Trigger warning: Mentions of implied abuse and trauma.

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It took about an hour for Jungkook to finally calm down, and by then, he was exhausted beyond limits that he couldn't even keep his eyes open.

Taehyung kept holding him, rocking him gently in his arms as they both sat on the cold floor of the living room. Taehyung kept letting out his calming pheromones, in the hopes that the omega would finally feel safe from the demons that seemed to be wrecking the younger's mind.

When he felt Jungkook get droopy, eyes closing and body relaxing, he quietly picked him up, adjusting him in his arms to secure his body and walked towards the younger's bedroom, opening the door and gently placing the sleeping younger onto the bed.

He took Jungkook's shoes off gently, removing his leather coat as well, before he grabbed some cleansing wipes and wiped the omega's face clean, being careful to not wake him up.

After he was done, he retreated to the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water along with some painkillers, bringing them back to Jungkook's room and placing it on the desk beside his bed.

He stayed seated on the edge of the bed, just observing the sleeping omega who seemed to be having a bad dream, face twisting as if he was in pain.

Taehyung took one hand of his mate into his own, gently stroking on the skin, hoping that it helps soothe the omega even a little bit.

Taehyung was so afraid to leave the younger alone now. He just couldn't will himself to leave when he knew Jungkook was probably in his own hell with whatever dreams haunted him and Taehyung wished there was something he could do to ease that.

He stood up after a while, not wanting to seem like a creep and walked to the doorway, sitting down on the floor while leaning against the open door, eyes on the sleeping omega, never once wavering. His calming pheromones filled the air, as the omega seemed to finally settle down into a peaceful sleep at last.

But Taehyung couldn't bring himself to sleep.

He knows, he will have to talk to jungkook again regarding this. Regarding his suspicions but if the omega's little panic attack was any indication, then the talk wouldn't be so pretty. It will get ugly really quickly.

He will have to approach the younger cautiously, very very cautiously.

If what Taehyung's mind is telling him is right, then that will change a lot of things.

A whole lot of things.

It would mean that he would have to be very careful with his mate, very careful in making sure that nothing he does triggers his mate.

Taehyung closed his eyes, thinking back to that look of fear in the younger's eyes and god, he just felt so helpless. He doesn't know how to help Jungkook if what he suspects is true.

Abuse.

That one word, in itself gave Taehyung chills. He can't let himself believe that his precious mate had even gone through something like that.

Judging by Jungkook's words, it painted the picture of physical abuse and Taehyung just couldn't bring himself to imagine just what kind of physical abuse. Was it just physical or did it involve sexual abuse as well?

Taehyung doesn't know what he will do if he is right. He really doesn't know.

Trauma.

If what Taehyung is thinking is true, then whatever happened to Jungkook in his past had left the younger traumatized.

Jungkook had seemed so confused, so panicked, like he wasn't able to understand what was happening and why it was happening. Like he couldn't remember what had happened, but his mind was just supplying words that he needed to say in his fear, like his mind was programmed to say it. Was his mate suffering from immense trauma that his memories were perhaps, repressed?

Taehyung knew he would have to talk to a professional about this. There was no way Taehyung was talking to Jungkook directly about this because that would mean causing more damage unintentionally, and Taehyung needed to know how to behave with the omega so that he doesn't hurt or harm him further. He needed to be sure about how to approach the omega with this topic first so that he doesn't cause more harm than what was already done.

Taehyung hated this. Feeling so helpless. How does he help Jungkook fight the demons of his own mind?

He can try to be better for Jungkook, make sweet gestures for Jungkook, give him flowers and all those sweet things that other mates do but in this case, those things wouldn't work.

His sweet gestures were apparently a triggering point, if Taehyung had judged the situation correctly.

"..I don't even deserve this.... I never wanted this....You need to stop...never meant for me..."

His sweet gestures had triggered something, something that had sent the younger into a spiral of panic.

But why? Those sweet gestures were the only way that Taehyung knew he could make up to the younger.

He had done the same sweet gestures that he had previously done, when he was trying to keep his promise to Jimin and that time, it hadn't triggered anything so why now?

What changed?

Taehyung doesn't remember doing anything different. He did the same things, said the same things. What did he do new?

What had been the trigger?

Fuck. Taehyung needed help. And he didn't know who to call. He can possibly call Jimin and ask him to talk to Yoongi but he doesn't want to involve Jungkook's friend who most probably had no idea.

Taehyung doesn't want to make things worse for Jungkook.

The jeons? Maybe they could help but what exactly was he going to say to them?

Hey, Eomma and Appa, did you abuse your son and my mate when he was younger or did someone you know do it?

Yeah, he can't exactly ask that because he doesn't even know if what he suspects is right or its just him reading way too much into the incident.

Taehyung was so lost. What was the truth?

Taehyung doesn't know where to begin. Who to go to for help.

He wants to help Jungkook, but he doesn't know how to.

He has already failed Jungkook by being such a cruel and bad mate and he just seems to keep failing his mate further by not knowing what to do!

Taehyung stared at his mate, looking so fragile lying there, and he hopes he can think of a solution pretty soon.

He just hopes he doesn't mess it any more than he already did.

Taehyung couldn't help but softly whisper as he kept observing the younger from afar,

"Just what happened to you baby?"

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Hello

I just wanted to explain something.

Abuse and trauma is a very sensitive topic. Nearly any small thing can trigger the trauma and you can never know what so don't be confused. It can be any small thing like eating or words or even as small as the brush of a hand.

Please note that Taehyung doesn't know for sure if Jungkook was abused and what he witnessed was trauma but he has his suspicions. Nothing is confirmed as of yet.

What do you all think? Do you think Jungkook had an abusive past that is repressed by his brain or its just his insecurities acting up?

Let me know your thoughts and how you like the story so far 🙂