IMMA TRY TO CHANGE MY WRITING STYLE CAUSE I DON'T LIKE IT.

Also, song fic, yay

Know that I loved you so bad.

"Please, just, don't go." Fuck, why won't my hands stop shaking.

I let you treat me like that. I was your willing accomplice, honey and I watched as you fled the scene. Doe-eyed as you buried me. One heart broke, four hands bloody.

"You know we're not good together Y/N." Those words pierced through my heart like a dagger. Why can't things just go back to normal?

Those things I did. Just so I could call you mine. The things you did. Well, I hope I was your favorite crime.

"That's n-not true! I love you! We can fix this." Why does it feel like the whole worlds coming down on me? I just can't, I can't lose him.

You used me as an alibi. I crossed my heart as you crossed the line. And I defended you to all my friends. And now, every time I siren sounds I wonder if you're around. 'Cause you know that I'd do it all again.

"Y/N, please don't make this any harder for me than it already is." 

"Harder for you?!"

All the things I did. Just so I could call you mine. The things you did. Well I hope I was your favorite crime.

"That's not what I meant."

"I'm begging you, Mingrui, please." The pain and overall dread I felt in my heart was almost to much to bare.

"I'm sorry Y/N." What did I do wrong? I know we're messy but I thought we could get though it.

It's bittersweet to think about the damage that we do. 'Cause I was going down, but I was doing it with you. Yeah everything we broke, and all the trouble that we made. But I say I hate you with a smile on my face.

"It's okay." I try my best to smile and wipe my tears away. Look strong in front of him Y/N okay? Hold it together.

Oh look what we became.

"Y/N..." He reached out his hand to touch my shoulder but at the moment he was the last person I wanted comforting me.

"Please, don't touch me. Just, just go, please." I need him away from me

All the things I did. Just so I could call you mine. All the things you did. Well, I hope I was your favorite crime.

Will he ever know how much he meant to me?

Your favorite crime.

I watched him slowly exit the door,  was if he didn't just tear my heart out of my chest and take it with him.

Your favorite crime.

He turned around just outside of the door and spoke.

"You'll always be my first love Y/N." I wanted to say so ething back to him but I just couldn't get myself to talk.

'Cause Baby, you were mine.

I mean at least I tried I guess