Dan's Overhead

Phil was still sitting on the sofa when Dan came out of his room. Phil seemed bored without something to read. Dan went back into his room and through his old things in the closet. Blowing off a thin layer of dust, Dan pulled out an old box of things he owned, but never went into. He dug around until finding what he hoped to see, an older book called "Jane Eyre."

Dan went out and handed the book to Phil. "I don't know if you've read this yet, but it's an old classic I read in my last year of schooling."

"'Jane Eyre?' I've never read it. I've heard it's a difficult one to read."

"Yeah, tough words. It was good though. You can keep it."

He smiled at him brightly. "Thank you, Dan." Phil opened the book and started the first page.

"Do you want to get changed into something more comfortable?" he offered.

"I didn't exactly pack."

"It's ok, I have a lot of sleepwear. You can borrow something." Dan went back to his room and dug through his drawers for something for Phil to wear. He pulled out a loose t-shirt and baggy sleep pants for him, then went back out and handed them to him. "Here, these should do."

"Thanks." Phil was directed to the bathroom to change in, and came out quickly. "They're nice," he commented.

"You look cute in my clothes," Dan said sweetly.

Phil blushed and laid his folded day clothes on the sofa, along with his glasses. He rubbed his eyes and opened them, looking at Dan.

Dan admired Phil's beautiful face. His crystal-blue eyes were staring at his darker ones. Dan was completely taken by him. He walked over to him and held him by the hips, kissing his perfectly soft lips. Phil took it and held Dan around the neck lovingly. He didn't want it to end.

"I love you, Phil."

He didn't speak, just continued to kiss. Dan could see in his eyes that he thought the same.

"Dan," he finally said. "I want to be yours."

"Mine?"

"Dan, I have never had anybody in my life. Nobody loved me or cared about me, and I would be reminded every day how unloved I was. I didn't want live anymore."

Dan cradled Phil's arms in his as he listened to him.

"I would have... 'taken the exit,' if you know what I mean. I couldn't take living like somebody's punching bag anymore, especially if nobody even knew. I've never been able to not live in fear. But of all the things that have happened to me, you've got to be the best. You protected me and made me happy. You told me I was beautiful, and that you loved me. And I love you more than any book I've ever read. I mean, I want to be with you forever."

Dan didn't know what to think. His mind raced with horrid thoughts of Phil committing suicide. That can't happen. That will never happen. He hugged around his thin body. "I love you. You have me. You will always have me. Please, please never leave me."

Phil hugged him tightly. "Stay with me," he cried quietly.

"I will."

Phil pulled back and looked deeply at him. "I just want to know why."

"Why what?"

"Why you love me."

"Why? Why I love you? Phil, when I first saw you all alone at the library, I thought you were the most perfect thing I'd ever seen. I would watch you read and smile at your books, and I couldn't help but want to see you smile more. Then I tried to talk to you, and I fell in love with your personality. I love your eyes and the way they look at me. I learned about those that hurt you. I couldn't stop myself from believing everything they would do was wrong. And to be perfectly honest, if it were anybody else, I probably - no, I wouldn't - care as much. But it was you who got the shit in life, and that hurt me. I love how perfect you are, the way you speak and the way do everything you do. I think the way you read is adorable, and I wouldn't mind spending my life with you. Explaining how I feel about you would be like trying to explain what love even is and how you get it. You aren't really supposed to know, you just feel it."

Phil smiled and nodded. He couldn't speak.

"And I would be honored to be with you forever. I am nothing, but I am still the luckiest man in the world, because I have you."

"What do you mean you're nothing? You're amazing. You have the biggest heart I've ever had the decency to meet. You're beautiful, no, you're gorgeous, and I'm still trying to understand why you're into me."

"Because you're you."

Phil kissed him again. "Thank you. I needed this. I needed you."

"I love you, Phil. Please don't doubt that."

"I wont. I love you too."

Phil kissed Dan with lust. He couldn't even begin to express everything Dan has done for him. It was just so much. Dan took him to the sofa and cuddled him in his arms.

Being wrapped in Dan's arms made him smile. "I've always thought cuddles are sometimes better than kisses in a relationship."

He kissed his forehead. "I like both." Dan then pulled and kept Phil's body close to him. "You're safe here," he whispered. "I promise."