Julie's POV

"So am I getting everything black, leather and cropped today?" I asked Cameron as she continued to run about the shop throwing items at me

"I mean, you do have a cool look to you.. but this will make you look even cooler" She stuck her tongue out going over to the shoe section grabbing anything her hands could get on

"I'm not trying on sh*t! Let me just buy these" I said taking the countless amount of shoes in her hands along with the pile of clothes and walked over to the register paying for the items

"Will that be all for today?" The teller asked

"No wait!" Camey said rushing over with neck chokers

"Really Cam? Neck chokers?" I raised my eyebrow as she put the black hippy tribal gypsy print chokers onto the counter

"They're cool!" She shrugged

"Whatever" The woman went on to scanning the never ending pile of clothes, giving us questioning looks as the price went up with each scan

"That'll be £2679.97" I snapped my head at Camey as she giggled away seeing my reaction

"Being cool doesn't come cheap Julie!" She laughed, I huffed pulling out my card and paying for the items without a second thought

"I think that's enough shopping for one day" I said as we held the overflowing bags walking back to the car

"What else do you want to do?" I asked as we put the shopping bags into the boot of her car

"I was thinking we could go to the hair salon" She said playing with the ends of my long hair

"What, does my hair not fit up to your standards anymore?" I asked folding my arms across my chest as she continued to twirl the ends between her fingers

"I think it would be really hot if you cut it" She smirked

"No way! Mam would kill me!" I said remembering once Mam telling me how much she loved my long hair and would get upset if I ever chopped it off.

"On second thought, lets go to that salon" I smiled mischievously as an idea came to mind

"Should I be worried?" She chuckled starting the car, firing it up with a loud roar

"Just drive" I said making her speed down the streets of London, driving us both to the most luxurious salon she could find. Because at the end of the day, this was my hair we were dealing with.

Mam: Julie I know you're reading me texts! Answer! x

I rolled my eyes putting my phone back in my pocket

"This salon is the go to! It's always crawling with celebrities" Cam said putting the car into park in front of a salon called 'Stuart Phillips'

"He better not fck up my hair!" I said as we made our way into the salon

"He won't! He's one of the best" She said walking over to the receptionist, she took us straight into the overly fancy salon. Lavished with white and crystal chandeliers, beautiful black hardwood flooring; even if he fcks up my hair - this salon was beautiful.

"Hello love! Have a seat" He said helping me onto the white leather salon chair

"So, what you in the mood to do with all this beautiful hair?" He asked talking to me through the mirror as he ran his fingers through my long wavy hair

"Cut it. All of it." I said making his eyes go wide

"All of it?" He asked, making sure he heard correctly

"All of it, I want it to stop at my shoulders; and I also want a deep turquoise ombré put into it" I said making him smile clapping his hands excitedly

"Ooo this is going to be a fun project!" He squealed walking away to get the correct dye

"Look atchu living on the edge" Cam said giving me a punch on my shoulder

"Just trying to live up to your expectations" I said smiling weakly gulping nervously, I was sh*tting myself. I was going to fck up my hair and I knew it.

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Julie's POV

"Your hair looks fcking sick! You're going to have me turn this car around and get it done myself!" She said taking a quick look at me as I looked nervously in the vanity mirror playing with it; still trying to adjust with the sudden change

"You sure it's nice?" I asked insecurely, I went from long brown hair to short shoulder length with a turquoise ombré on the ends

"Nice? It's fcking dope!" She commended me, speeding through the streets. Her driving always reminded me of Mam's, maybe that's why I always enjoyed her driving instead. She was a crazy driver, zooming past cars - just like Mam. I didn't want to bring my mood down right now, and I was trying my best to get the image of Libby crying her heart out in front of me as I coldly walked away with out a second glance

"Don't forget! I'm picking you up for that party tonight" Camey said bringing me out of my thoughts, I hadn't even realized we were parked in front of Jason's house

"Oh yeah for sure! But don't park the car here.. Park it a few streets down" I said knowing Jason would snap if he knew I was going out in the middle of the night

"You got it" She said

"Open you trunk so I can get the crap you made me buy" I said making her laugh

"Made you buy?! Go fck yourself" She said shoving me out of the car, I rolled my eyes grabbing the never ending shopping bags and walking straight into the house

"Julie! Get in here!" Jason called from the kitchen, I felt my heart rate pickup anticipating his reaction on my new look. I quickly ran into my room throwing my shopping bags in and going straight to the kitchen

"What the fck?" He said looking at me with a disgusted look on his face as he looked at me closely

"What the hell did you do to yourself!" He asked raising his voice. Before I had some snotty remark he spoke up

"You know what I don't even want to know! Next time you fcking decide to skip class don't have them call me!" And with that he walked out of the kitchen. Was that it? Was that him telling me off? God I missed Mam.

Mam: Jules, baby please answer your phone x

She wasn't going to quit and I wasn't going to give in. I sighed going over to the fridge to grab anything that would fulfill my hunger. I had homework to do, although I skipped my classes I still had some of my classmates fill me in, I wasn't going to ruin my future. School was and always will be my number one priority no matter how much I'm changing everyday, appearance, and attitude. School will always come first. Because at the end of the day, I will always want to make Mam proud of me.

I pulled out my school bag as I took a seat on the white desk available in my modern bedroom. It was simple, white and black. I missed my old room, that was filled with color and always seemed to fill me up with joy; with just the memories that held in it alone.

"Hey mam?" I said before she got up

"Yeah?" she said giving me her full attention

"You know I love you right?" I said needing her to know

"Course. What's brought this on?" she asked placing a piece of hair behind my ear

"I just needed you to know that"

"I love you too bubba" she said her eyes glistening with unwashed tears. She came over to me and kissed my forehead

"Let us cuddle you until you fall asleep" she said getting into bed with me

"I'm so proud of the girl you have become" she said spooning me from behind

"You made me the girl I am today" I said slowly closing my eyes

I came back to reality wiping my tears away as my phone rang throughout my room. Mam. I didn't want to answer, because I knew the second I heard her voice I was going to breakdown - and right now I was falling apart. Deciding I needed something to take my mind off of everything I dived straight into my homework, attacking my math equations like my life depended on it. Before I knew it dark had casted itself letting the moon shine through my bedroom. I found myself staring at nothing as I sat in the darkened room, memories after memories flooding my brain

"I swear to you Julie if you throw that water balloon at us I will kill you with me bare hands! KIMBAAA!!!" Mam screamed as she ran away from me straight into Mum's arms. Mum was laughing hysterically as she laid out on the sun lounger taking in the sight of me threatening Mam with a cold water filled balloon

"Are you ever going to give me a wedge again?" I warned her, she had thought it was funny creeping up behind me and yanking my bikini bottom up as far as it could go

"N-No!" She said laughing out in fear, holding her arms and legs up to protect herself

"Say you're sorry!" I said flinching pretending to drop the water balloon getting a scream

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" she said straight away

"Good! This will teach you!" I laughed throwing the balloon at both Mum and Mam getting loud girly screams

I missed them. I missed them both, but I had to control myself from grabbing that phone and calling them. Because at the end of the day they didn't want me, they let me slip through their fingers with so much ease. I needed something to numb the pain starting with my parents and leading all the way to Libby. Everything has gone downhill and I needed to forget it all.

Me: Hurry your ass up! I'm getting dressed now!

I sent a text to Cameron as I got up and changed into the wardrobe I had purchased earlier. I decided on a pair of leather black trackie trousers and a cropped black vest top with the words Stay High written across my chest. I pulled on the black spiked hi-top converse putting the outfit all together with accessories filling up my arms and fingers. Looks like the choker was pretty cool looking after all. But I won't tell her that. I fluffed my hair out, giving it that messy look. Dark liner and shadow with a dark burgundy lip. New me.

Cameron: Down the street

It was a good thing my room was on the first floor, sneaking in and out was easy as pie. I ran down the street quickly afraid someone would see me; jumping into Cameron's car

"Fck!! Warn me next time!" Cameron gasped as I launched myself into the front seat slamming the door shut

"Look at you! Let me get a better look!" She said turning on the light and taking me in

"Fck you look awesome!" She praised me

"Thanks! Now come on let's fcking party!" I said clapping my hands in excitement

"No, don't do that. We walk in that party like we own the fcking place! Got it? Don't give anyone attention, let them die for you to even make eye contact with them" She said, I nodded as she continued to give me advice

"So pretty much it's our party not Kendra's?" I asked as we drove down the empty streets

"Yeah exactly" She said speeding faster than ever. I took in every word she said, she always seemed cool. Everyone was always dying for her attention

'Let them kiss the floor you're fcking walking on' Mam's words repeating in my head, I was frustrated because she seemed to sneak into my mind when I least expected it.

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Julie's POV

The music was thumping, the drinks were flowing and the drugs were being passed down like candy

"Here have some" Cameron said passing me a cannabis releasing smoke from her lips. I took it between my fingers inhaling a long puff letting the burning sensation settle in the back of my throat, staying high for awhile numbing the pain of everything. Letting my worries disappear with each release of smoke, disappearing into thin air

"I want another drink" I said shoving my empty cup into the hands of a girl I had yet to know her name

"O-okay what do you want?" She asked nervously

"Vodka and coke! Hurry up!" I said turning my attention back to Cameron, suddenly seeing double of her

"Have you ever made out with a lesbian Camey?" I purred sitting myself closer to her

"No, but I've always wanted to" She said blowing smoke into my face. I smirked taking the blunt from her, inhaling the last of it and putting it out into the ashtray

"Your drink" I heard the teenage girl say, without looking at her I kept my eyes locked with Cameys - taking a swig out of the strong drink setting it down and pulling Camey by the back of her neck latching her lips onto mine.

Our tongues attacking each other, fighting for dominance. Libby's face in my vision the entire time, trying to get myself to believe those were Libby's lips and tongue. Nothing was like Olivia's kiss, nothing was like her touch. But she would have to do for now, I stay high, I get drunk, I'm lonely. She's gone, everyones gone and I need to stay high to keep them off my mind.

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