Y/N'S POV

Waking up the next day I groan as I hold my head, mad at myself for getting drunk after claiming I wasn't going to drink much.

I didn't even remember what happened yesterday after saying I'd rather fuck Hoseok, which by the way, I wish I'd have been drunk then so at least I had an excuse for saying something like that.

Gathering what little strength I had, I got out of bed and headed straight to the shower.

I made sure not to take too long just in case anyone else wanted to get it. After I was finished I got dressed then headed out to the living room.

Right away I saw Mingyu in the kitchen making coffee.

"Is everyone still sleeping?" I ask and Mingyu turns to me and nods.

"Yeah I think so. Coffee?" He asks and knowing it would probably help me feel less groggy, I take him up on that offer.

Mingyu hands me a cup of coffee as we both sit down at the kitchen table.

"How bad was I last night?" I ask as I take a sip, the warm drink soothing my throat and warming me up.

Mingyu laughed right away. "I wouldn't say bad but you two were bombed. Dancing around acting crazy. You even said you two were going to make out in private."

"Oh god." I say and Mingyu looks at me from over his mug.

"Did you guys?" He asks in a joking voice but I wouldn't be surprised if he was actually curious.

"Of course not. Well, not that I remember..." I say honestly and Mingyu raises his brows as he laughs.

"Well let's hope not. I was hoping to be the only one to kiss her." He says and my eyes widen.

"Does that means you two are finally gonna date?!" I ask and he says,

"Maybe...There's just one thing standing in the way." I tilt my head. "What is that?"

"About what happened sophomore year. I want her to know before I ask her, just in case she suddenly hates me afterwards." He starts and then he frowns as he sets his cup down.

"I'm really sorry about that by the way. I don't know why I hesitated to stop him but I regret it every single day. I hope you can forgive me."

"Of course I'll forgive you, but only because you've proved to me you're not a bad guy...and I'll tell her soon I just didn't want to ruin things for you guys. Since you're waiting to ask her until then I guess there's no reason not to." I say and before Mingy can say anything else, Hoseok enters the room.

"Morning, coffee?" Mingyu smiles in his direction and Hoseok nods as he takes a seat at the table with us.

"Sleep well?" I ask as I glance over at him but right away I notice him avoid my eyes.

"Yeah, you? Are you badly hungover?" He asks, reaching for his cup as Mingyu sets it down.

"Good and not too bad but definitely feeling it." I say, the headache still there.

"They were so crazy last night. I wonder if tonight will be the same." Mingyu says.

"Oh definitely not. I'll need a break after last night. I was already crazy without the drinking I don't need to add to it." I sigh and Hoseok agrees.

"Did I do something to you for you to think that?" I ask, scared of what he'd say.

Hoseok seemed flustered at my question and that was my answer right there.

"What did I do?" I ask, even more nervous now. I didn't want to make him more uncomfortable and it seems I probably did.

"You wanted to kiss me. I said no of course so don't worry." Hoseok says and my face falls.

"Why'd you say no? Were you that grossed out by the thought of kissing me?" I ask, obviously offended. Right away Hoseok shakes his head, saying the last thing I had expected him to.

"Of course not. If you weren't drunk I probably would have."

"Oh wow. I'm just gonna..." Mingyu trails off before he stands up and hurries out of the room.

Once the two of us were alone I finally managed to speak.

"I'm sorry I tried to kiss you...I tend to get like that when I drink. I'm sorry you had to deal with that." I say, completely avoiding what he had just said.

"It's fine I understand. You were drunk it was harmless." Hoseok says. "Yeah you're right. Also I'm sorry for what I said about the sex thing yesterday. Joshua just gets under my skin so much I just said the first thing that came to mind." I say as I pull in my bottom lip.

"It's alright I get it. I know you only said it to get to him. I know you didn't mean it so it doesn't matter." Hoseok says and I look away, not keeping eye contact.

"Y/n?" Hoseok asks slowly and I turn my head back to look at him. "Hm?"

"You didn't mean it right?" He asks and something in his voice sounds a little weird. He seemed almost nervous.

"Well I didn't not mean it. I'd definitely rather sleep with you then him again. I'm sorry if that's weird but it's true."

Hoseok shifted in his seat slightly, his cheeks tinting pink.

Knowing that probably made him uncomfortable, I faked a laugh. "It's totally theoretically, don't worry! I don't mean anything by it I was just trying to get Joshua to fuck off." I say as I stand up, walking to the sink and placing my cup down.

From behind me, I could have swore I heard Hoseok sigh but I was probably hearing things.

"We're just friends after all! Believe me, I don't even see you as fuckable haha strictly friends." I say, thinking that's what he'd want to hear and then realizing just how messed up that sounded.

"That's not what I meant, I'd definitely fuck you if you wanted to and- you know what, I'll shut up." I say, taking my leave before I could embarrass myself further.

Knowing it would just be best for everyone, I locked myself away in my room.

Where I could be an idiot all by myself.

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Later that day, after everyone was finally up and active, I took it upon myself to ask Hoseok if he wanted to head out to the dock.

I wanted to apologize for acting so weird earlier and possibly making him uncomfortable.

Sometimes I just had diarrhea of the mouth and I didn't know when to shut up.

As you can see.

Luckily, Hoseok agreed and we were currently sitting on the dock, our feet dangling above the water.

"I'm really sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable at all. I have no filter sometimes and I need to work on that." I say and Hoseok laughs.

"No it's okay. That's just who you are and I like how you are. Don't worry, I understand." He says and I smile, glad he wasn't completely weirded out by me.

"So...what was that about you saying you'd kiss me if I wasn't drunk." I tease even though I was also very curious.

Hoseok looked over at me then before he shrugs. "I'm not sure. I just think you're very cute and so if you wanted to I don't see why not." He says and I feel my cheeks heat a bit, shockingly.

"Unless you think that's weird since we're just friends and all." He then adds.

"No um , I mean, I don't know. Maybe it's a little weird..." I say.

Hoseok shrugs as he turns his head to look back at the water.

On the other hand, Hoseok was really cute and I mean...why not. Especially if he says it wouldn't mean anything.

"Okay, I want to." I say and Hoseok turns to look at me and even though he mentioned it, he seems shocked.

"You do?" He asks. "Yeah, only if you do. It's just a kiss right, no strings attached. It may even get Joshua to back off a bit if he finds out." I say, liking the idea.

"Yeah, right. That sounds like a good idea." Hoseok says. "Okay good." Hoseok nods. "Good, yeah. Okay."

I watch as Hoseok starts to lean in. "Here I go." He says and I nod, feeling the awkwardness.

"Okay."

Then he closes the gap between us as he finally kisses me.

As soon as he pulled away, he stood up and hurried off in the other direction, leaving me to wonder...

What the fuck just happened.