juju🌸.

i walked downstairs to make breakfast and i noticed that kk didn't come home last night. so i decided to call her and make sure she good.

i clicked her contact and then she walked into the kitchen making me hang up.

"hi love" i said and she nodded. she grabbed a water and started to walk.. i huffed and sat down the pan.

"kk.. we need to talk" i said.

"we ain't got sh** to talk about judea" she said.

"why you gotta act like this kamorea ? like i don't understand. why did i think marriage would make you grow up man. you still k childish. if we can't talk about our problems this marriage ain't gone work" i raising my voice a little.

"because you don't even trust me with my own son.. how do you want me to feel man ?"

"baby i trust you okay i just don't think it was right for you to do that to bronny and bryce when they haven't done anything wrong."

"i'm sorry about what i said.. i was wrong especially since you care about the safety of our child" i said.

"look i just need time to figure out my feelings so" she said rubbing her forehead.

"figure out your feelings or run from em like you always do ? kamorea i can't keep doing this sh** every time we argue man. i love you but i'm tired of crying over you cus you left and don't come back until 24 hrs later"

"so what judea lemme be in my feelings man d***. it's like your the perfect mom while i'm stuck being the mad one"

"no one said i'm the perfect mom kk because i'm not.. i make mistakes just like you do. and that's okay because it's normal especially since it's our first time."

"kk your an amazing mom.. you just worry to much and that's normal my love" i told her.

"yeah well obviously it's not good enough" she told me. & that made me wanna tweak out so bad.

"kamorea im trying man.. idk what else you want me to do. why are you so d*** salty ? like it's not that serious. it's so hard to please you."

"now what judea ?"

"i think we need a break" i whispered in tears.

"so now you wanna divorce ? cus im not in the mood great whatever" she said.

"i don't want a divorce kk.. okay i love you. i do but this is to much. we obviously need time away from each other because we constantly arguing and that's not good especially for kayden."

"that's what you want fine" kk said as her voice cracked.

"it's not want i want mama but it's what we need" i replied.

kk went upstairs and grabbed her stuff. i took a deep breath as tears streamed down my face.. why is our marriage falling apart like this. i'm so drained and i thought us getting married would make me so happy. i'm so lost i don't even know how to feel anymore.

i watched as tears ran down her face.. she looked at me and then walked out. us having a baby really took a toll on our relationship. because kk doesn't know how to communicate her feelings.

although it's rough for us kayden will always be my biggest blessing. i feel like if kk could tell me how she felt and we could talk it out it would help our marriage so much. but she always shut me out no matter what.

kk: me and juju done.

juju: guyss..

kk: aye it was her choice.

juju: it was not kk, i said we should take a BREAK. because she still doesn't know how to communicate how she feels. she always shut me out and it's taking a toll on our marriage.

jada: guys 🥺.. yall love each other to much for this.

bronny: i think you guys she talk it out.

bryce: but yall are so in love.. and yall have a beautiful son.

juju: I TRIED.. over and over and over.. but kk she just doesn't know how to communicate. she'd rather our marriage go down the drain then talk right kamorea ?

kk: no i just have so much built up right now.

rayah: omgg 😔😔.

aaliyah: noo bruh.

amoura: but yall are meant for each other 😔.

juju: i'm sorry guys.. i tried i really did. i did everything i could and it's just not enough.

kk🦋.

me and juju taking a break from each other kind of hurts. because i love that girl with everything in me and i wanna be with her forever. apart of me just don't know what to say.

i'm hurting but how do i tell her that. i want our marriage to work especially for the sake of our son but me not communicating is hurting that.

the day we got married we vowed to love each other through thick and think and sickness and health. but i feel like all that is falling apart.

bronny: i think kk needs to go back to therapy. maybe it will help her open up.

kk: i'm not crazy I DON'T NEED NO D*** THERAPY LEBRON JAMES JR.

bryce: okay but obviously your hurting kk. it's not just about what happened between us. it's something deeper that's holding you back.

juju: exactly baby. it's more than that and it's hurting you. i just wanna help you.

i put my phone down and sighed. wiping the tears from my eyes.. i hadn't felt like this in years and i don't miss it. i loved being happy and it's leaving me. i picked up and my phone and looked at juju's message.

myywife🩷: i love you 🥺 forever kk. i promise i care about you. but your hurting and you want let me help you love. you keep shutting me out when i'm here for you. you just gotta open up to the right person.. i love you! it's forever us and i'm here for you whenever 💍🤞🏾.

i smiled at her message but didn't open it. i had to find the right words to her before i respond. i love this girl and this message made me realize why i married her. she's amazing and so understanding. she's patient with me and that's what i need from someone.

chapter 39🥹! i haven't did 2 chapters in one day in a minute lol. they taking a break guys.. but juju is so understanding and patient! vote and comment🙃!