He laid down soon enough so his chest was against mine and rested his head on my shoulder. He pulled the blanket over us. I chuckled at him and kissed his ear just before we started to fall asleep.

I woke up in surprise when hearing large bang that came from downstairs. I got up and creeped down. "Hello?" I said quietly. After a couple of seconds I said it once again but louder. "Sorry shadz" my head turned in the direction of the kitchen, I soon walked up to it and it appeared to be the blue hedgehog. "Oh it's you, when did you get here?" I asked. "Since last night, you let me stay." He smiled. I nodded but still confused. "What was that bang?" I ask. He moved to the side and picked up a pan, and said "I just dropped this accidentally" he explained.

"Oh" I said. He turned back and did what looked like preparing food, which I'm not complaining about. Soon he put two plates on the table and sat down "breakfast is ready." He smiled. I sat down at the plate he placed on my long wooden table. I began to eat. He can cook. That doesn't mean it's great. But he can cook at least. Finish eating "thank you" I said and got up and also took his empty plate. I put them in the sink. "Anytime" he smiled.

I started to fill up the sink with warm bubbly water, careful not to scold myself. "You need to take your medication too shadz" sonic said. I nodded. I heard sonic get up. I soon started to turn the tap off. I heard a lot of moving around behind me. I turned around and looked at him. He was rummaging through the cabinet that usually had my pills in. "Shad where are your pills?" I shrugged and turned back and started to clean the dishes. He started looking elsewhere for my pills. Soon I heard the movement stop.

The pill box slammed down on the counter beside me. I jumped away from that and ended up smashing the plate. "Why the hell was you pills in the bin?!" Sonic yelled at me. "I-I..." I stuttered in shock. "I don't remember" I said. He looked at me in frustration "ugh! Shadow why would you do this? You'll loose your memory for good faster and then you wont even remember... remember... me.." he said as he began to choke back tears. I tried to pull him into a hug but he forcefully pushed me away. He walked away from me and I sighed.

I began to clean up the broken plate that I accidentally smashed. I swept it up with a dust pan and brush. I then emptied the pan into the bin and put it away. I can't remember even throwing away my pills if I did. Why would I have done that in the first place? Why would I do that, I'm aware of what it would do to me... this is so damn frustrating.  I sighed softly and sat on a chair. I leaned against the table, with my elbow against it, my side pressing up against the wood and my hand supporting my head as I rubbed my temples.

Why am I still here?
Am I just a nuisance towards everyone?
Why can't I be the person people want me to be?
Am I worth it?

WHY DO I CAUSE PEOPLE PAIN AND DESTRUCTION?!

I try to erase these thoughts from my head but my mind wondered onto the topic of death. I don't think I've ever caught myself wondering into this certain topic, specifically about myself. But something about that thought wasn't right, I'm aware that I'm immortal but maybe there's a way I could go? Should I? What about the blue hedgehog? How would he feel?

Would he even.... care???

No....
Yes...
wait no he wouldn't, why would he? He doesn't have a reason to be upset if u went....
Would he?
Yes.... errrrr no... uh... no.

I don't think someone like him would care, besides, he could move on... the blue hedgehog was the most he could remember about a certain being, i knew he had been visiting him. I leaned to the side, which I ended up leaning up against the back of the chair... I'm so sorry.