Y/N'S POV

I was shocked at Hoseok's words and he seemed to be just as shocked too.

"Only if you want to of course! If not I totally understand!" He says, his cheeks tinted pink.

I couldn't help but to laugh. I wasn't sure if it was how innocent Hoseok was or how nervous he seemed to get but something about it was just so...cute.

"I mean it's just for the rate right? Why not." I grin and Hoseok's eyes widen slightly as if he's shocked that I actually agreed.

He's silent for a moment before he finally speaks. "Are you sure you want to? You can tell me no I'll understand. I don't want to make things weird between us..."

I laugh at that. "It's just a kiss. Unless it means something more to you and if not, then it shouldn't make things weird. Besides, it's only weird if you make it weird." I say and Hoseok looks at me for a moment. He seemed to me lost in thought, as if thinking about something that really seemed to be impairing his judgment.

"Actually...I don't want to lie anymore so I just have to come clean. I don't know if I can kiss you without it meaning anything." Hoseok says, avoiding my eyes.

My brows furrowed in confusion at his words. "What do you mean?"

Hoseok let out a breath as he finally managed to look up at me.

"I know we're just friends and all and I definitely shouldn't be saying this but I just don't want to lie or be misleading. I understand if you're uncomfortable and need some time away from me but I just wanted to let you know, I think I might like you..."

I sat there wide eyed as I stared at Hoseok, his confession the last thing I had expected.

I wasn't even sure how to respond. My brain was jumbled and I was more then confused.

When I finally found the words to say, I instantly felt bad.

"I'm sorry Hoseok, I thought we were just friends. Of course I'm not upset with you, I understand it's not easy to control these things. I just think that as of right now we're just better off as friends..."

Hoseok's face fell at my words, complete disappointment taking over.

"I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to give you the wrong idea. I shouldn't have kissed you. I apologize." I say, feeling bad that he had taken it all the wrong way.

"No I'm sorry. I shouldn't have lied about the kiss situation and I shouldn't even have done it to begin with. I'll try to get over these feelings, I promise. I hope this doesn't ruin our friendship." He says and I can tell he means it.

I smile as I look over at him. "Of course not. I told you, you're stuck with me. The bestest friends till the end." I laugh.

Hoseok forces a smile and I can tell that probably didn't feel the greatest to hear. I guess I'd just have to give him some time.

For the rest of the time we hung out, I tried to forget this ever happened.

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HOSEOK'S POV

I messed up. I shouldn't have told y/n how I felt but I didn't want to keep lying.

I had lied enough and I didn't want to kiss her again knowing it would just be another lie.

As shitty as it felt, I got rejected and I needed to move on and let it go.

At least she still wanted to be friends and that worked out for me for now. I was just hoping I'd be able to get over these feelings or else I'd be doomed.

I didn't want to lose y/n as a friend but I also couldn't help that I had started to like her.

I wasn't sure where to go from here and honestly, I was a little stressed.

Letting the thought slip away, I tried to make the best of the rest of the time we hung out.

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Once y/n had left I went straight to calling Namjoon to fill him in like I said I would.

After I finished telling him everything his jaw was to the ground.

"Oh wow. She really turned you down. I'm surprised." Namjoon says and I frown.

"I shouldn't even had said anything but I didn't want to lie again after the first lie about having already kissed people. I felt bad enough but now I just feel worse." I sigh.

Namjoon shrugs then as he speaks again. "Who knows, maybe this is a good thing. Maybe you'll find someone even better that you like more."

I scoffed, knowing that wouldn't happen. I had been here for almost a month or so now and I still had yet to meet any other girls besides Y/n and Ari.

Not that I was looking. As you know, y/n is really the only person I'm setting my sights on. Well, was.

"It doesn't matter now. There's nothing I can do but let it go if I want to continue being friends with her, and I really do. She's awesome Joon, I wish you could meet her." I sigh and Namjoon grins.

"You said you were going to visit soon right?! Why don't you bring her with you?"

My eyes widen slightly. "There's no way I could do that. Yoongi said the same thing and I just know if I brought her there my family would get the wrong idea. Now she'd probably get the wrong idea too."

Namjoon shrugged as he let out a chuckle. "I doubt it. Friends go on trips together all the time. It's not weird unless you make it weird." He says and that instantly makes me think of what y/n said earlier.

It's not weird unless you make it weird.

That was true and they were both right.

"You know what, yeah. Maybe I will see if she wants to come too!" I say, now feeling overly confident about it.

"That's the spirit! Then I'll look forward to meeting her!" Namjoon grins as he leans back in his chair, an accomplished look on his face.

This idea was a good one, but it was also risky. Either y/n took it well or she got weirded out so I could only hope for the best.

I just hope it didn't blow up in my face.

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A/n. - I already know y'all are gonna be mad over this chapter 😂 I'm just waiting for it lol