the chair and just sits.

While she sits she thinks to herself, what if she just leave town forever no she can't because she needs to look after Alex.

She cant cope, she needs to focus but she can't. She needs to find a way to either get that envelope or to find a way to who it is.

She sighs and puts her hands in her palms and thinks, just her and the silent room that makes her hear her own thoughts.

Kaya then remembered something in her past that made her suspicious in the first place, three years ago before the actual scandal broke out.

"You think you know so much Kaya, you cant just assume I am with someone else." Lucas exclaims

"Then why are you at work until seven or eight, I do every fucking things in this house, I cook looking after Alex and what do you do come in this house and try to seduce me until I accept to be your once in a lifetime TLC whore."

"It isn't like that Kaya I pay the bills, make sure we have food and I pay most of Alex's medical bills and medicine."

"Fine I will give credit to the medicine and stuff but not the bills, food or other stuff you said."

"Oh my, what the fuck do you want from me Kaya I already told you why I was late this one time."

"Why where you late yesterday, the night before and the other night... oh wait why are you late every fucking night? Are you fucking someone Lucas because if you do I will take you to court this instant and you will recieve the next morning a divorce paper on your bed and I will make sure I destroyed you, your reputation, I will make sure you will never find a good enough job again to take care of you and your precious whore. I will take the house to myself and Alexander making sure you wont step a foot near us, you will suffer without food, shelter and everything I worked for over the past few years. And I will make sure you will die suffering only knowing the name you've taken at our wedding, I. ALWAYS. WIN Lucas no matter the price I need to pay." Kaya threatened him, it was the first she saw true fear in his eyes she adds, "Do you understand?"

Lucas tries to fool Kaya by looking tough but Kaya knew that he was trying to fool her, he denies looking her in the eyes, "DO. YOU. UNDERSTAND. LUCAS HIGGINS?"

Lucas stutters, "I do."

"Good now we are going to enjoy this night and make sure we do not know anything that happened tonight."

Kaya didn't know what happened to her now was it only at that time when Alex was still a tiny baby boy, or was it that her anxious behaviour took over and made her weak, diligent like a golden tiara.

Well the only thing she knows as far is that she was weak and each second that pass she grows weaker until she has nothing left in her system. She only used her strong side when she scolded on Karina later that day.

She takes a minute and found herself again, she takes out the pin out of her hair that kept the bun in it's original shape, her loose hair falls on her shoulders, it feels like she is free forever but she doesn't want that she wants the life she made for herself, a mother with a loving husband living in a huge house that looks out towards the ocean.

She stands up from the chair and decides to take a lovely warm shower, she walks in the bathroom and closes the door, strips all her clothing off and turns the water on.

The warm water falling on her naked body and dripping on the tiled floor flowing back into the drain. She doesn't feel anxious anymore her heart was now steady as if he left her body.

She takes multiple inhales and exhales, it is very relaxing hearing the water falling on her body and down onto the floor. She walks back making sure the water hits her head and making her hair wet.

With closed eyes she could feel how Lucas's hands touch her thighs and naked stomach. She sighs desperately and lets it out, the tears sneaks out of her eyes blending in with water dripping off her face. And dropping away into no existence.

After a while she climbs out of the shower wrapped herself with a towel and walks towards her suitcase and of course she was in such a rush she forgot to pack something comfortable to wear. She walks over to the wardrobe and opens it knowing the Athena Glass hotel came with free white robes.

Pulls it on and decides to pack her things into the wardrobe. Grabs the suitcase from the other side of the bed and pulls it towards her, takes the pair of clothes she grabbed and placed it back into the wardrobe, she places the suitcase back into the closet and closes the door.

She wanted to leave the hotel room for some fresh air but she decided not to go as it could be safer for her not being spotted. While she walks back to her bed she thought to herself why not just come clean.

Why not tell Lucas about her mysterious disappearance until she knows what he will do to her, yes Lucas wouldn't be very mean to Kaya but one thing she promised is that she wont lie to him and the last time she lied to him, he went off on her, and not in a good way.

She swallows and thought of a plan that could have a good possibility of working but that means she has to take the responsibilities coming her way either it could be bad or good, it is up to karma to choose for her.

She grabs her phone and immediately opens up Pinterest and starts to search for clothing and other stuff. This is a direction she didn't really want to go but what ever it takes to win her husband back.

She will do anything even if it means to kill but that will never happen Kaya knows she can't stand the look of blood and anything else, the last she had to deal with blood was over a nose bleed but that was years ago.

It is just gross like a type of phobia to her, while she looks through Pinterest for a few ideas she found something that could help her, saved the pictures and smirked.

After a few minutes she leaves her phone on the nightstand and walks over towards the bathroom, grabs her bathroom supplies and takes out a makeup pallet and more stuff she could use for her so called usefull plan.

As she looks at herself in the mirror she noticed what a mess she is, it horrified her she never looked like that in forever, she always needed to look perfect no matter the situation it could even be a team meeting and she needed to look perfect.

She swallows the fear, she cant look at herself, why does she look like this? She thought to herself she looks at the makeup pallet and all the beauty stuff you need to patch up any bruses, scars but that wasn't her problem.

She starts to put on makeup and everything she needs to look perfect, licks her dry lips and back to the usual work on her face continues.

While Kaya looks in the mirror she thought, "I am done playing the weak link, I do not need someone you drags myself down. Kaya Higgins is gone welcome to the world Margaret Higgins the world will see for who you really are. Lucas will regret everything."

She sighs when she was done with her makeup the mask that hides everyones true beauty, the scars you've earned from your past, Kaya smiles at herself and thought that she has finally outdone herself. If she goes down in history Lucas will go down with her.

She leaves the bathroom and sits on the bed next to the nightstand, she looks at her phone the screen black and silent, takes a big inhale and takes her phone the coldness flows through her body, she opens a website with multiple clothing choices and thought, "Kaya Higgins you are a genuine genius."