Julie's POV

"Custody will be given to Mr. Mirno, the Tweedy-Walsh's will only be allowed to see Julie twice a week! Another hearing will be held in the next four months! Court dismissed" *Bang* *Bang* Is that it? Court dismissed? I sat there, silencing everyone around me; Libby shaking me trying to get a reaction out of me. I could see my parents holding each other as they cried, everything seemed to be going in slow motion; I could hear my heart beat pounding in my ear. My world had come crumbling down, I was losing myself with each second that passed.

"I'm fine" I said clearing my throat and releasing myself from Libby's tight hold.

"I'm fine" I repeated standing up, I could feel everyone's eyes on me as I walked over to Jason and his wife

"I just need to get my things" I said looking at him full square in the eye, it's like I was being possessed. I was completely emotionless in the moment, the one person that fought for me and won, was the one person I despised.

"Alright sport, we'll take you now" He said, I saw him reach out his arm to place on my shoulder; I quickly backed up

"Don't touch me" I said coldly, walking away and over to my parents

"Jason will be taking me to the house for my things" I said, they looked at me like I had grown three heads. Why were they surprised? I'm sure that's what they wanted all along, they wanted this so they could raise that baby without me in the picture. They could finally be a happy family.

"Ju-" Mam started but I was quick to cut her off

"I will be going with Jason to the house to pick up my things" I repeated, I looked at both of them for a few seconds. I was hurt, my heart had been replaced with a cold-black-hole

"Let's go" I said as Jason came into view, I noticed Libby stood by my parents. Were we taking sides now? I rolled my eyes and followed Jason out, ready to start my new life with them.

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Julie's POV

"Julie, just let us talk" Mam begged following me around my room as I threw items into my luggage

"You want to talk? Now you want to fcking talk? What do you want to talk about?! Too fcking late Cheryl Tweedy-Walsh!" I spat stunning her, she was taken back by my angry words. She silently stood there as I finished packing my things

"See you in what? Five days" I laughed, although nothing was remotely funny about the situation we currently were in

"Here" I handed Jason my bag as I walked out of the room and straight to the car ignoring Mum as she watched me walk out with a sad expression on her face. It was a silent car ride home, no one said a word as we drove to a place I would call home? Was it really home? I thought home was where ever Mam and Mum were. Sadly, not anymore.

"You can have the room on the first floor Sport" Jason said dragging my suitcase behind him as we walked through the front door

"I'm going to be making dinner-" I interrupted Beverly

"Let's not play happy families now, let's get one thing and one thing straight. I don't want to be here, I can't stand you both just as much as you can't stand me. I'm living here yes, but we don't interact, you don't fcking speak to me! I am completely invisible, because you don't exist in my world. Have I made myself clear?" I spat, it was a side to me I had just discovered. I was going to irrupt any second now.

"You're living under my house which means you will-" Jason spoke but I cut him off

"I said, I don't give a sh*t! You've made yourself clear! You've proved to Mam, you've rubbed it in her face, you've got me! I'm not going anywhere! Just stay out of my way!" He didn't fight, he agreed. I was right, I was right all along. I went and grabbed my suitcase and walked myself into my new room. Empty, white, nothing like my bedroom that was filled with laughter, filled with cuddles and love. This was empty, just like me.

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Julie's POV

It was the alarm that woke me the next morning. Not Mam whispering sweet words into my ear uplifting my mood each and every morning. I had locked myself in this room all day and night, I wasn't hungry, I wasn't in the mood to make eye contact with anyone. I was pissed, angry, hurt and upset. I was a mix of emotions, I didn't know what I was meant to be feeling right now.

To top everything off I had school, which meant I had to socialize with people. If I stay in bed any longer I'll be late for class, but who cares anyways. I groaned as I got up and forced myself to look presentable, deciding on a pair of ripped denim skinny jeans and a worn out jumper. My wardrobe was minor compared to the one I had back home. Home. It still made me shiver at the thought of my new life.

"No breakfast?" Jason asked, I ignored him completely walking straight out of the house and into my car. I surprised myself; I had yet to shed any tears, and breakdown. I was stronger than I thought I was. I pulled up into a McDonalds needing to force-feed myself, I didn't want to sicken myself no matter how sad and low I was feeling I still needed to take care of my body.

Mum wasn't around anymore telling me off for not eating my nutrients. 'I'll be fine' I kept repeating to myself; because in the end this is my life and I will do with it as I pleased. I ate as I drove to school; for just a split second I was more focused on the meal than my life - I didn't realize how hungry I was until I began to devour the three McMuffins downing them with an iced orange soda. Not the healthiest breakfast, but it'll do.

"Sup Jules!" Cameron said as I walked into school

"You should dress like this more often-" She said observing my outfit, I looked like sh*t

"Its better than all your other made up looks" She said throwing her arm around my shoulder

"Well, thanks maybe you could take me shopping so I could look homeless like you" I laughed for the first time, it was nice hanging out with Camey I always seemed to forget my troubles

"Cheeky sh*t!" She said giving me a playful shove

"Julie?" Libby said giving me a questioning look, as she looked me up and down seeing how exhausted my appearance was; my hair wasn't brushed but tied into a messy bun, last nights mascara smudged around my eyes giving it that smokey-party-girl look

"Hey Olivia" I said not even bothering to embrace her, I walked to my seat beside Cameron awaiting my teacher to make her appearance

"Jules.. Can I talk to you?" She asked coming over and standing by my seat. I sat back in my seat chewing my gum obnoxiously waiting for her to continue

"Well.. Go on I don't have all day" I said waving my hand in a rolling motion to get her to hurry up

"Why are you acting like this?" She asked making me sigh and roll my eyes at her

"Leave her alone Olivia!" Cameron said, I turned around nodding in agreement. I saw the flash of hurt cover Libby's face, I don't know why I was acting like this but I didn't want to speak to her or anyone for that matter apart from Camey at the moment. She walked back over to hear seat, looking close to tears; I shrugged it off not wanting it to affect me.

"We should ditch" Cameron said to me bringing me out of my thoughts

"Won't we get into trouble?" I asked pathetically making her snort out in laughter

"So?" She looked at me like I had gone crazy, she was testing me; testing if I was just all talk

"Let's go" I said following her out of class, I could feel Libby's eyes on me as Camey and I ran out of class

"Where we going?" I asked trying to keep up with her

"My spot!" She said holding her hand out, I instantly took it as she led us to the back of the school

"This is your spot? It's a fcking alley way Camey!" I chuckled watching as she lit her cigarette. Inhaling and exhaling the smoke out of her mouth and nostrils swirling into the autumn air

"Want some?" She asked holding the cigarette out in front of me

"No" I shook my head, the smell was vile

"Oh go on" She encouraged practically putting it into my fingers. I gave in, placing it between my index and middle finger slowly bringing it up to my mouth taking in the toxins. The burning sensation was to overwhelming for my fragile lungs making me cough

"That tastes like sh*t!" I said continuing to cough

"Go for another one! You'll like it" She said, I did as she wanted. My throat getting immune to the burning poison making it's way into my throat killing all the good cells replacing it with a tar smokey flavor

"Told you" She smirked lighting another one up for herself. We both leaned against the cold cemented walls letting the smoke take over our speech, standing in a comfortable silence, flicking the ashes, taking long draws letting my worries disappear

"We should go shopping.. Get you some clothes" She said taking a long look at me

"We sh-"

"JULIE! WHAT THE FCK ARE YOU DOING!?" A pissed looking Libby shouted as she charged at us, grabbing me by my wrist forcing the cigarette out of my hand

"Let me fcking go!" I snapped pulling hand out of her tight clasp

"I'm so fcking done with your behavior!" She hissed

"What!? What the fck are you going to do? Breakup with me! Go on! Break up with me!" I shouted shoving her

"Breakup with me!! You know what! It's over! It's fcking over!" I looked away from her as she began to breakdown in tears

"Come on Cameron! Let's go on that fcking shopping trip!" I said grabbing her hand and walking passed Libby as she cried out hysterically. My breathing grew heavier as I willed myself not to cry, because only cowards cry; and I'm not a coward.