Julie's POV

Of course everyone is giving attention to Sophie, why am I getting so worked up about it? She's an amazing little girl and deserves to be showered with love and attention. It just sucks being put back on the shelf like you didn't exist. I sigh as I text Libby, I'm missing her like crazy and wishing she was here to give me long cuddles, make all the bad feelings good.

Me: I'm really sad Lib, I don't know why it's bothering me so much :( x

I sighed as I took in the sight of uncle Adam along with aunt Amy and Sally running around Sophie in the back garden. You could hear Sophie's laugh throughout the entire garden and all into the house.

Libby: Baby, don't think too much into it! I don't like the thought of you being upset and me not being there. Just please! Be happy and ignore it for now, we'll talk more when you come home xx

I replied with a simple 'I love you, and speak to you soon' before plopping back into the wicker chair. I felt arms wrap around my neck from behind as Mums scent intoxicated my thoughts putting them to a full stop as her voice echoed through my ears

"Come on a little walk with me" She said giving me a kiss on my temple

"Aren't you tired?" I asked as she took my hand in hers leading us out of the gates and onto the pavemented neighborhood hand-in-hand

"No I'm fine sweetheart, what's on your mind?" She asked pulling me into her wrapping her arm around me as we walked side-by-side

"Why do you always assume something is wrong?" I mumbled against her chest as she pulled me tighter against her, it was obvious I had been upset; I could never hide it. I secluded myself throughout the visit at Mum's families house

"You've been really quiet, come one angel tell me what's up" she walked us over to a bench sitting herself down before pulling me onto her lap

"Nothing i-is wrong Mum" I hiccuped, it was too late the tears came unannounced. I was upset for many reasons, but I got even more upset for allowing my emotions get the best of me. I hid my face in the crook of her neck as I began to sob and hiccup

"It's okay, let it out" She soothed me, running the palm of her hand up and down my back saying comforting words as I tried to compose myself. It was no use, I gave up trying to hold back my tears; I let them all out in that moment. I tightened my wrapped arms around Mums neck burying my face further in, illuminating any source of light to be seen; breathing in-and-out deeply trying to tame down my sobs

"You okay?" Mum said minutes later running her hand under my shirt stroking my bareback. That always seemed to do the trick whenever I was upset, the second she began stroking my bare skin it vacated all the sobs in a second

"Better?" She said noticing my calmer body language

"Mhmm" I hummed, I didn't know how my voice would react if I were to string out a sentence

"Talk to me" She said placing a kiss in my hair

"You're going to t-think I'm a little kid" I said taking in a deep breath as my hiccups seemed to lesson with each intake of oxygen

"You'll always be my little baby, I'd feel a lot better if you talked to me. I can see something is bothering you" She spoke gently to me, it was as if she was scared to raise her voice. Maybe I'd breakdown again, she was always so understanding with everything

"I feel like I've been put back up on the shelf, nobody loves me anymore.. No Mum please let me just finish before you tell me how that's not true and you guys do love me-" She sighed letting me finish what I needed to say

"-What's going to happen when the baby comes? I'm already old news as it is.. Don't get me wrong I love Sophie and I love seeing her happy, it just feels like I've been put aside for something better" I sniffed, my chin trembling ready for another flow of tears

"C'mere" She said as I tried to get off and walk away

"Stop running away from everything! Come with me" She said taking my hand and leading us back to Nana Diane's house. We walked straight in tears still evident in my bloodshot eyes as Mum dragged me in getting everyone's attention Mam standing up straight away but getting a wave of the hand from Mum telling her to stay there as she pulled me up the stairs and into a bedroom

"Sit there" She directed me to the bed as she rummaged through the bookshelves, I took a good look around. Posters of musicals were plastered around, books, a guitar and lots of teddy bears scattered about

"Was this your room?" I sniffed, letting my eyes wander

"Mhmm" She said still going through the shelves of books

"What you looking for?" I asked

"You'll see in a.. Ah-ha!" She cheered pulling out a dusty black scrapbook, she blew off the dust coming over and sitting beside me folding one leg under her; pulling me onto her lap

"What is this supposed to prove?" I asked as she rested her chin on my shoulder as my back rested against her front

"You know, I'm the second oldest.. I know how you feel sweetheart. I promise I'd never treat you any different" She said opening the first page showing me her timeline of life

"Is that you?" I whispered tracing my finger along the vintage photo

"Mhmm, take a look" She wrapped her arms around my waist giving me the freedom to flip through the book myself. The book proved one of many things, one never get a fringe haircut and second; brothers and sisters will be there for you, make memories with you, make you laugh, make you feel loved. It showed importance of what a sister or brother can do for you. Build a relationship with them, love them, family will always be there.

"I get it" I smiled turning my head a bit to look at her as she gave me a kiss on my cheek

"I just want you to know that it's okay to feel the way you do. I did for a long time, but then I realized that my brother and sisters loved me and I shouldn't have been feeling that way; my parents were going to love me regardless" she reassured me

"Do you still love me?" I asked smiling widely already knowing the answer

"I never stopped loving you sweetheart" she said squeezing me to death

"Mum.. can't.. breathe" I said making her laugh

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Julie's POV

I was permanently glued to Mums side, I don't know what it was. I couldn't come to find myself cuddling up beside Mam, she was obviously still busy drowning Sophie with kisses and hugs. I'm not upset anymore, I see Sophie's happy and thats all I've ever wanted really. Seeing that smile radiating across her face, lighting up the entire room with her giggles. That's all that mattered, I kept repeating that to myself.

"Come on, dinners ready!" Nana announced the the family making everyone jump up off their seat and run into the dining room like they haven't been fed for days. I guess I had been a little two slow, Sophie was placed between Mam and Mum on the dinner table, leaving me to sit in a cornered seat next to aunt Amy.. Great.

"Julie, get off your phone that's rude" Mam said as I had my head resting in the palm of my hands whilst the other was occupied with my iPhone

"It's rude" I mimicked her under my breath

"What was that?" Mam said shooting me a look

"Aunt Amy can you please put me some salad" I said totally ignoring Mam and handing my plate over to Aunt Amy

"Jules you can just call me Amy" She laughed lightly

"Thank you Amy" I winked at her as she gave me back my plate

"So a little birdy told me you have a girlfriend" Nana said making me choke on my soda

"Does this birdy have blonde hair and green eyes?" I said glaring at Mum as she giggled

"But yes I do have a girlfriend, her name is Olivia" I said proudly

"Glad to see she's putting a smile on your face Angel" Nana said, I now see where mums calm, loving aura comes from.

"Yeah they are always kissing!" Sophie said making the entire table erupt with laughter my face instantly going a darker shade of red

"Stop teasing her Soph" Mam said as she tried to hide the fact she had been giggling in her hands. I just rolled my eyes and focused on the half empty plate in front of me

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Julie's POV

We sat around the front room enjoying each other's company. Aunt Sally began to reenact some of her favorite musicals making me giggle uncontrollably at how serious she was being, taking every scene to the fullest

"Kim! Show Julie how to do the Charleston!" Amy said excitedly pulling me off my seat along with Mum

"I haven't done it in awhile Amy!" Mum cackled as Amy blared 1920's beats filling the front room. Mum rolled her eyes and stepped back to show me the dance move

"You've got to double tap your foot and push it in and out" She said as she did the dance move quickly in front of me, I was fascinated completely engrossed in the dance move. Double tap, kick out and in

"You got it?" Mum said bringing me out of my concentration

"Yeah" I said smiling widely as she put her left hand on my shoulder and placed my hand on her waist clasping the other two up in the air as we began to dance about the front room getting everyone to cheer us on

"You're good!" Mum giggled as we continued to go around in circles dancing away to the beat

"My turn! My turn!" Sophie said hopping off Mam's lap; clapping her hands wanting some attention from Mum

"I'll teach you some other dances later" Mum whispered in my ear seeing I had suddenly got upset, I simply smiled and went back to take my seat this time Mam pulled me onto her lap as we watched Mum teach Sophie some easy dance moves

"I want to have a little chat with you later" Mam said into my ear, I had a fair idea of what she wanted to talk about. 'Your attitude is becoming too much' I could already hear her saying it.

"Sure" I replied bluntly keeping my focus on Mum, watching her sway about, spinning Sophie around

"Come with us" She said pulling me off her lap taking my hand in hers and practically running out the front door and onto the quiet streets of the chilly night