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Jungkook had woken up after 2 weeks in the hospital. Werewolf healing allowed his body to heal faster than a normal wolf, and yet his mind was still in shambles.

Physically, he was okay but mentally he was broken. So so broken.

He hadn't spoken to anyone when he woke up, losing all strength to even think of replying to their countless questions.

"How are you feeling?"

"You should have told us kookie, we would have understood"

"Do you feel any pain? Should I get the doctor?"

"Are you hungry?"

"Are you sure you are fine?"

The questions didn't seem to end. And for once Jungkook didn't want to lie. But he also didn't want to worry his parents and hyungs, so he opted to just stay quiet.

How can he just tell them that he wasn't fine? He isn't fine. And probably never will be.

His wolf seemed quiet too, just lingering in the background, not really approaching him.

Jungkook knew why his omega was being so apprehensive in his head.

The marking.

Jungkook had felt the mark when he had regained consciousness and he knew, it was the mark that had saved him.

Funny how he spent four years with Taehyung, married might I add and yet his alpha never marked him. Never even looked at him. When all it took was him nearly dying for the Alpha to mark him without consent.

Was he supposed to be grateful for such cruelty? Knowing the only reason Taehyung marked him was because he was dying?

No. He wasn't grateful at all. Not when he knows that he had, in a way, binded the Alpha to himself when he was fully aware that Taehyung didn't want him. Couldn't even tolerate him.

Jungkook hated it. Hated the mark with an intensity he didn't understand.

Hatred. A word that was so foreign to him.

Jungkook was always a gentle soul. He was strong willed, no doubt, but he was also very kind. He has never truly hated anyone or anything ever in his life, except now.

And for the hatred to be towards something he had been craving for, ever since finding his mate was just too much.

He hated himself.

For being so weak. Even hated his omega for accepting Taehyung's apology and accepting the marking.

He hated it all. So damn much.

But most of all, he hated Taehyung with all his being.

The love that he had for the Alpha had turned to hate ever so vigorously that Jungkook couldn't even control it. 

While his Omega had accepted Taehyung's apology and his mark, Jungkook hated it with his very core.

The Jungkook from two weeks ago would have been super ecstatic about the whole thing. But the Jungkook of today has changed. Changed into this person he doesn't recognize.

He is frustrated. And angry. So so angry.

The words that Taehyung had uttered with absolute venom that day were deeply embedded in his head.

"I'll rather have him die than ever accept him"

It keeps ringing in his head, those words and that hatred in Taehyung's voice.

It was pathetic to think back to how dumb he had been. Deluding himself into believing that someday things would be better.

He was stupid to ever think his mate will give him the love he craved for.

It was all just a delusion. A stupid desperate delusion.

And this brush with death had finally woken him up from this stupid delusion that he had, finally clearing his mind and making him face the harsh reality.

He was unwanted.

That's all he will ever be.

Yes, Taehyung had marked him.  But it was only to save his life.

It all just seemed like an obligation to Jungkook. A debt that he now had to pay. A baggage he now had to carry.

And he hated it. So damn much.

If he could choose, if he could control his omega when the marking had happened, he would have chosen death gladly than to be stuck in this hellhole with a mark that he absolutely loathed.

Taehyung had been there with him, visiting him from time to time, and even now, Jungkook could feel Taehyung outside the room but he couldn't bring himself to even look at his mate. To even see the face of the person who had broken him so cruelly.

He didn't want to lash out. He didn't want to say things out loud that he knows will be hurtful.

He just wasn't that kind of a person.

But his anger wanted to be let out. Wanted to be free.

He could only hope that he can control it, before the dam breaks and he ends up cursing the Alpha to hell.

Jungkook sighed. It was tiring. Carrying around this anger and hatred inside him. He was exhausted, constantly having to fight his omega's stupid need for the Alpha.

His omega wanted his mate, wanted to feel safe in Taehyung's arms while Jungkook, he would rather throw himself off the roof than let Taehyung touch him.

To put it simply, he was just so damn tired. So fucking drained.

And so damn broken.

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Taehyung sat outside the room, listening to the steady heartbeat of his mate. He knew Jungkook was awake but he didn't dare to enter and approach him.

Jungkook had closed off the bond now, but it was still open when he had first woken up.

And Taehyung had felt every emotion, all the anger and every bit of hatred that Jungkook felt towards him.

He had felt all the pain, all the anguish that Jungkook was feeling. It was too much.

Way too much.

Taehyung couldn't bear it all, and to think that Jungkook, an omega, a wolf who was deemed to be the most fragile of their hierarchy had carried that much pain for years and actually survived this long was just chilling to the bone.

There was no doubt the omega was one of the strongest people Taehyung had ever met.

Taehyung hated himself even more now. How could he hurt such a strong person?

Just how badly had he broken his mate who was otherwise so strong willed that his mate had nearly ended up dying?

Just what had he done?

Taehyung didn't want to hurt Jungkook anymore. Didn't want to cause Jungkook anymore pain.

He could feel how Jungkook's scent soured whenever he went near him, how those doe eyes darkened with an intensity that scared the shit out of Taehyung.

He was trying his best to give Jungkook space.

Yes. He wanted to fix his mistakes but he didn't know where to start.

How does one undo years of pain and heartbreak?

Taehyung was just so lost. So scared.

Scared of losing the boy he never wanted in the first place. A boy who had suddenly became so important to him.

And the funny thing was that Taehyung didn't even understand why.

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Hello.

Listen to this please to understand just how Taehyung is going to be feeling as the story progresses:

This song is officially the title song for this story cuz it fits perfectly. Just replace the word "girl" with "boy" 😊

Song credit: "What I put you through" by Connor Maynard.

The song is amazingly heartbreaking😔😔

This is just the beginning for a whole lot of hate, and pain as the story continues.

Let's hope Taehyung is even half as strong as Jungkook was.