Hello my lovely readers!

How are you all?

I have been receiving such beautiful messages from many of you. Your well wishes and those kind words were honestly overwhelming but in a very good way. I don't have many friends or family who care about my health that much. Especially since depression for Indian families is pretty much a taboo topic. So your concern really touched my heart. Thank you for caring.

I wanted to give you all an update about my health. I'm feeling much better now. I'm still on meds for depression and anxiety but it's been helping me tremendously. I am hoping to become more better so that I can be taken off the pills. I don't like taking them because they often times make me feel queasy and not in the right state of mind like I normally am. So hopefully, I will be able to get off them soon.

I am working on an update for you all. I am just finishing the editing and will post it 2moro. So I hope you guys are excited for it.

Thank you for so many reads. I never thought this book will get so much love so thank you.

I wanted to answer some of the questions that I frequently get from you guys about this book. You people are too shy by the way... there were no comments on the Q&A update but many of you messaged me personally to ask questions. I don't bite my lovelies... unless you ask me nicely. 😅

So to start off, the most frequent question I get asked is : What inspired this story or how this story was born.

Don't worry. It's not a dramatic explanation like undocile. Lmao.

Undocile was born out of my frustration, but this book was born out of my dedication and imagination. I'm a big fan of angst. You must be aware of that by now lol.

So I randomly visualized a character one day. To put it simply, this story came to be because of this one character I visualized. And no, it wasn't taekook.

Believe it or not, the first character I visualized for this book was Jimin. An oblivious omega who didn't realize how his actions were contributing to the hurt of a matebond between two mates.

After that, the Alpha lead's character was born. I initially wrote Jungkook as the Alpha since I don't have many books with Jungkook as the dominant one, but it just didn't fit well in my head. Especially after I visualized what the omega would be like.

For the omega, I wanted to break the stereotype that most omegas in were-verse are portrayed as, you know, someone soft and feminine etc. I wanted the omega to be masculine, have tattoos and be strong willed, but also be soft in his fragility. So that's why Jungkook fit perfectly for this role.

I will admit, I didn't really plan on writing the abuse arc. It just happened with the flow. I winged most of this book. The ideas just kept piling in my head with each chapter that I wrote and it kinda set off the pace for the book as well.

I was only certain about one thing though, and that was the Alpha's actions. I didn't want to write a typical book where the Alpha rejects the mate bond but stays civil with his mate for the sake of their pretend marriage. It seemed too pretentious. I wanted the Alpha to be portrayed as an abuser because mental abuse is a real thing. So only that part of the story I was certain about. That's why Taehyung's previous actions were portrayed so harshly. Because I wanted it to hurt. After all, the fluff after the hurt is honestly my favourite thing about angsty books.

So yeah, that's how this book was born. I am still winging it, to be honest, though I have envisioned what the ending for this book will be like. Don't worry, it's taekook endgame till the end. Happily ever after and all.

The second most asked question was not about the book, but about me surprisingly. It was: How do you manage to come up with these ideas?

Honestly, I don't know. I just see something, like a video or a picture and my brain just conjures ideas I guess. I have a very good imagination so that makes it easy. Most of my prompts, the one I published and the ones that are in my drafts are simply born because of my inability to shut off my brain. I often get ideas when I think about the types of book that I would like to read.

These two questions were asked most frequently. The other questions I will answer in an official Q&A just before the book is about to finish.

I hope you enjoyed this little drabble. I bored you all, didn't I?

Thank you for coming to my Noonz Talk 😗💜

And thank you for caring about me💜

Borahae dear readers😘💜😘

Next update is 2moro😊

Noonz♡