Oh wait, what to do, feels like I'm caught up in a ruse

Is this a plan to fall apart by my own hands?

Oh, please don't say that I'm loved, fit in like a glove

Cuz I'll believe in the words I've dreamed of hearing since a kid

Oh, why every time a situation feels so right, I'm blind

Can't see through the fight or flight?

All I'm trying to do is try

To ignore my body's fear and cries

A pesky defense diverts the eyes

Away from the pain that sits so deep inside

To shut down the overlapping thoughts

And still these shaky, sweating palms

God it's so hard to stay calm

But they're my natural instincts

They're my natural instincts

Oh wait, I'm back at step one, we were just at three

That's what happens to me constantly, when do we learn these things?

I'll let you down and feel sorry for myself

A "never mind, I changed my mind" displayed like a loss on the shelf

Oh, please don't say I'm worth it cuz that'll be the perfect target

To fill my head with little hopeful hopeless nuggets

All I'm trying to do is try

To ignore my body's fear and cries

A pesky defense diverts the eyes

Away from the pain that sits so deep inside

To shut down the overlapping thoughts

And still these shaky, sweating palms

God it's so hard to stay calm

But they're my natural instincts

They're my natural instincts

And friend I know that I'm a paradox walking on legs

To the beat of a string, you know they don't sound the same

And love I know that I'm 99 percent of the blame

For this cycle that'll lead us burning up into flames

But if my instincts are my own then I'll cut you off before it's too late

All I'm trying to do is try

To ignore my body's fear and cries

A pesky defense diverts the eyes

Away from the pain that sits so deep inside

To shut down the overlapping thoughts

And still these shaky, sweating palms

God it's so hard to stay calm

Cuz they're my natural instincts

They're my natural instincts