Maddie's POV
I was still at Sophie's place, I know she's being considerate but the constant questions about Alex was making me lose my mind at this point.

"Have you at least tried calling him?" She asked again.

Seriously this is like the fifth time she's asking me this, I should have gone over to Anna's place but judging to how things ended last time, I'm the last person she wants to see.

"Sophe I know you're just being my friend but can you please not? Thank you.'' I said in the most polite way possible.

"I know I'm being nosy but I just want to make sure you've done everything right." She added.

"And I hear you but please let's not, I did call him okay so please just please," I said almost sounding provoked.

"Alright then if you say so." She stood up heading towards to the kitchen.

I was all alone once again, I pick up my phone and still nothing from Alex, I toss my phone over to the other side of the room and groan out loud.

I know I'm just being paranoid but I think Sophe is already tired of me, she's been oddly quiet maybe I should just go.

"Hey Sophie I'm going to see what I can do okay?" I said loud enough so she can hear me but I didn't hear any reply.

I looked up and she wasn't there, neither was she in the kitchen. Oh well guess I was right she was avoiding me.

I took my car keys and went out straight to the car, I don't know where I was going to but rather the road than a place I clearly wasn't wanted.

I kept driving in circles until I finally stopped right by our place again, I checked for my phone to maybe call him and that's when it hits me.

I left it at Sophe's place wow just my luck, after taking a deep breath with my head on the steering wheel I took the key out of the car and open the door to my car, it's now or never.

I kept pacing back and forth at the entrance thinking about of what I could possibly say again, the last time I saw him ended badly so do I really want to this again?

I turn around one last time admitting defeat but something stopped me I ran back to open the door but I was beaten to it.

"Babe?" He lets out in a low tone, I haven't heard him say that in a very long time.

I didn't know what to say or do at this point, he wasn't smiling nor was he frowning he was just staring at me blankly like he was observing me to see what I was going to do next.

"I came to---," I started to form a sentence but I was short by his lips over mine.

What is going on?  Should I be scared right now?

"Alex stop," I push him off gently "can we at least talk?" I tried not to look directly into his eyes. I couldn't tell what was going on in his head and I know him and this could end up messy if it's not addressed.

"Can I come in?" I asked still quiet he moved and let me in.

Is this some kind of punishment, is this how it's going to be because I don't even know what to do.

He walked by to the living room and lean by the chair while I stood by the kitchen counter facing him.

I still couldn't read him and he still wasn't saying anything so I decided to speak up, I'm the one at fault here anyway.

"I know I've said this over and over again but I really I am sorry Alex. What I did was unforgivable and honestly I'm ashamed of myself." I tried to hold back my tears before continuing.  "I know I've been focusing on apologizing rather than owning up to it and that's what I'm going to do now, I just want to get this off my chest and I hope you at least forgive. I really do love you."

Well that's it, I'm officially done, even if he doesn't want anything to do with me I finally got it off my chest.

He looks up at me, I could see a little tear forming in his eyes, maybe he was disappointed or maybe he was hurt and honestly I would not blame him.

"Are you done?" He finally speaks up.

Did he seriously ask me if I'm done? I just poured my heart out right now and that's all he has to say.

The cockiness really. I am so done, I know it's all my fault but I won't stand here being disrespected like this.

"Really after everything this is what you're saying to me, am I just a toy to you? What was that even calling me babe then you kiss me and now you're icing me out, you're unbelievable." I grab my back from the counter to Storm out when he drags me by the hand.

His grip tight around me, it was like he wasn't ready to let me go. But I wasn't falling for it I actually need to hear words, I can't just keep reading his physical movement.

I tried to pull my hands but he wasn't letting go, I turn to face him and that's when it hits me, he as tears in his eyes but he was trying to get strong.

He pulls me closer to him and wrap his arms around me, I haven't felt his warmth for this long it felt so tender and soft. But something kept ringing in my head, is this a goodbye hug?

But I wasn't ready to let go, so instead of running the moment I kept quiet and stayed still, I needed this as much as he needed it too.

"I love you so much it hurts." He finally says. And this time it really was genuine.

Pulling away he looks at me like it was the last time.

"Alex?" I try to voice out but he puts his hands over mine to shush me.

I'm not ready to say goodbye, please don't do this to me.

"I might sound crazy right now Mads, you might think I'm crazy cause I don't even know what I want right now. And I might be dragging you down with me but I'm not ready to let you go." He finally said the words I've been waiting to hear.

"Are you saying what I'm thinking Alex?" I asked shocked.

"I won't deny I'm hurt, I really am--" I immediately cut him off.

"I know and I'm really sorry." I added.

"Yes I know, but I love you and honestly I'm glad you said something again. At least I know I'm not the only one fighting for this relationship." He paused. "I really want this to work but,"

Oh no, why is there a but

"Yes?"

"The wedding is still off, hear me out though. It's not because I don't still love you or I'm scared. I just feel we rushed into this and maybe we need to take things slow how does that sound?" He asked me.

He's asking me seriously, at this point all I really need is him I don't mind it.

"I can do slow babe." I smiled.

"I know I said it but how slow are we talking here cause I think I have a great idea on how to make up." He gave me a cheeky smile.

"You're as cocky as ever." I winked at him.

He pulls me closer grabbing me by the waist while I play with his hair before he plants a kiss on my lips.

"You've been a naughty girl you know that right?" He looks at me with a sinister look in his eyes.

"Well what are you going to do about it?" I said cheekily before pulling away from his embrace but he catches me by the waist.

"I'll show you." He carries me bridal style upstairs.

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